Shadows Of My Heart (poetry from the soul; for the soul)

My Reluctance

There was always something about you,

That never ceased to amaze me,

The way you pissed me off continuously,

Yet completely without fail,

Drove me out of my sadness and anger.

Friends?

Of that we were never,

Our heart's selfless desires forever separated our wishes.

We fought,

We failed,

We learnt to move on.

Sitting there alone never quite made sense.

And now all obstacles have been removed,

Yet we stand,

So close,

Yet so far,

Our minds,

Our hearts,

Never with us,

We are our own obstacles now.

The only thing that stands between you and I,

Is me,

And everyday fear unravels,

As time wears on,

I find it harder to avoid the error of saying,

Love instead of like.

An error I call it,

But is it really?

And though the word may scare you,

It cannot begin to compensate for my own fear,

Swallowing this I can say,

That like just might be an understatement.