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AlL fOr YoU

All these scars
All of the pain
All the days I couldn't breathe
Am I meant to forget it all
Move on?

All the lies
That I believed
And the doubt, that I got killed
The thousand fears I hid
All for you, not for me

What of the times I said no
And you said yes
Remember how it went
Maybe I was naive
Did you ever know?

You knew the truth
I was a lie
One you couldn't believe
But still kept hostage
All of these years, why?

All of your secrets, I still keep
Do you still keep mine?
Did you tell all your friends
Or have you forgotten them
Just like you forgot me

I had Faith in you
Not in us, never
We were always a lost cause
I was a losing game
But I still let you play me

How does it feel to win?
I hope you get a medal
For how much of a snake you are
I always thought you'd change, rearrange
Maybe love couldn't do that
Love from me

Does she make you laugh?
You always said I was boring
Is she as thick as you want?
You always shamed me for being thin
Is she pretty?
You used to call me ugly

Maybe she's smart
I remember when you called me dumb
Or maybe she doesn't cry so much
You used to hate that I was too emotional
You told me to grow up

She's probably everything I'm not
Everything I'll never be
But will she stay
As long as I did
Do you ever think of me?

All of the sacrifices
Did it mean nothing to you?
Didn't I deserve an explanation
You kept me in the dark
So only you could see the light

I wish that I could take it back
Tell you I didn't feel the same
You told me not to be scared
Promised to never hurt me
You kept it though, you killed me instead

All I ever did
Everything I ever said
Every step I took
And every tear that dropped
Was all for you
What did you ever do for me?

Okayyy this is old and I'm so over it now, but I found it in one of my books and I think it's beautiful.😂❤️