𝙢𝙮 𝙢𝙤𝙤𝙣𝙮 - 𝙧𝙚𝙢𝙪𝙨 𝙡𝙪𝙥𝙞𝙣

𝙩𝙤𝙤 𝙥𝙧𝙚𝙩𝙩𝙮 𝙩𝙤 𝙙𝙞𝙚

- TW: SUICIDE -

My head felt like it was under a pound of rocks, if only it could stop. I couldn't handle it. This "never going away headache" is really getting on my nerves.
As I slowly tried opening my eyes, I couldn't make up the several dark figures sitting in front of me. I felt like some sort of bug with that blurry vision.

I tried sitting up but every bone in my body felt numb, I could move it, I just didn't want too. I felt tired..too tired to say the least. I think I moved my head a little, for the people in front of me to get closer and guess if I'm still alive. As I tried making up the figures I got nothing, but who else would it be other than the guys and girls..what? My mom? I'm hilarious.

"She's alive? That's shocking." I heard someone whisper softly, and I couldn't help but slightly snicker.

"I saw that! I saw that!" I heard another familiar voice whisper excitedly, making a tiny smile form on my face.

"James!" I heard another person hiss, with that tone of voice I'm guessing Lily.

"Yes, Evans." replied James in that "seductive" voice of his which is absolutely pathetic, I can practically see his smirk forming.

"She needs her rest—Sirius! What are you doing?" I heard her exclaim as I felt someone getting closer to me.

I felt Sirius's hand get closer to my face when he tried opening my eye with his fingers, but even if he did I couldn't really see well. All I saw or well, realized was his black hair and his abnormally large nose, which I was definitely gonna mention to him.

"Get your large nose out of my face." I mumbled, hearing someone snort in the back.

"Shut up, yours is bigger." he scoffed, hearing him sitting back down.

"Hey Bella.." I felt Lily's hands on mine, as I smiled to myself. I'm trying my hardest to focus, but I guess it's working, now that her hair looks brighter I guess?

"Hm.." I hummed, relaxing my eyes.

"How you feeling?" she asked, leaning her head on mine, as i really wondered.

Mentally. I'm not okay. Physically. I'm not either. At this point, I don't know how I'm still alive, when I'm constantly, slowly, drowning in a sea of fear and guilt. I don't know for how I long I can stay of float until that person comes and saves me.  And as much as I hate to admit it, that one person was Remus.

I still don't understand this unconditional love I have for him. He barely speaks to me, and he most likely forgot my complete existence. But those small and simple memories that we had are so special and meaningful to me. His smile, was contagious, I couldn't help but smile when I'm around him. His laugh was like music to my ears, I can listen to it on repeat. And overall he's such an amazing person who deserves nothing but love..and freedom.