A Vampire's Love - Edward Cullen (Twilight saga)

Chapter 13 - Family (2)

"You're not sleeping, are you ?" Edward's low voice asked me.

"I might if you continue."

I finally opened my eyes and met his eyes. I saw his eyes go from my lips to my eyes, with a smile on his face.

I grabbed his hand that was on my face, and cupped it in between mine. "Your hands are always cold."

"Does it bother you ?" Edward asked.

"Not at all."

I played with his fingers and enjoyed the contrast of our body temperatures. This was so not right, but why did I keep wanting more ?

"Why didn't you date anyone ?" I suddenly asked him, as I remembered his answer earlier.

"Not once have I found someone I wanted to devote my life to."

"Devote your life to ? You seem to take that really seriously." I said while I rested my head against the wall we were sitting against.

"Don't you ?" he asked.

"I do. But I didn't think that deeply about it." I said while nodding.

Our fingers were now intertwined together, and his thumb was caressing mine.

"But how do you know when someone's the one ? You don't seem to interact with other people easily." I asked him.

"People are easy to read through."

I raised an eyebrow at him. "Am I ?" Edward smirked, which made me question myself. "Really ?" I exclaimed and he answered with a nod.

"I don't think you realize how expressive your face is. You can't hide anything."

I scoffed. He did tell me that my reactions were funny to him, before. I didn't know if it was a good thing or not to be that expressive. But there was at least, something I was good at hiding. My feelings for him. Ever since I found out that I liked him more than I should, I didn't change my behavior with him. There was no way he could find out.

"I think if I really want to, I can keep some things to myself." I tried to defend myself.

"I guess so." Edward murmured, not convinced.

"So that's how you know that someone is or not worth you time ? By reading through them ?" I asked which he answered with a nod. "You must be really observant and must think a lot then. You should talk to people instead of overthinking about what they might do or say. What if you get their intentions wrong ?"

I sounded like I was scolding him. It was funny for me to say that, when I knew I would never have the guts to go up to someone and try to flirt or anything.

"You must've felt lonely...living with all these couples." I continued while looking up at Edward with compassion.

Edward gave me a reassuring smile. "It's okay. I've gotten used to it." he said. "I like to think that my mate is near and that I just have to be patient."

"Mate..."

I nodded, making sure that my face nor my body didn't betray me. I pitied him for how lonely he must've felt, but a part of me was also hoping that the mate he was talking about was me. Other than the few compliments he had thrown my way here and there, I didn't think Edward would ever be interested in me that way. We had a good friendship, which I wouldn't trade for anything else, but had he ever seen me that way ?