Pulling Heart Strings

Chapter 49

Rose's pov.

I woke up to a severe headache. When I opened my eyes I saw myself being connected to a few wires. Doctors where there adjusting things and all. Also I felt a slight pain in my personal part. What happend? 

,,Why am I here?" I screamed at the doctor. ,,Ms. Kingsley calm down. You're safe here." Why the fuck am I hear. That's when every thing striked. I remember John that bastard kissing me. And the undressing me. My heart ached at the thought. I don't remember anything. ,,You're lucky that your boyfriend saved you." The doctor added. Stephen. ,,Where is he?" I asked louder slowly getting into a sitting position. ,,He's outside." She said.

The doctor went out. I started to sense the worst. Did her take my virginity? If that happend my biggest nightmare would have come true. Then I saw my parents coming in. ,,Mom." I said as tears ran down my cheek. She ran over to me pulling me into a hug. ,,Sweety." She said tears also streaming down her cheek.

,,I'm sorry." She said caressing my back. ,,It's not your fault!" My dad also sat down on the bed. ,,I'm gonna kill that fucking bastard who raped you." My father said. I gulped. So it is true. My whole fucking life is ruined. The one thing that ment so much was taken away. I felt disgusted. Of what happend and also of myself. I lost my fucking virginity.

I couldn't take it all. I started to cry. Tears streamed down my cheeks like waterfall. ,,Baby it's ok. I'm here." My mom said. ,,How is it supposed to be ok? That fucking John raped me mom. Raped me. Took my virginity. One of the most precious thing. HOW CAN YOU EXPECT ME TO BE FINE?" I screamed. My mom tried to assure me but I pushed her away. ,,Go leave me alone." I shouted. ,,Honey it's ok. We're here." My father said smiling at me.

,,Please. Get the hell out of this room. I'm a disgrace for this whole fucking family." I screamed with pure anger and pain. ,,But." My mom interrupted. ,,LEAVE ME ALONE." I screamed at them. Slowly they left the room. I didn't mean to scream at them. But I felt so hurt and disgusted. I felt like I had to vomit. It was really bad. Suddenly it all came up.

I got of my bed walking towards the sink. I felt weak. I let it all out. The puke and the tears. ,,It's ok baby." Someone said holding up my hair. I could hear it in the voice it was Stephen. ,,Please Stephen go. I don't want you to see me in this dirty stage." I said. I didn't want him to touch my ugly body that was touched and used by some prick. ,,NO. I'm gonna stay. Whatever you say. I won't leave you alone for another second." He said. What did I deserve to get someone like him?

After puking the hell out of me Stephen helped me clean up an carried me to bed. Even when he touched me I felt bad. Like he's touching the girl who has been raped not too long ago. ,,I'm ugly right?" I asked. ,,Baby. You're the prettiest thing I've ever seen." He said kissing my cheek but I moved back. ,,No after this all I'm just whore aren't I?" I felt the tears start flowing again.

He sighed. ,,Baby that's not gonna change anything. You're not a whore. It's something that was definitely not your fault. It was my fault. I shouldn't have let you out." It did assure me partly but the pain was stronger. ,,I'm sorry." I said. He just shook his head and pulled me into a hug. ,,Whatever happens I won't hate you." I sighed. But it was still a shock. Then thing I was really overwhelmed by everything that I wasn't even sure what I'm supposed to feel. Sadness. Fear. Disgust. Just everything.

,,I know it's not a good point of time to ask but why didn't you tell me before that someone tried to rape you and also that someone bullied you?" He knew? Oh god. ,,How do you know?" That's the first thing that came into my mind. ,,Mae told me. But she had to or else I couldn't have found you." Ugh I wanted to tell him but right now I should be happy that I'm safe and not dead. ,,I wasn't ready you know?" I sighed.

,,I understand but you know if I knew earlier I would have protected you and not let this happen." I slightly smiled but it was not a happy one. ,,I'm sorry." He shook his head. ,,Don't be. Also did you know before that he was on loose?" My eyes whidend slightly. If I only knew I would have been careful. But my stupid self. ,,So that morning. Your parents tried to reach you but I think they weren't able to. But ya then they also called Mae and told her." I hit my head. That morning I hadn't charged my phone. Stupid. Just because of my stupid phone now I'm here. Abused by a fucking rapist. Again I started crying. My emotions were just coming to me. But I'm allowed to feel bad. I mean I've been fucking raped.

,,I'm sorry I couldn't protect you." Stephen said after a while of silence. ,,It was not your fault. I should have just been careful. Now here I am. Abused and raped. Mentally and physically. My life is really fucked up isn't it?" I said while crying. ,,It might be. I don't wanna lie to you. But I'll always be with you. Maybe one time I wasn't able to protect you. But from now on I promise you that I'll never let anyone touch you or hurt you. I'm never gonna leave your side. I'll follow you like your shadow. Whatever happens I'll put your life over mine. I wont let the most precious thing in my life get hurt. Ill make sure that not even one more tear escapes your eye. I'll keep you happy. This is a promise." I slightly smiled. This man was great. Now I'm sure that this man ment a lot to me. ,,I love you." He gave me a wide smile. ,,I love you too baby." He said gently kissing me.