Asriel X Chara (An Undertale FF)

Not Fully Healed

Most of my cuts have healed and I feel a little better.

The only thing is, I've made new cuts.

I've been hiding it from Asriel and Frisk because of they find out, they'd be really mad.

Frisk made plans today and Asriel had to do something this morning so I'm home alone until Asriel comes back.

I keep thinking about the resets, I can't get it off my mind. I don't know why they're bothering me so much.

I grab my knife and go to the bathroom. I can't even look at myself in the mirror because I'm so disappointed in myself.

My knife meets my arms.

Then I hear Asriel coming into the house.

"Hey Chara, I'm going to Undyne's place and I think she wanted to talk to you about something. We gotta go now, we're running late." Asriel says from the other side of the bathroom door.

"Uh, I'll be right there. Just give me a second."

I rush to clean everything up and I put on a jacket to hide my arms.

I put my knife behind my back and open the door.

"Hey, you ready?" Asriel asks.

"Um, I'm not feeling to good. I'll call her later if it's really important."

He sees I'm hiding something behind my back.

"What are you holding?"

"Nothing." I back up a little.

"Chara, what are you trying to hide?"

"I told you, it's nothing."

He grabs my hand from behind me and takes my knife.

"What've you been doing with this?"

I don't answer.

He puts down the knife and rolls up my sleeves. Bloody bandages cover my arms.

"Chara, not again."

"I know you're mad-"

"I'm not mad I'm just-"

"Disappointed."

"...You know I hate when you do this. You know I'm here for you. You can talk about it."

"I've talked about it to much. It doesn't help."

"But hurting yourself does help?"

"...I don't know."

"Chara, you've gotta stop doing this. I love you and I hate seeing you like this. So please, just stop."

I look at him with tears filling my eyes.

He puts a hand on my cheek and kisses my forehead.

I fall to my knees and put my face in my hands.

Asriel kneels down in front of me.

I tackle him in a hug and burry my face into his shoulder.

"I'm sorry, I'm sorry." I sob.

"Don't be sorry. It's ok. Just calm down."

I calm down and let go of Asriel.

He lifts my head up to look at him. "Are you ok?"

I nod.

"Do you wanna go to the surface? Calm down, be alone for a little?"

I nod again.

He smiles. "Alright, let's go."

We cross the barrier and watch the sunset.

I start thinking about the resets again and completely zone out.

Asriel notices and places and hand on my arm.

I look at him.

"Don't think about that right now. Just, enjoy this."

I smile a little and rest my head on his shoulder.

The stars are absolutely stunning.

"Um, Azzy." I say.

"What's up?"

"I'm sorry if I worried you. It's just the resets have been bothering me lately and I can't get them off my mind."

"I understand that it's difficult to relive something after it already went wrong. But I don't think physical pain will help emotional pain."

I nod in agreement.

"Don't ever think that something like this could ruin our relationship. You can tell me anything, I won't get mad at you for it."

I smile.

He smiles back.

We lay there for a while not saying a word.

"Remember when we were younger we would lay like this in Waterfall. We always thought the ceiling was made of stars." I say.

"Yeah. And that time we destroyed the house because we were playing a game. We ran all the way to Waterfall just to see the "stars". They always made us feel like we wouldn't get in trouble, even though we always did."

"That wasn't my fault that I broke the lamp. You use magic and I dodged it."

"But you did break the table because you were jumping on it."

"Whatever." I say with a smile.

"Every time we come out here it feels so surreal."

"I know. I'm just happy I can spend this time with you."

He smiles and kisses me.

After a couple minutes of star watching Asriel sits up. "It's pretty late. Frisk is probably worried."

I sit up next to him. "Just a couple more minutes."

A couple minutes turned into a couple hours.

I can see Asriel's eyes getting heavy.

"You look exhausted. Let's go home." I say and stand up.

We walk home and we both crash on the couch.

A/N
I feel like I've made it pretty clear, don't hurt yourself if you're having problems. There's always someone out there you can talk to and would be more then willing to help you. Anyway, thanks for reading.