i have something to say...i...there might...i kind of...there is a large part of me that regrets having made this journal...there is a large part of me that wants to delete it all...and never look back...there is a large part of me that wants to be forgotten...just how i should be...i shouldn't be remembered at all...i've...no one has ever remembered me until about a few months ago...this is not normal...it will never be normal...it can't be normal...there is a large part of me that wants to fade away....back into the darkness where i belong...fade back into my loneliness where i've lived for most my life...fade away from everything and everyone...fade away from everyone...fade from Jannessa's life...fade from your life...be forgotten again...to have it all go back to the normal...the normal...the usual...the way i've lived for 15 years...to fade away from your life...go back to living in darkness...live in the dark...go back to black...never be remembered...always left out...always gone...never needed...never needed...never needed...forever forgotten...leave it all...there is a large part of me that wants to fade away...fade from your life...Jannessa's life...my life...your life...your memory...the promise...this journal/dairy...this everything...forget it all...regret it all...there is a large part of me that regrets wattpad...a large part of me that regrets it all...there is a large part of me to that wants to say it was all a lie...Jannessa's promise...this journal/dairy...my past...there is a large part of me that wants it all to be a lie...a big lie...a setup...a dream...a simulation...a lie...a lie...lie..lie...lie...lie...there is a large par of me that wishes i didn't think two more minutes wouldn't hurt anyone...two more minutes of life wouldn't do harm...this is all of me...everything said now is...this is all of me...all of me wants to be forgotten...to fade away...to say it's all a lie...all of me wants to fade away...all of me wants it all to be a lie...all of me wants to be forgotten...i regret ever finding wattpad...i regret ever downloading it...i regret ever wanting to have a friend...i regret it all...telling lies...telling truths...writing on wattpad...speaking..talking..writing...thinking it will get better...thinking i could be loved...i regret thinking i could be loved...who'd love me anyway...a useless human...a useless depressed human...a useless depressed scared human...a useless depressed scared shy human...a useless depressed scared shy lonely human...a useless depressed scared shy lonely hopeless human...a useless depressed scared shy lonely hopeless broken human...who would love that...someone who knows how it feels to be betrayed...left to die...know what it means to be broker than broke...to know what it is to be bullied everyday of their life...to be bullied by their family...random people...to he bullied by good people... bad people...older people...younger people...to be bullied by everyone you see...to be hated by everyone...to be hated by family...to regret the only good choice they have ever made...to regret everything...to wish they could be forgotten...to want to be forgotten...to never be remembered until a few people see you as a human...and not a toy...to never know the feeling of love by anyone...to have the only safe place be nowhere...to have everywhere be bad place...no one knows what it feels like to be Kevin...makes no sense how anyone could love me...why would anyone love me...the voices are gone...they've left me alone to die...it feels like that anyway...i want to delete it all...i want to be forgotten...i want to fade away...i want Jannessa to forget i exist...i want everyone to forget me...i want her to forget me...i want to be forgotten...and never remembered...forget me like everyone else...you will forget me...she will forget me...
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The Life of Me pt.1
غير روائيThis is my life, and the pain that comes with it. My story, and the loneliness that rides on it. This is the other side of StolenGiant, and there isn't a way back from it. So if you want to hear on how sucky my life is, read it. I honestly don't car...
