I've been feeling quite numb emotionally as of late. I still feel stress but I feel like that is less of an emotion and more of a state of being. I think ever since I said I was going to move on from the person I loved, I feel like I've held myself back from ever getting into anything else because I'm scared of being hurt again. I'm scared of the pain.
It's sad because I can't remember a time recently where I've felt pure, unadulterated happiness. There's always been something lingering at the back of my mind, something that ruins my mood slightly.
It just feels like I'm slipping into a rut and I can't do anything to stop it.
