Eternal Love | A Shawbrina Fanfic

Chapter 85- Sexual Harassment

Sabrina's POV

Shawn and I stared going to couples therapy a week ago, a lot of things have improved but there are just some things that are just too hard to change like...sex, the counselor told us that maybe a some our tension is caused by the lack of doing it. I honestly disagree, not everything is about sex, we can solve our problem without having it.
Anyways, my husband decided that giving it a try wouldn't hurt, gosh he couldn't be more wrong....
I don't know if I'm ready yet, I trust Shawn and I wanna be able to do it with him but the memories keep hitting me when I least expect it, plus, I feel guilty, I know that I didn't cheat on him but I could've put more effort to reject that guy, I could've asked for help instead of staying quiet and letting him do what he did to me.
"Sab, the babies are sleeping" he says with a smile
"Are you ready?" I hesitate for a second, I can't let what happened there define my relationship with Shawn, plus, I love him, I feel safe with him, screw it
"Yeah" I reply to him as I take his hands on mine and walk towards the bedroom
"You have no idea of how much I've missed you"  he whispers in my ear with a raspy and deep voice while gently touching my shoulders.
"I've missed you too" I whisper back, looking down
"Sabrina?"
"Yeah?" he tilts my chin up in order for me to look at him in the eyes
"I love you" I smile
"And I love you too" we slowly lean in for a kiss. I wrap my arms around his neck and finally interlock our lips. The kiss is slow and romantic at the beginning but Shawn decides to deepen it by adding the tongue. I hesitantly give him access but after a little bit I let loose myself and eventually our tongues fight for dominance, spoiler alert: he wins.
We decide to move our makeout session to the bed so now my back is laying against the mattress while Shawn is on top of me, kissing every spot of my neck.
"Do you like it?" My negative thoughts from before are now long gone. I moan in response because he's doing an awesome job right now. Unfortunately he pulls away to take off his shirt, in the meanwhile I help him with his belt by unbuckling it.
"Seems like you're very excited to do it too, babygirl" I bite my lip and take off the oversized shirt that I was wearing before, leaving me only in my panties
"Yeah, you can say I am" he smirks and gently takes off my panties
"Well, I'm pretty excited too" he says before taking off his pants along with the underwear. We're now both naked, in front of each other.
"Are you on the pill or do you want me to use a condom?"
"I'm on the pill" he smiles widely
"You made me the happiest man on earth Sabrina, I want you to know that" he says with one of his charming smiles before kissing me roughly, too roughly. I try to follow his lead but I start feeling a little bit uncomfortable after he squeezes my butt and leaves many hickeys on my neck. Damn, the memories kick in. I have to stop this before it goes too far
"Ready?"
"Sh-Shawn I-" I try to stop him but he's already inside of me
"Shawn, Shawn! Wait!" I scream as he thrusts into me, I punch his back with all of my strength
"Stop!" I start crying hysterically. He immediately pulls out with a shocked expression on his face
"Are you okay? Why are you crying?" he caresses my cheek but I slap his hand away
"Sabrina? Please tell me what's happening" He gets closer but I pull him away
"Get away from me!"
"What did I do? Please take a deep breath" I look down
"Just...just give me a few minutes alone" he sighs and puts his clothes back
"Sure. Remember that we have the appointment in two hours" I nod and he walks away. I hate it, I hate being controlled by this! It's not even Shawn's fault! He doesn't deserve this! Why did it had to happen? Why did I let it happen?!

*at the appointment*

"So, from what I've heard your communication skills have improved" I nod
"And this is very impressive since you've been visiting me for a week or so" the counselor says with a smile
"Have you guys followed my advice?" I gulp
"We tried but something went wrong" Shawn replies to her almost immediately with a pissed-and yet worried-tone.
"Oh, what went wrong?" I look down
"Sabrina? Would you mind telling me?" I turn as red as a tomato, my heart is racing up like crazy, I can't tell them yet, I'm not ready
"I-I didn't feel like it, that's it"
"Well, that's fine, sometimes the timing might not be perfect"
"Yeah but she literally started crying when I was inside of her, she was hysterical, it looked like she was scared"
"Shawn!" I exclaim
"Is that true?"
"Yeah" I mumble
"Why did you start crying Sabrina? What was going through your head?" I shrug
"Wrong answer. Remember that communication is a very important part for a healthy relationship. Are you hiding something?"
"What? No!"
"Sabrina please" this time is Shawn who talks
"Tell me, I know you're hiding something and the fact that it makes you so upset makes me sad because I don't know what to do help you" I feel it. The tears are forming in my eyes, they're almost ready to stream down my cheeks. They both look at me with worried looks, I can't hold it anymore.
"In the rehabilitation center..." he gently takes my hand
"Yeah?"
"There was this guy, an employee" His expression immediately changes from sad to rage
"He told me that he'd help me get out faster if I let him touch me..." I sniff
"I refused and after your visit I tried to get better as soon as possible to get out of there and as far away as possible from him but he just-" I choke through sobs
"He kept doing it, he would touch me repeatedly every day and told me that if I told anyone he'd make sure that I'd stay there for a very long time and I-"
"I didn't know what to do Shawn, I was confused and scared" I bury my head in his chest as he hugs me
"I've been sexually harassed for months! I don't feel like my body belongs to me anymore!" He shush me
"Everything is gonna be fine, I'll take care of it" he kisses my head, I can feel that he's very tense
"We'll get through this together"
"I'll help you guys"
"Thank you miss"
I keep crying, I feel relieved but at the same time I feel so scared, what is gonna happen now?
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