Ripped Open (Luke Hemmings)

Dear Diary,

I still remember the first time i ever cut. I was eleven years young, in my bedroom, feeling the demons inside me creep up. I was never really important to anyone.. My Mom and Dad would use me for commercials, and i never had a normal life. I couldn't go to school because of the fame. I had a private tutor for me.. I didn't have any friends. The kids on my block would ignore me. Because i was 'differen't.' Everyone would enjoy being famous.. Not me. All i ever wanted was a normal life.. Know here i am.. I'm eighteen and I'm an actress. Living with my boyfriend Logan Ryder. Hes a famous singer. Teen pop sensation. I don't talk to my parents anymore. I left when i was sixteen. Me and Logan had been dating sense then. He took me in, as he was just starting his corer. Our relationship was perfect. I was finally feeling free for once. But that only lasted for one year. Logan started using drugs, and drinking a lot of alcohol. He leaves for a long period of time, when I'm home alone, scared out of my mind. I hate the fact he could be sleeping around.. But i try to forget about that. I love him with all my heart. But i think he doesn't love me anymore.. He hits me. But that's only because he has anger problems. When hes really drunk sometimes he'll have sex with me against my will.. People say 'why do i still love him?' I cant explain how much he means to me.. Logan is my everything... Then how did i end up in the hospital? Oh... Suicide brought me here. 

... Angela ...