The Life Names Happiness.

32- Ming is back

Ming's line.

I went back to my room then lied in the bed for thinking whether or not I can let my Kitkat go when he chose Moew. Will Kitkat will be happy If I force him to leave with me and live our life in other place. Although I have thought surely, I will never give him back to Moew but finally I can't ignore his happiness and life. I will hurt, yes very hurt if P'Kit doesn't chose me but I think I am a child who are not accepted since I was born, so one more hurt for being abandoned one more time will not be the big problem anymore. But whether I can let him go, I can continue my life without him or I will give up on my life after his leave. I really don't sure what will happen. I am sinking in repeated thoughts during whole night. I stayed at my room almost whole day, no reply any message, except Yo's message.

Yo: "How are you? Is the problem solved?"

Ming: "Not yet, should I still keep fighting to have Kitkat's love or let him go with normal life?"

Yo: "Ow, this is not you, Ming. How can you give up easily after such those time you love P'Kit."

Ming: "I really don't want but an unaccepted kid likes me will be ok if it happens again, but I can't make Kitkat turn into my case. I love Kitkat so much, so I want him living happy."

Yo: "Stupid Ming, P'Kit already loves you deeply, how can you decide by yourself when you still don't know P'Kit's answer, hummmmmm, you don't have to my buddy Ming, where is Ming? Give him back to me." Yo said as if I was not the person who was talking with him.

Ming: "Ok Yo, I am still waiting, I don't make decision yet. I really will keep fighting for my love." I awaked my mind from confusing after our talking

Now I want to find my Kitkat, I really miss him very much and I knew he will be worry about my actions yesterday, but I just aware that Kitkat didn't text me since our last message last night, this makes me worry again whether Kitkat made his decision while I was not beside him, so can it be no message or call is his answer? I immediately look at clock, it is 1pm now, I rush out my room to drive to Kitkat's house but I meet P'Forth in front of my dorm.

P'Forth: "where are you rushing to, Ming?"

Ming: "P'Kit's house, P'"

P'Forth: "No need to come there, Beam and me have an appointment but early in the morning today, Beam texted to cancel because he and Pha have something to discuss with Kit, so they are being his house from this morning."

Ming: "Please let me know where is P'Beam's house, P'"

P'Forth: "No Ming, I already know about whole your guys problem, you can be worried but let Kit solve this family's problem is the best way now. Your appearance will put more stress on Kit. Besides that, for his family, you are not his official lover, so you have nothing to do there. And somehow I think your absence will help Kit in solving the problem faster if he doesn't want to lose you."

Ming: "But if I am not there with P'Kit whether P'Kit will decide to leave me and back to Moew?"

P'Forth: "5555 you become so silly with everything related to Kit."

Ming: "P', how can you laugh while I am worrying. Let see if you can keep calm if that happens with P'Beam, huh?" I still worried but didn't forget teasing P'Forth.

P'Forth: "Ow, what is with me and Beam?" P'Forth said with shy face.

Ming: "Ok, I will wait for your publicity love. For now, I will wait until tonight, if there is still no information, I will come to P'Kit's house to check on him. I must to stay beside him what if anything happens. I can't let P'Kit suffers any bad things alone."