Before I start:
Comment all the hate you have to give me, if you have any of that, I can handle it.
This is currently my arm.. Help me, answer me, what have I done? I have scars, and written on it. I'm not even sure if I have enough long-armed sweaters- and shirts to hide this self-damage. And I'm not even ashamed of this.. These.. Scars..
I have worn a mask for my parents and family for nearly 3 years, I'm going to my therapist(s) for a 3rd talk today, my mom and dad forget I have suicide thoughts, they make jokes that I hide that hurts, my little brother is sick, so much change is happening in my life, and I'm losing energy to fight on.
I've lost hope 1 year ago, I'm letting go, I'm slipping away, I'm wanting more pain.. Nearly after 3 years, my parents now realize how bad this getting. Do they know I self harm, you're wondering? No, they don't... They wouldn't even care.
Guys, I want to go. This is the 2nd time I hurt myself today.. And I'm in school..
I'm losing this fight, I'm losing the war against myself.. I'm giving in..
