Invisible

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Nagisa's POV

My mind is on the run. To many things keep coming up for me. I think about my life, Sambre-kun, my parents, and Karma. With out even knowing I made it to my apartment. I push the door open since mom didn't lock it before she.....you know.
I roam around the apartment letting the memories of her control me. I stumble up the stairs, my heart hurting each step. The walls feel like they're closing on me once I make it up.

I stumble to my room, choking on the memories. I pick up my school bag practically dying at this point. I walk down the stairs again falling in the process. What the hell is wrong with me? I stumble out the apartment again. I fall to my knees dropping my school bag on the floor. My mind kept thinking. Sambre-kun becoming less frequent and Karma earning his spot.

Why am I thinking about Karma right now!?! I feel so agitated, I can't think straight. I bring my knees to my chest and silently cry. Is this I'm all I'm good at? Crying and waiting for help? I guess I really am useless. I get up again not even bothering to wipe the tears. I walk away from my apartment and try to make it down.

I step in the mushy snow as I trudge through it. My thoughts are killing me. My head hurts....I can't even walk straight. I feel like I'm stepping on needles and walking through poison gas, breathing every bit of the poison. It's starting to infect me. My vision is blurry and my thoughts become a blur. Then some become clear again....

Karma.....

I scratch at my head as I bump into everyone. My head hurts from all the scratching I'm doing. My fingers are becoming sore. Why today out of all days?

Karma...

I blink my eyes and the tears fall. It feels like acid as it falls down, leaving burn marks. I just want it to stop. I just want it to stop...

Karma....

I'm groaning each step I take. Where even am I anyway. I don't care at this point I just fall to my knees. My thoughts fluttering around like a tornado. It hurts....why can't I stop thinking?!?

KARMA!

The thoughts scream at me. I'm thinking of nothing else but him but why?!?! I scream out of frustration. I feel nothing no hands of comfort, I don't hear the voices of anyone. My tears are streaming down my face. My breath becomes choked I can't breath properly. I think I'm dying.... My heart feels like it's stopping. Is...is my body trying to prove a point?! I scratch at my head again, threads of hair falling out sometimes. My legs feel dead, my heart stopped, and my thoughts are ever-"

Karma...

I turn my head to see Karma and only Karma. I back away not wanting his help.....even though I want it...
I feel like I'm slipping away again. "Nagisa....please listen." He's the only voice I can hear. My thoughts stop flowing and die down. "Don't do this to yourself, don't do this..." My legs regain feeling. He's killing the disease. "I've been wanting to tell you this since yesterday." I can breath again the poison leaving my body.... "Ever since I met you I felt different..." I can see now. There's nobody around us just an empty street... "I felt lonely since all of my friends are in a different state. My parents even left me....."
His parents left too!? I guess we're not that different after all....
"But when you came in my life I felt a spark that I've never felt in my life..."
I begin to walk towards Karma again wanting his warmth. "I've realized that feeling I felt was love..."
I stop in my tracks and look at him feeling perfectly normal at this point. "Y-you felt....love towards me?" He nodded slowly and smiled warmly. This smile made me cry. He walked up to me and held my chin. "Yeah I felt love for the first time Nagisa..." His face came closer as I closed my eyes knowing what was happening.

   Something came to my lips. It felt soft but it felt like it could cure the worst diseases. The feeling stopped as Karma pulled his lips away breaking the kiss. "I love you too." The words slipped out my mouth like water rolling off my lips as I looked at him.

All it took was 4 days. 4 days to fall in love. My mind is running out of thoughts now....