Love Poems || FINISHED

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I see through all the smiles and grins you put up, 

all of the jokes and things you said to me, 

because I know that I was never enough,

and I won't waste time trying to be.

your attention was like a poison

and I drank it up like an addict.

I could never get enough even though I knew it was wasn't mine,

but I didn't care as long as I could get it for the rest of time.

but now that I'm letting go, 

the withdrawls are hitting me harder than a wall, 

seeing how you act with her and treat her

making me wonder if you ever loved me at all.

Crying tears of blood opened my eyes,

but crushed my heart in a million pieces.

Because all the things that happened were no surprise,

but in retrospect i wish I would've seen it.