I'm really trying to be happy. I thought I can just be okay without him but I'm not. Well, I thought wrong. I am happy but every time na maaalala ko siya bigla nalang ako malulungkot ulit. Napansin ni Alex na biglang nagbago ang mood ko dahil panay ang tanong niya sa akin kung ayos lang ba ako which of course I kept saying that I'm okay and of course I lied. Again.
I always lie whenever I say I'm okay. Without Travis it felt like half of me was stolen and without him I can't completely function. I kind of regret it now na iniignore ko siya dati at tinuturing na parang hindi nageexist pero kahit ganon alam kong nandyan pa rin siya. But I don't even know where he is right now.
This is my decision kaya dapat kong panindigan. This isn't the best choice but this is the right choice. Kung pinilit ko ang gusto niyang mangyari dati I know na masasaktan ko lang siya. For 2 years, maraming nagbago. I learned to love myself and people around me. Mas nagiging open ako lalo na nung nakilala ko sila Reyna. Sobrang pasasalamat ko kay Yna dahil siya ang kumausap sa akin then the four of us became the best of friends.
If only Travis is around-- I should really stop thinking about him. I'm doing just fine.
"He's doing okay. Don't worry." Alex joins me in the veranda and bumped my shoulder.
"I know." I smiled and clashed my bottle to his.
Napalingon kaming dalawa sa sala kung saan nanggaling ang sigaw then Josh came running to us while holding Greg's phone. "You need to see this guys!" Sabi niya in between his laughter na halos hindi namin maintindihan.
Then tumakbo siya ulit papasok and the moment I saw Greg's face hindi ko na napigilan ang tawa ko. His face is as red as a tomato habang inaasar siya ni Charles na may hawak naman ng phone. I think this is the first time that Greg blushed.
"Fuck you man!" Mura ni Greg sa dalawa habang tuwang tuwang pinapakita sa amin ang phone.
Nagkatinginan kaming dalawa ni Lex and burst out in laughter as Greg muttered some curses.
"Tell her this is a joke Brielle!" He demanded.
Umiling lang ako. "No way Greggy! Besides you should thank Josh and Charles for helping you." May times rin pala na matorpe itong si Greg.
Hiniram kasi nung dalawa ang phone niya and without Greg knowing inadd na ng dalawa si Reyna and they even left her a message saying hi and a blush emoticon.
This is great. May gumawa na ng suppose to be task ko para sa akin.
I set down my beer as I felt my phone buzzing in my left pocket. I smiled when I saw who the caller is.
"Hell-" I didn't get to finished any word because the moment I answered the phone inilayo ko na rin ito agad sa tenga ko sa takot na mabingi ako. Isang araw talaga ay mabibingi nalang ako at ang mga kaibigan ko ang may kasalanan.
Nang napakiramdaman kong tapos na siya sumigaw ay binalik ko ang phone sa tenga ko. "What's up?
"I think I just died of kilig!" She shouted from the other line. "Teka, pinagtritripan mo lang ba ako?"
"'Wag kang OA and what makes you think that I would do that e hindi ko nga alam kung tungkol saan ba?" Patay malisya ko kahit na I know clearly why she's acting like this.
Well wala naman talaga akong kinalaman dito. On the other hand I could hear Greg's cursing the boys in the living room.
"You wouldn't believe this!" She exclaimed. "Oh wait, you can because obviously maganda ako at sexy pa-"
Napakunot ang noo ko sa pupuntahan ng usapan. "Reyna, ano nga?" Tawa ko.
"Anyway dahil nga maganda ako.." She then exhale and said. "Gregaddedmeasafriend!"
At naririnig ko nanaman ang sigaw niya. Seriously mas maraming beses pa siyang sumigaw kaysa nagsalita. For normal people they wouldn't understand what Reyna had just said dahil sa sobrang bilis at tinis ng boses niya. Obvious na obvious naman na kilig na kilig ang lola niyo!
"Oh wait! He also messaged me pala!" Dagdag niya and I can almost see her cheeky smile.
"Tapos? Don't tell me nagreply ka agad?"
"Of course I did! Hello? It's Greg we're talking about here! Papakipot pa ba ako? Love life na 'to te baka mapurnada pa dahil sa pagpapakipot ko!"
I rolled my eyes. Of course that's Reyna! Action agad at wala nang isip isip kasi pag gusto niya ang isang bagay she definitely would not waste a chance at aaksyon siya agad.
"Reyna!" Saway ko, "Hindi ka man lang nagpakipot!"
"Nako ewan ko sayo! Sige na ibabalita ko pa sa mga girls. Mangiinggit ako! Bye!" Tapos umirit pa siya ng isang beses bago niya tuluyang binaba.
Pag balik ko sa sala si Greg na ang may hawak ng phone niya. For now hindi ko muna sila papakialaman since malaki na sila but he better not flirt with my friend then just left her hanging pag nagsawa na siya dahil lagot talaga siya sa akin!
Kahit na hindi ko sinabi kay Greg na type rin siya ni Reyna I could guess na alam na niya, sa bilis ba naman magreply ni Reyna hindi pa ba niya mahahalata! He knows how a girl thinks. Sa dami ba naman ng babae niya malamang alam na alam na niya ang mga galaw ng babae. I bet they're chatting right now.
"Greg ayaw kong malaman kung ano ang pinagusapan niyo, okay?" Sabi ko nang iharap niya sa akin ang phone niya habang nagingiti.
At ang creepy pa ng pagngiti niya.
"Look I don't care if you flirt pero pag niloko mo siya lagot ka talaga sakin but still ayaw kong malaman kung-" But my words were cut when I saw a familiar face on the screen.
Bumalik ang tingin ko kay Greg na nakangiti pa rin sa akin habang pinapakita sakin ang Facebook niya.
"Travis."
"Yeah. He's coming back!" He happily announced. Masaya si Greg dahil babalik na ang kaibigan niya pero hindi ko na pinakinggan ang iba pa niyang sinabi because my eyes were glued on the picture. Nagiba ang itsura niya. Kahit sa picture ay masasabi mong tumangkad talaga siya and hell I can tell that he made the gym his second home! Hindi ko masyado makita ang mukha niya dahil nakaaviator siya.
I frowned when my eyes landed on the girl beside him who's wearing the same aviator as him. His hands were on her slim waist and her head in his shoulder. They look happy while smiling at the camera. The caption says it all 'Going home with the sweetest.'
He's coming back yet I can't bring myself to be happy.
Years ago, I was with him in the airport bidding each other good bye and now he's coming back with a girl.
He made me promise yet he had broken that promise himself.
