Josh POV
"Colleen come to bed sweetheart" I say to her as she sits on the living room couch. "In a minute" she whispers staring at her hands. "Babe its midnight. I want to snuggle you" I say sitting beside her watching her every move. She doesn't move. I see tears starting slowly and she is going pale. "Colleen I know it must be so hard babe but we will face this together" I say getting emotional seeing her so distraught. She leans back in the couch and closes her eyes. "I am loosing my Dad Joshua. I can't handle that" she says crying. I nod and hug her tight. "I know hun" I say kissing her neck. "But he is here now. So lets enjoy him and be happy with him ok?" I say. She nods. I stand her up and we shuffle back to the bedroom. I lay her down in bed and climb in beside her. "I love you babe. I am here for you ok?" I say. She nods and rolls away from me. I turn off the lights and snuggle behind her listening to her cry. "Colleen you need sleep baby. You and our baby" I say rubbing her bare belly. She quiets down and I close my eyes. I am so glad we are together so I can help her through this especially seeing him tomorrow at the hospital. I hope she sleeps.
I wake to muffled crying. I hear Colleen talking quietly. I look at my phone and its 4:12am. I walk to the bathroom. "Baby you ok?" I ask her as I walk in. She is sitting in the empty tub talking on her phone. I see Rachel on FaceTime with her. Both of them are a mess. "Hi Josh" Rachel says waving. I wave back and say hello. "You ladies need to rest ok?" I say. Rachel nods and says goodnight. Colleen puts down her phone and closes her eyes. She is super pale. "Baby come to bed" I say. "No" she says. "Then I will sit here with you" I say sitting on the edge. "Just let me be Josh please" she says looking at me directly. "Are you sure?" I ask. She nods. "Call for me if you need me but please come lay down soon at least ok?" I say. She nods and goes to staring into space. I turn around and leave and walk back to our bed. I think I am witnessing a piece of Colleen dying as I listen to her cry some more. Watching her so upset on something I can't fix is killing me. I lay down and curl up watching the light under the bathroom door until I hear her stop crying about 20 minutes later. She slowly walks out and crawls into bed. I snuggle behind her and kiss her neck as she grabs my hands in hers. My baby.
