Ab"sin"the

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Love you yes I do, but I can't reach you
It creates a void in my brain, a space in my heart
A heart filled with memories of you
All your pictures are saved in my head, I stare at them everyday
Reach out to hold you, but you're missing

Flashbacks of you holding my neck under the rain kissing
Remembering when I cried on your shirt, and you held me in your arms
When we were sad, angry, furious, naughty, cold all those get washed as we sail
You were part of my pain, joy and I'll do it over again if given a chance

Do images of my body, eyes and lips stay in your head or do they float?
Do you still remember what my lips taste like, or you've tasted more?
I'm not going to be upset because I know your lips are addictive
And that's why I'm so protective, because your lips tastes like absinthe and I keep wanting more

Do you think of me when you're so faraway from home?
Even after all these months will my eyes still have the same effects on you?
Will you still call them the rainbow in the midst of your storms and the sun after a snowfall?
Or would you look me in the eyes and act like I'm a stranger?
Will we act like strangers who bumped into each other at coffee or will those memories be regained?

Everytime we kiss, I can feel myself getting more addicted
Don't call me stupid or blind, because I have tried a lot of times to understand it but I prefer the addiction to the withdrawal symptom
All that lives in my eyes is the aftermath of our kiss and the linger
Did you ever notice it, or you choose to pretend like you didn't?

I'm committed to loving you though distance is killing me
Suddenly everybody looks and sounds like you
I walk and turn around at any slight resemblance, even in the dark anything that looks like perfection looks like you
I can hear your footsteps at night, but everytime I turn disappointment greets me instead

Whatsapp calls, instagram comments and snapchat streaks do not adequately speak the love loud enough
If only I could trace every feature on your face through a video call, maybe I would feel alive again
My safe abode, my asylum, my heavenly place and my space of everlasting peace
You're all I've ever believed in and distance or time won't make me give up, so please don't leave me

One night I looked at the stars and prayed that one of them would turn to you and fall on me, just so I could feel your touch on my skin again
But the closest the star could do was shine as bright as your eyes, and most nights that's not enough for my heavy heart
I am not an astrology expert but I could tell the star meant that we are going to be together forever
I can't describe love without mentioning you, because I don't know love that's without you

It's just you, it has always been only you, I can't even bring myself to touch or love someone else
I'm loosing my sanity everyday, I want to feel your body on mine again
As little as your finger moving on my skin, giving me the sensation of watching your favorite artiste perform your favorite song
Face time is just an illusion and a mirage, when I touch, hold or taste you

Time is moving slow, the clock no longer ticks fast like it used to when I was in your arms
Hoping things won't change when we cross paths again
I can't eliminate the thought that things may not return to how they were, but as long as it has you here with me, I will pick it over any other thing on earth
I don't know how long forever is, but I hope it'll be enough for me.

Made this piece with my friend Nicholas again, let me know if you can relate lol. Please remember to vote and comment, much love.