Eh Yung Hindi Naman Tayo? (COMPLETED)

Saltines

"Girl! Paki-explain nga ulit sa akin kung bakit hindi mo pa boyfriend si Alden." Coleen said as she entered the room and watched M pack a few more last minute items in her luggage for her US trip with R, ND and the KS staff and crew.

They were going to spend the Holy Week there for the KS concerts in LA and NY.

"Anong i-eexplain ko?" M shrugged as she closed on suitcase. "Hindi naman siya nanliligaw. Yun yon."

C gasped. "My God! Ganoon na pala ang hindi nanliligaw ngayon. May pabulaklak atleast three times a week, pa-Dangwa pag special occasions, halos araw-araw may pa-piyesta from Concha's, tuwing magbibiyahe siya may pasalubong hindi lang ikaw kundi lahaaaaaat kami dito and take note hindi puro keychains at T-shirts lang ito, pinagiisipan at ginagastusan, halos oras-oras tumatawag para i-check ka, minu-minuto mag-text, isang sabi mo lang lilipad yan kahit nasaan ka pa para lang pasayahin ka and to make you feel better pag may sakit ka o wala ka sa mood, kung makabakod sa'yo daig pa ang Great Wall of China at willing na masaktan at mangitim mabantayan ka lang sa baranggay, habang pinupunasan ang pawis mo at inaalok ka ng tubig."

M shook her head and giggled as C continued to rant.

"Shet! Kung ganyan ang hindi nanliligaw, sana hindi na ako niligawan ni Mike para may jewelry set, designer bags and shoes din ako from abroad tuwing umaalis siya at may personal bodyguard at PA kahit saan kami magpunta." C scowled at M.

"So, sigurado ka bang hindi nanliligaw?"

"Hindi nga." M smiled.

"Hindi pa nagsabi?"

"Hindi pa."

"Nakikita ko kayo eh. Sweet kayo. Nagyayakapan. Nagkakandungan. Nagsusubuan ng pagkain, share pa nga kayo ng plato. Pinag-usapan niyo ba kung ano yun?"

"Hindi din. Basta ganoon lang. Kumportable kami na ganoon. Masaya kami. He's my closest friend right now. My best friend and ganoon din siya sa akin. He always says ako lang daw ang nasasabihan niya ng mga bagay-bagay at sa akin lang daw siya pinaka-kumportable at ganoon din naman ako sa kanya kaya ayun. Kaya siguro normal lang sa amin yung ganoon.

"Jusko! Ang labo niyong dalawa." C said as she scratched the back of her head. "Eto na lang. Nag-kiss na ba kayo? Hindi yung kiss sa TV or sa taping or yung mga nakawan ng kiss games niyo, yung kiss as in kiss."

Yes. Twice. Once after a party, he was tipsy after a few drinks and I walked him to his car. He kissed me and I kissed him back. It was a drunken moment for him, a spur of the moment for me. We never talked about it after. I figured he didn't remember. It was no big deal anyway, it's not like I never made out with anyone when I was drunk before. Next was recently, after the Coldplay concert. We shared a late dinner at the condo with Oreo, Ate Patch and Kat. He stayed after everyone left. Still basking in the after glow of a euphoric night together, I let him. We sat beside each other on the couch, his arm on the back rest behind me as we listened to more Coldplay songs from my phone with an in-ear each from a shared earphones. After an hour, he said he was leaving so I leaned in to kiss his cheek and say goodnight when he suddenly turned and caught my lips. We both jolted back, surprised and unsure, as our eyes met. We stared into each other's eyes, our lips poised merely inches from each other, our rapid breaths and roaring heart beats deafening as it mixed with Chris Martin's voice as he sang Everglow. So... We kissed  because we were at the moment and it felt right. We ended up making out for a good two minutes. When our lips parted, both of us flustered and breathless, he apologized over and over and over and over. He said he got carried away and didn't mean to take advantage. I said it was okay, it's not like I didn't kiss him back but still he apologized over and over even after he left. He texted me his apologies again and again and again until I felt like what happened was a bad thing. I shut him out for a day when I got tired of his "I'm sorry's" And when I talked to him again, I think he got the message and we acted as if nothing happened.

"Huy! Earth to Nicomaine." C said, snapping her fingers in front of M's face. "So, nag-kiss na nga kayo?!"

"No." M shrugged.

"Okay. So hindi kayo nag-kiss gaya ng hindi siya nanliligaw. Fine. Siya nga pala. Kaya pala ako umakyat kasi sabi ni Nanay. Andiyan na yung Tisoy na hindi mo manliligaw at hindi mo din boyfriend pero may dalang tatlong box ng Saltines dahil nga may sakit ka at yun lang ang kaya mong kainin. Mukhang dala na ang van niya at mga gamit, sasabay ata sa inyo papuntang airport. Labo ah. Mas malapit na kaya siya doon, lumayo pa." C chuckled. "Girl, di ka mahal niyan." She added sarcastically.

M smiled.

"Yung ngiti mo ha? Hindi ka halatang kinikilig, girl. Mahal mo noh?"

M did not answer. She just bit her lip and shrugged. Her sister knew all too well what the answer was.

"Mukhang mahal ka. Sobra. Buti pa. Pag-usapan niyo na yang dalawa bago pa kami mabaog kaka-figure out sa inyong kung anong balak niyong gawin sa mga buhay niyo." C said and left the room.

M sighed and closed her eyes.

Totoo ba? Mahal mo ba ako, RJ? Kung totoo, bakit nga ba hindi pa tayo?