The night passed so awfully quickly when they were together, it was a pity that there were only 24 hours in a day. But to Chaeyoung, time wasn't a thing to her when she was in the presence of Lisa's. She loses track of time when she was in the hands of Lisa's and loved it.
There the two girls laid, the Australian lying on Lisa's bare chest, finger tracing circles on the very delicate white skin of her lover. The silence was the most comforting one that Lisa has ever experienced in her life. It was as if a thousand words were spoken by that silence but how ironic, it was so silent.
Lisa's mind couldn't stop wondering back to what they just shared just a few moments ago. It wasn't sex for sure, it felt like it was genuine love making; their relationship has became a more connected one.
To Lisa, sex is just a selfish act. Lust is the thing that drives you to have sex with somebody you momentarily want, and lust is selfish. Sex is just an activity to help somebody get over their sexual frustration. But, love-making to her is completely giving yourself to the other, completely letting your walls down and trusting them with the skinship. Love-making makes the two feel good about it, and by the end of it, love should be filling up one's empty and cold heart.
And this time around, Lisa could feel the sincerity in it. The way Chaeyoung touched her felt so lovely, and she felt as if she has never seen any other girl anywhere. Chaeyoung has got Lisa wrapped around her finger and the younger girl isn't even complaining.
Lisa was just so so in love with the older girl.
Chaeyoung shifted slightly in Lisa's arms and the Thai girl turned to look at her beautiful girlfriend. She was so proud to have Chaeyoung as hers and she would never stop feeling proud.
"Why are you staring at me?" Chaeyoung questioned silently, a smile on her lips.
Lisa could literally hear the smile, and that didn't fail to make her smile too, "Because you're really pretty."
Chaeyoung scoffed before closing her eyes. She felt really different in the current moment. Chaeyoung felt like she was really Park Chaeyoung and it felt like the first time that she was actually living in the moment. Usually, she wouldn't feel that strong a sense of belonging to her soul, but during the present, she felt like the soul of hers was worth it for once.
She sighed out of relief, heart feeling so full, "I could stay like that all night..."
Lisa chuckled, "Me too."
The younger girl kissed the older's forehead, hands going around her to keep her close to her body. They wished that they could stay like this forever, but reality was stopping them from getting what the wanted.
It was already 2 a.m. in the morning and because Lisa didn't have her study materials, she had to leave the house earlier to drop by her own home and leave after. They forced themselves asleep, but their hearts were beating too quickly because of each other.
The few hours passed in a blink of an eye, and Lisa was surviving on an hour of sleep. She untwined Chaeyoung from her and she stood up quietly, putting on her clothes that were scattered all over the ground. She decided to give Chaeyoung a little more time to rest because she couldn't bear to wake such a peaceful angel up.
Jisoo knocked on the door and peeped in after, only to see Lisa sitting by the foot of the bed and Chaeyoung's shoulder bare, "You stayed overnight?"
Lisa smiled sheepishly, "Uh yeah..."
Jisoo scanned the room and she noticed a bra on the ground. She squinted and Lisa turned to see what Jisoo was looking at, thinking of something to say, "That's h-her dirty laundry."
Jisoo nodded, unconvinced, "Mmhmm, you two are going to explain to Jennie and I. I'm guessing I don't have to send Chaeng to school?"
Lisa nodded before Jisoo left. The younger girl gently crawled over her sleepy girlfriend before poking her cheek carefully, "Wakey wakey!"
Chaeyoung whined a little and pulled the covers up to cover her face. Lisa laughed with heart eyes before going on a full on tickle attack on the older girl again.
The older girl was squirming and giggling so hard underneath the sheets, feeling absolutely awake now.
"Are you awake?" Lisa asked, smiling cutely at the older girl.
Chaeyoung smiled too, "Yeah." She sat up, and the covers slid of her petite body, revealing her bare chest. Lisa's eyes couldn't help but wander to the wrong place. "Oops."
The girl got up quickly and got dressed, leaving Lisa stranded. She smiled, not sure what it was at however. But she just felt so content and happy that she was here with Chaeyoung.
The Australian walked out of the bathroom in her usual outfit, a long sleeved shirt. Lisa frowned slightly, constantly wondering why Chaeyoung would put such a perfect body in such covered clothes. Now that Chaeyoung was her girlfriend, maybe she didn't want to share such a perfect body with anybody else. But, you still get it.
"Why're you frowning?" The older girl asked innocently. "See something you don't like?" She asked again, tidying her hair nervously.
Lisa shook her head and cracked a small smile that made Chaeyoung feel a little more calm, "I just don't understand why you are constantly wearing such clothes."
"Is there anything wrong with wearing jeans and hoodies though?" Chaeyoung asked, getting a little defensive. Lisa felt slightly worried suddenly, afraid that she has somewhat invaded Chaeyoung's privacy.
Lisa swallowed nervously, "There's nothing wrong, I was just wondering. You look good nevertheless." The older girl could feel the sudden change in Lisa's tone, the way she spoke with such caution, afraid to hurt Chaeyoung.
The older girl reached out to hold Lisa's hand, making the Thai girl's heart race. A sigh left Chaeyoung's lips as she looked up into Lisa's bright eyes.
"Do you remember? The first time you brought me to Bam's salon? And you asked me why I never took my flannel off?" Chaeyoung questioned gently, maintaining eye contact.
Oh, how could Lisa forget their first time out together alone.
"Of course," Lisa replied. "But you told me you weren't ready to share it with me then."
The Australian girl nodded, "Since now seems like the right time, I'll explain."
Lisa nodded, eyeing Chaeyoung and her next move. The girl pulled up her sleeves, and there were the scars of war between Chaeyoung and her demons. She expected Lisa to gasp, and just question why she did that, but Lisa never did.
Lisa just stroked the scars on her wrist gently, placing a gentle kiss on both her wrists, "Don't ever do this to yourself again."
"You know," Chaeyoung started quietly. "I thought you were going to hate these scars," Chaeyoung admitted in a small tone.
Lisa flashes Chaeyoung a sad smile before shaking her head, "I wouldn't hate your scars."
Chaeyoung blinked, heart filled because of Lisa's understanding but what she didn't understand was why didn't Lisa hate her scars just like everybody else?
"Why?" Chaeyoung questioned, but this time, her volume much softer.
Lisa exhaled, looking intently into Chaeyoung's hazel brown eyes, "These scars are what you had to go through, to make you who you are today. No matter how many there are, they developed you into the Park Chaeyoung I'm in love with now. And since I love you, I'll love you for everything that you do too."
Chaeyoung's heart was so warmed up, she felt the need to cry out those newly formed tears on her eye brims.
"These scars are what make your soul intricate, they are what makes you special and beautiful inside. But, you do have to stop it," Lisa reprimanded. The older girl let one stubborn tear slip down her cheek and the latter wiped it away with her thumb.
The shorter girl brings her arms around Chaeyoung, pulling her closer so that she could place a comforting and loving kiss on her forehead, "I want you to know that I love you no matter what."
With that, they both left for school.
a/n: sorry for MIA i was really obsessed with the new kill this love album and yeah hEnce explains why i have been gone for thiS long hope the wait was worth it!!!