She Who Stole My Beastly Heart

Chapter 10-Sinful Lips

CHAPTER 10: Sinful Lips

•KLAD'S POV•

BUONG akala ko habang dumadaan ang mga oras ngayong gabi ay tatanungin ako ni Vice patungkol kung bakit ako nandito? Kung bakit ang isang katulong na kagaya ko ay nirerepresenta si Mr. Bautista sa engrandeng engagement party na 'to. But it turned out that I was the one asking in my mind why he didn't get confuse.

I might be innocent as what Claire always said, but I was not stupid. Hindi ako bobo para hindi ma-proseso ang lahat ng 'to. Alam ba niya? Hindi ba siya nagtataka kung bakit nakapasok ako sa ganitong salu-salo ng mga prominenteng mga tao sa bansa?

I did not even see confusions in his eyes. Ang mga tingin niya nang makita akong kasama si Mars ay inis at galit lang, pero hindi dahil nagtataka siya kung bakit nandito ako, kundi dahil parang nahawakan ang bagay na sa kanya lang.

Iwinaksi ko mula sa aking pag-iisip na maaaring may alam si Vice sa pagkatao ko, at nakatingin lang ako sa kanya mula rito sa mesa namin ni Mars na kausap ang ibang politiko. Mangha ako kung gaano siya ka propesyonal na makipag-usap sa mga ito. One of the known Senators said to him a statement that he only shook his head smiling. He was just busy talking there and my whole system was taken out from my body by his presence. This feeling was always here and I should really name this because I might going crazy if I can't sort this out.

Napawi ang masasayang ngiti sa aking mga mata nang lumapit ang babae na kayakap niya kanina sa gitna nang kanilang seryosong pag-uusap. Tumabi siya kay Vice and he just gave her a warm smile. May sinabi ulit ang mga Senador sa kanya na ikinatawa ng babae, dahil para umabresete ang babae kay Vice na hindi naman pinansin ng lalaki at hinayaan lang niya.

At dahil sa natunghayan ko, I concluded they much more match to be a good couple than that of the girl in the restaurant. And that idea hit the core my heart, my feeling sank down.

Couple? Persons who were made for each other, match for each other, who will feel the romantic love they were naming.

I know we will never be that romantic couple. I was always being lectured by Claire about how it was forbidden to be entered of. Alam na alam ko ang bagay na bawal na iyan. Bawal akong umibig sa lalaki, exclusively.

As religious sisters, we vowed to be chaste and pure, meaning we should not enter into marriage, and that includes the feeling of romantic love. I did not really know what were the signs if you feel the romantic love and it's frustrsting. Being a Sister, we were entailed to love inclusively. Pwede kaming magmahal na kung sinu-sino, tream them as brothers and sisters in the eyes of God, pero bawal kaming umibig, exclusively.

I was trained and learned to love everybody as family, not as a lover. Kaya mahirap e distinguish kung ano ang pagkakaiba sa kanilang dalawa.

Halos mabitawan ko ang hawak kong baso na may napagtanto ako. I never felt this kind of feeling towards my family, towards my friends, towards those people whom strangers to me and eventually know them...my heart never get hurt when I saw my love ones with another girl. Though I wanted to see them everyday, but I never felt so happy and contented just like when I see Vice everyday.

"Sister, are you okay?," nag-aalalang tanong ni Mars sabay hawak niya sa kamay kong nakapatong sa mesa. Nang hindi ako sumagot ay lumingon siya sa gawi ni Vice.

"I'm too confused. There are different kinds of love whom I learned, but I can never distinguish which is which because I never felt romantic love," kunot-noo kong sabi. "There various emotions my system is creating within me."

"Owh..." mangha niyang tanong na may kislap sa mga mata. "You can sort out. Just list the differences between those emotions. Tapos ipabasa mo sa akin at ako ang pagpapangalan kung ano ang ano."