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Rebecca's POV:
Loving someone is probably a gift that life has given to you. But it could easily turn out as a curse.
Loving someone so much that you're capable of doing anything in the world just to see him happy could be a strong ability, but it could also be a weakness.
I don't know wich one stands for me, but I know only one thing; I'm truly in love with Harry.
I'm stronger with him, but I'm also weaker.
I don't know if I could stand a life without Harry, but I can feel it in my bones that I wouldn't live. I would probably be dead from the inside, but still a living person on the outside.
Living a life without the person you truly and so madly love is probably one of the worst games life could play with you. Taking away from you your love is like breaking you into pieces.
I can feel Harry's pain as he holds me closer to his body. I know he's suffering from the inside and he's not sleeping as we both lay in my bed in my house. His head is too cluttered with thoughts and his soul is too pressed with feelings of sadness and hurt that have him still awake.
I don't blame him, I'm just like him. I'm hurting from the inside but I remain silent as I lay in Harry's arms. I can't even imagine my life without Harry, the only thought brings jolts of pain to my heart like sharp knifes. I know he's in denial. He's determined to keep me back from doing what I have to do and I know he will probably do everything it takes to keep me safe.
But the thing is, he doesn't know that if I do what I have to do, everything will turn out better in the future.
Harry will be happy, he will have the life he deserved and always dreamed of. He will reach his goals and go on with his life. I wabt Harry to be happy, even if that means I have to die.
He sighed heavily from behind me, his breath hitting the back of my neck. I felt his arms tighten around my body, his nose coming closer to my neck. I knew he was trying to push away all the bad thoughts, but really, it's not that easy as it looks.
“Harry,” I murmured quietly.
“Hmm.”
“Stop overthinking about it. Please.” I begged, turning my head a little to look at him.
He sighed again, his lips landing on my shoulder. “I can't.”
“Please. You've been quiet since we left the hospital.”
When Harry told me he can't lose me, I was about to rip my heart out of my chest. The pain was way too much for me, and I knew that Harry's feeling even worse. I told Harry that it's better if we leave, and he immidiately went and compelled everyone to forget. We got home only 30 minutes later. Harry said he wanted to lay down and think, so I decided to join him.
“You can't do this to me, Rebecca. You can't just leave me..it hurts, don't you get it?” he said in a shakey voice.
I felt a punch in my stomach because of his words. “I know. It hurts too.” I mumbled.
“Then don't do this.” he tightened his grip around me even more. “Don't risk your life for me. It's not worth it. I should be the one to protect you.”
“What about you, Harry?” I turned completely around, locking eyes with him. My hands cupped his cheeks, our foreheads resting against each other's. “Who will protect you, Harry? It's time for someone to actually care about you and do something for you. Let me be that one.” I whispered, my eyes flitting back and forth into his own.
He pursed his lips, sadness flashing behind his eyes. “Oh Rebecca,” he mumbled. “You already protect me. Being here, with me, is the only thing I want. I don't want you to leave me, Rebecca. I never wanted...” he took a deep breath. “You were here from the start, don't let me down..”
My breath hitched. I took a deep breath and closed my eyes before reopening them again. “I won't. I'm only doing this for you. I want the best for you.” I muttered.
“You are best and only thing I'll ever want.”
I didn't have the time to reply as he pressed his lips against mine. Jolts of electricity were sent through me, and my entire body heat up. I don't want to leave Harry either. I want to be with him every single moment of his life. If I leave, is like I'm giving up on him. But if I stay, is like I'm putting him in danger, knowing that the demon would destroy him just to hurt me. And I can't allow that.
“Harry..I want you to have the life you deserve.” I said, giving him a sad look.
He sighed. “I want the same thing for you. I can't let the demon—I won't let him take you away from me.” he corrected himself.
“There's no other way. I'm the source of his power, remember?”
“He's done something to you that gives him power. It's not you that makes him strong.” he said lowly, making me frown.
“Really? How do you know?” I asked curious.
“I've been living with a dead Louis for 77 years, I know how some stuff work.” he explained simply.
I nodded. “Okay, so that means I don't have to die?” I asked, hope rosing inside me.
“Even if you had to, I wouldn't let that happen.”
“Harry, you're saying we can make him leave without me dying?”
“Yes. I'm still not 100% sure, but I guess I will figure it out.” he gave me a small smile.
I couldn't help but press my lips against his, relief and happiness flooding through me. Harry responded to the kiss immidiately, his arm tightening even more around me.
“Don't you ever think of leaving me again, understand?” he mumbled against my lips.
I didn't respond, because I knew that I would lie. If I agree, it will be like I'm promising I won't ever give my life for Harry's safety, wich is not true. I would do anything for Harry's happiness, and death is in the list.
“Rebecca,” he pulled back to give me a serious look, green eyes scanning mine. “I can't keep on without you. I've told you so many times. You make me strong. I don't want to do anything if you're not by my side.”
His words brought a smile to my lips, the honesty in his voice giving me goosebumps. My heart fluttered and butterflies errupted in my stomach.
“You're just used to having me around. That's all. After everything we've been through together, you can't stand the idea of going on your own.” I murmured quietly.
He shook his head gently. “No. I've been on my own for 77 years. But I still need someone to hold my back, and you're the only one I trust on this fucking planet.” he whispered.
“It's good to know.” I chuckled lightly.
He smiled softly. He took my hand in his, his thumb grazing my hand gently. I smiled as he kissed my nose. My heart skipped a beat when his lips suddenly met mine, but I still responded to the kiss.
Our lips moved in sync and my hands moved from his cheeks to his hair. His tongue slid inside my mouth easily, finding mine and making my stomach twist as butterflies started dancing again.
The kiss didn't last long, however, as Harry's phone vibrated. He groaned and pulled back, making me quietly giggle when he made a face and jumped off the bed.
He was lying next to me seconds later like a flash, phone pressed to his ear. “What is it Dan?” he grumbled.
I looped my arm around his, hugging it tightly as I rrsted my head against his shoulder. My lips pressed light kisses on his inked skin, my fingers tracing the different shapes of his tattoos.
“I'll be there before the game.” Harry said flatly.
I kept moving my finger on his bare arm, feeling his soft skin against my touch. I loved every little thing of Harry. His body, his hair, his eyes, his personality, his voice, his jokes. Just everything.
“Yeah, yeah, don't worry man, I'll be there and we're gonna win, see you soon.” he ended the call without hearing what Dan said.
I chuckled when he sighed out of frustration and pressed another light kiss on his shoulder. “Calm down baby.” I said softly.
“I'm trying.” he said through gritted teeth, taking a deep breath.
“Stop being so mad with everything around you. Try to be excited and happy when you get back there, okay? And don't forget to compel Niall and all the others, the girls that are coming today too.” I reminded calmly.
He nodded. “Okay, okay, don't worry.”
“I'm glad you stayed here for the night.” I admitted.
He looked down at me and smiled. “Me too.” he kissed my hair.
I smiled and looked back down at his bare torso, scanning each tattoo. His hand entwined with mine, fitting perfectly. I sighed and pressed my lips against his skin again.
“Rebecca,” he murmured softly. He was calm now, not angry.
“Yes?” I looked up at him.
“I want to do something.” he said, a ghost of a smile flashing in his face.
“What?” I raised my brows.
He rolled over, hovering over me. He smiled down at me, making me smile too. He ducked down and brought his lips on my nose.
“I got a heart.” he surprised me by singing, his raspy voice sounding like an angel's.
I gasped and felt my heart skipping beats, the beautiful sound of his voice giving me goosebumps. I looked up at him in surprise, my lips parted as my eyes flitted back and forth into his green, shining ones.
“And I got a soul.” he sand again, the tune seeming calming.
He kissed the corner of my lips, his hand tacking a strand of my hair behind my ear. My entire body heat up, my cheeks blushing. He pulled back to scan my face before continuing.
“Believe me I, will use them both,” emotion was laced in his voice as he sang beautifully to me.
“We made a start,” he kissed my cheek. “Be it a false one I know.” he made a face, making me chuckle.
Happiness flooded through my entire body, the butterflies in my stomach dancing. My heart was full of happiness and life, beating rapidly inside my chest.
“Baby I don't want, to feel alone.” his change of volume in his voice made goosebumps arise, sending chills down my spine as tears burned my eyes.
He gave me a sad smile before kissing my lips. I kissed him back, trying to send him the feeling of love that courses my heart through the kiss. He pulled his hand away from mine to cup my face in his hands, holding his weight on his elbows as he kissed me sweetly. My tear rolled down my cheek and he quickly wiped it with his thumb, without breaking the kiss.
Seconds later, we broke the kiss to stare at each other, enjoying the moment. The thought of never, ever again being able to feel his touch under my fingertips, or feel his lips against mine, or feel his arms around me when we sleep, brought only pain to my heart.
I can't leave Harry alone.
I have to fight. Not only for me, but for him too. And by leaving him, is like throwing him in a whole of pain and misery. I don't want that for Harry. Yes, it might get much better in the future, but what's the future for Harry? He's immortal. It might be a living hell for him. I can't let him live a life full of pain because of me.
“Harry..” I whispered, my voice small.
“Hmm?”
“I'm not going to do it.” I inhaled deeply. “I'm not gonna give up.”
His eyes lit up, his smile growing bigger. “Really?” he asked surprised.
“Yes, Harry. You're too precious to be left alone.”
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A/N: Did you really think Rebecca would give up so easily? Especially after I made her go through? *chuckles*
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