I don't think it's inferiority complex
I guess maybe this was how I was born
People always say put yourself first
But I didn't even make it to second on all my listsI'm clingy
Some people call it desperate
Some call it annoying
Sometimes it's termed as stupidityI don't know what pride feels like
My mother says I have a heart of gold
And I wish I could sell it
Cause it keeps causing me painMaybe this isn't a case of humility
Maybe I'm just foolish
Maybe I lack self worth
And I'm hungry for a whole lot moreI always wished I could die on behalf of people
I hate the fact that I'm living
While other people die
I hate living with the painI keep being there for the people
Who were never there for me
I be giving love
To who feeds me with heartacheI see the kids on the streets
And I wish they could take my place
I know it sounds absurd
But that's who I amI always wanted to be proud
Even if I hate proud people
Maybe even selfish
I'm too selfless for my own likingI tried a million times
To not give a damn
But I still kept giving two fucks
About how I made people feelI'm no savage
I'm too emotional for that
I'd hate to make anybody sad
And it's a huge disadvantageI'm not Jesus
I can't die for the sins of everyone
But I'm Ehime
Everybody else comes first
And I don't know where to put myselfIf only I wasn't like this
Then maybe I'd have avoided a lot of heartbreak
But I guess that's not how I'm wiredI'm literally on my knees guys. Please comment and vote, recommend to your friends on Wattpad too. I'm getting discouraged, I feel like nobody is appreciating my hard work.
Much love,
Girlie_yo.And yeah, Ehime is my name.
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