Only for One [ON HOLD DUE TO HEALTH ISSUES]

Dangerous Mind

!WARNING!: this chapter contains triggering events such as panic attacks. You have been warned, please read responsibly and at your own risk.

3rd person's POV

It's late, 10pm and finally the idols can go, but they don't want to bother Y/n while she's resting. After she ended her work, she put the laptop in her bag, slid more on the chair and with music, she closed her eyes. Now BTS don't know if she's sleeping or not. All are worried for her shoulder, that position isn't healthy for her back, she also seems to have a nightmare, her face is reigned by a distressed expression as if she's in pain and she's enduring it, drops of sweat are running down her chin...

"We should wake her up." suggests RM. "We can put her on the couch if she feels unwell."

"Sure." Jin is the first who supports the idea.

"I agree." the others as well, only Yoongi is insecure about waking the female up, he knows how annoying is when someone wakes somebody up and they don't want to get up yet.

"Sasha!" suddenly, Y/n scatters up with wide eyes, making the idols jump back for the scare. "Ah, not again..." she realizes after a few seconds that she's at work, so she tries to recompose herself quickly, rubbing her eyes, regulating her panting breath, her loud and crazy beating heart.

Not again...? A few idols reflect upon those two words.

Sasha...? Is that dude's name? I have heard that in a few parts of the world, Sasha is used as a name for boys... Thinks RM seeing her having troubles to calm herself down.

Y/n's POV

Shit, shit, shit. Please not this phase again, please, I don't need it! It was just a stupid nightmare!

"Excuse me." I keep my head low and walk out of the room.

I hear my heart beating hard against my chest, it hurts, I'm so cold I'm basically shaking, my breathing is not allowing me to breathe correctly and I have a feeling of choking... I go to the restroom and wash my face hoping to kick some sense back into myself, but it's not working. I feel worse and automatically, I dive my head under the water to wet my hair.

I can't allow myself to be weak against my mind, I'm stronger, I need to remember my grandma's lessons. I need to remember what she said when I was a kid. I keep repeating those words over and over, but I start to feel my legs tingling, my arms as well... My back is sweaty, I feel dizzy, my ears ring...

Just a stupid nightmare, huh? Who am I trying to fool? I'm still not over it and the more I remember him, the more I need his presence next to me... I suffer so much but I need to hide everything, for others' sake, I must conceal everything like the ocean and keep going like I always did til now.

I collapse on my knees holding my hands under the cold water. I sigh with a shaky voice, holding back my crying. "I miss you, Sasha..."

3rd person's POV

Meanwhile, the boys have taken the girl's stuff with them in the living-room and they waited for her for an hour or so. They all took a shower, changed and went there to eat together, but the woman isn't back yet.

While Seokjin and Jungkook are cooking, Taehyung and J-Hope set the table for dinner, Jimin and RM take beverages and plates for everyone, Yoongi helps a little but is still leaning against the wall to be the first one to hear Y/n when she will come.

"Do you think Sasha is that bastard's name?" guesses Jin waiting for her patiently but starting to be worried. "She looked like she was about to cry any moment."