"H-how d-do I f-face him no-now?" I stutter nervously as I sat in my room. There was no time for thinking or consideration of any of my other thoughts.
Ever since I did...what I did with Travis, I haven't been the same.
I have never...ejaculated before. I know it's an orgasm, but still I've never felt such a thing. When I did though...I don't even know what to say.
My own body is trying to test its limitations and I find myself wanting to see what I can do. But I refuse to touch myself because that's...dirty.
I am too nervous to meet Travis so I've been locked up in my room going back to that boring ritual of studying. School is coming soon and I guess I can prepare for that. It's a distraction for myself so that I don't do anything inappropriate.
Louis doesn't seem to be mad at me anymore, so I can always ask him... What he does about his forms of wanting to ejaculate. I don't want to, at all. Except if...it's by Travis - I need to stop!
I practically hid in my room after the whole event. Louis ended up coming home by the time I mustered up the courage to face Travis. That's when I knew there was literally no point in going down. That was a week ago.
It'd be too awkward... At least I would be awkward about it.
"Y-you probably t-think I'm s-such a wimp..." I mumble under my breath, pulling out the picture I made for him.
As I begin to stare at it I wonder if I should even give it to him. He'll probably think it's too much. I'm just the guy who is obsessed with flowers and they calm him as well as his stuttering.
Who'd want anything to do with me?
Probably sucked at kissing too. He has such soft lips and I wonder who else he's kissed. Because he was an amazing kisser. I also felt something rub against my lower body and it felt so...nice.
It was like stimulating a body part of mine that has never felt such stimulation. Not to mention I made a fool of myself just making weird noises. Must've sounded terrifying and crazy to Travis.
Can only imagine what he really though of it all.
My head laid on my desk, a sad sigh leaving my lips. Never knew how much of a fool I was, until now.
I begin to sit my head up, hearing the sound of something hitting my window. At first I thought I was crazy because our house is pretty tall.
When I look out the window I saw Travis standing outside my window. Holding little rocks to my amazement. This is the kind of stuff you see in movies, not real life!
I begin to open my window, becoming shyer the more I opened it. By the time it was fully open, I was peeking out at Travis.
We both looked at each other despite being lots of feet away from each other. But I took a deep breath and smiled.
"Hi."
Wow, I was able to say that without stuttering.
"Hey. I need to talk to you." He says, and he sets down all the rocks. When he nods over at his car I suppose, I blush.
"I - I m-m-made you some-something!" I exclaim in embarrassment, and I rush to my desk. Taking the picture I begin to lean out and dangle it in the air.
"Mimi be careful!" He snaps, and as I reach back to grab the window - I learn that was a mistake. I begin to fall from my window and no sound left my mouth.
It's as if I was so startled by what just happened that I couldn't scream. Except I should've known I wouldn't fall in the ground.
I fell into his something firm, but my body instantly curled up in fear. I practically hid my face into Travis' chest until I stopped. Taking a deep breath and I look up at him.
Our faces were back to being close to one another's and I already couldn't take it. My shyness was back and I blushed.
"You need to be careful. If you had fallen on the ground and I didn't catch you, you'd be dead. Honestly." He looked back up at my window and my eyes stayed on him. "Yeah, you're window is higher up than I thought after some seeing you fall like that."
He took a deep breath, and I began to feel bad.
"I had to catch my breath. My heart pumped way too fast in nerves. Mimi you almost made me have a heart attack!" He cried, and he set me on my feet.
I kept looking at him, the picture on the ground as I picked up.
"I...I'm sorry. I - I do not - not want y-you to have a-a heart attack." I say, and I hand him the picture. "I - I made t-this for y-you."
Of course I was stuttering when I told him this. I was so nervous that the picture wasn't good enough and also I almost died.
Just me standing in front of him without blushing is a lot. I've never been so embarrassed and shy in my whole life...
"This is so thoughtful and beautiful Mimi. What made you want to make this for me?" He asked me, a soft smile coming to his face.
My own face though was droopy and stupid.
"B-because y-you said you - you l-like yellow." I murmur, and his eyes light up.
"Oh yeah! When you asked me what my favorite color is in the garden? I remember now. You really put in all this hard work and effort for me? Now I need to make you a piece of art."
"N-no it okay! You...you c-could just g-get me P-Pringle's and I - I would b-be happy." I joke, and couldn't help but snicker.
When I was in a China that's all I ate. Was obsessed with them and the key lime and or cucumber were my top favorite.
"I'll buy you ten of them." He barked suddenly, and I flinched.
That's when he took my hand and nodded to his car.
"Do you mind if I take you to a store, buy you those Pringle's you want, and we talk...? About last week?" He asked, and by the time I nodded I was inside his car already.
Once he was on the drivers side, he began to start the car. I already knew we were going to go to a store, but to see him drive was...cool. Though it was very awkward, I still couldn't help but keep my eye on Travis.
He was too handsome for me to avoid staring at him. How am I supposed to act at this moment? I've never been around someone that I've kissed or who caused me to ejaculate. The embarrassment is beginning to grow on me...
"So...about last week... I want to start with an apology."
I suddenly began to face forward, a frown coming to my face.
"I completely invaded your space and that was wrong of me. Should've had some self control in the whole situation." He said, and I began to become upset. Why is he apologizing for his actions when I liked it?
Couldn't help but become a little frustrated and refused to look at him now.
"I mean...that is what I would say if I was sorry. I don't regret a thing."
I quickly look at him and a crooked smile was on his face. That's when I knew that he wasn't kidding and I found myself sighing in relief.
"I - I somehow f-feel better." I admit, and I couldn't help but chuckle. When I look at him now he looked entertained.
"I liked being able to kiss you Mimi. Yes, I was all over you, but it was like something took me over. I don't even know what to say because I don't regret one thing that took place." Travis ended up telling me, and he glanced at me soon enough.
A smile came to my lips and I nod.
"I - I hope you d-don't r-regret it." I say, and I begin to sit up straight in my seat. "D-does this m-mean anything?"
Travis frowns, looking at me with a curious expression on his face.
"Mean anything in what way? What are you trying to ask Mimi?" He seemed to be enticing me to continue on further, but I was only getting more embarrassed.
My eyes closed and I needed to think about this. Didn't want to say anything foolish and make a fool of myself. Right now I preferred to say silent...but maybe I should just be honest.
I want to keep my mouth shut, I kind of don't want to say a word. Except it may be best if I just tell him.
"I - I think w-we both could have-have some f-form of attraction...attraction towards o-one another. I - I do n-not kiss my friends l-like that." I tell him, and my face was practically on fire. By the time I look at him he was nodding in agreement.
"You're right. I don't kiss my friends like that. If I kiss someone like that with the lack of self-control I had, it means I'm head-over-heels for them. That's only happened once." He went on to say, and I wondered what he meant by that last sentence.
"W-w-who was your...o-once?" I ask softly, and he looks at me with a smirk.
I blushed again like a fool, but I couldn't help it.
"You, silly." He murmured, blowing a kiss to me and I gasp.
When I saw him smile at my reaction I couldn't help but smile too.
"D-does this mean...w-we like e-each other?" I ask, and he does one nod at my words.
"I know that whenever I look at you I always become a better person. If you saw how your brother and I were in school, you'd probably be put off by me. But, that old me changes now. I believe you made me a better person - especially in such a short time." He states, and he blew me another kiss.
I smile, biting my lip soon after. Now I knew I had no excuse to act this way. I knew he liked me...well he didn't say so exactly. Still didn't answer my question.
"Mimi, yes, I do like you. It's kind of hard not to. Ever since I fell on my knee before you it's like I fell for you. Maybe this was meant to happen." He said, and I took a deep breath.
"I like you too." I say stutter free, and that's how I know I was confident with my statement.
Travis looked impressed and a smile came to his face. At this moment I was happy beyond words and I knew that I liked him.
Except, so does Louis.
Do I have no shame?
I fall for the guy my older brother was in love with first. It was not meant to be vengeful or hurt him, I just happened to fall for Travis. I see what Louis likes...
"W-what about my - my brother?" I ask nervously, causing Travis to shrug.
"I think he'd be fine. Understands our feelings-."
"I - I think it should be a-a s-secret! O-only until w-we are certain...y-you know? So I-it doesn't c-cause strife." I say, and Travis looked convinced by my reasoning.
"Okay, secret relationship it is. I don't mind." Travis shrugs, a little pout coming to his face. I couldn't help but think he looked so cute.
Here he was trying to say I was the cute one.
As I faced forward in the car, I suddenly feel his hand cradle my face. A warm hand cradling my already hot face, but now it was probably going to become hotter. When I look at him he had a grin on his face.
"I don't think my feelings are wrong. I know that this is genuine. I like you Mimi." He tells me, almost an assertion.
I chuckle, smiling as I nod.
"I know my feelings are genuine too... I like you too, Travis." I say, and I didn't stutter. Travis looking very content and he sighed.
"Happy to hear that."
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