I gulped as I heard Aria's questioning voice with a hint of her feeling helpless and I absolutely hated that when she sounds like that. It makes me feel even more helpless since I can't help her get well soon.
"Aria, it's up to you if you want to do this. I won't have you do it if you don't want to but I agree with Dr. Smith that we should do it as soon as possible." I said and begging The Lord to help me convince her to get it.
"Then I'm gonna ask you again, my love, am I dying?" Aria rasped out and that was the last heart string and she untied the knot as I broke down in tears. Not very manly, I know.
"You're not yet dying but I'm so afraid." I said while I was trying to stop myself from crying
"Afraid of?"
"Afraid of losing my world, the love of my life. I'm so afraid of losing you." I explained even more and she just smiled at me sadly.
"You're not going to lose me because I'll always be with you." She tried to comfort me but it worsened.
"You'll always be with me but not physically. Aria, how will I ever cope with that?" I asked her again as her voice resonated again and again in my head.
"Am I dying, Ezra?"
"We'll get through this." Aria said and kissed my cheek.
"How?"
"I don't know but I can feel it. As they say, 'faith over fear' and right now, I'm entrusting everything to the divine because He knows what's best for me." Aria said and as bitter as I might sound, of course, God has control in everything and no one can alter that.
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After a week of her release in the hospital after that scare, Aria started going to mild chemotherapy sessions and I can see that her health is improving somehow. It's as if the sickness didn't exist.
Her pale lips and cheeks now starting to get back their old, rosy tint and her eyes getting back the sparkle that could light up the whole United States after dark. I miss this.
And I know I'll miss her too.
"Look how big you are already, little Alex!" I hear Aria coo over our baby of 11 months.
"Hey honey, I'm home!" I announce my arrival and little Elicia and Alex started to babble some incoherent baby words when they saw me.
"Who's honey?" Aria playfully asked and I just let out a small chuckle. Oh dear, dear Aria.
"You're my honey because you make my life sweeter." I cheesily replied and she just laughed it off.
"You really tried so you deserve a kiss for that." Aria said and kissed me squarely on my lips.
"I've been waiting for that." I smiled. "What's for dinner?"
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After five minutes has passed when Aria tried to make Alex eat his mashed carrot baby food, she sighed in frustration and just stared at Alex and then suddenly turned to me.
"Your son is almost a year old only and yet he's as hard-headed as his father! Can you try making him eat his food, please?" Aria asked and I chuckled a bit. She doesn't get upset very often so it's entertaining seeing my son annoying her.
"Look, Aria. Babies like tasty food and with the look of that thing in his plate, he won't eat that. Not in another lifetime." I scolded playfully and she just frowned in return.
"But this is healthy and it's good for him!"
"He doesn't know that, love. All he knows is that he doesn't like it and he will not eat it because he thinks it's not edible or palatable." I shrugged and she just stormed off, leaving me with my only son who's grinning at me toothlessly that says 'Thank you for making me not eat that horrible food'.
"Man, you're only 11 months old and you're driving your mom mad already." I chuckled again as he clapped his tiny hands. "Here, try eating it."
I made airplane sounds with me holding the spoon with the mashed carrot and he opened his mouth ajar and I internally fistbumped. Success!
I did this until Alex finished his baby food and we ventured out of the dining room, looking for his probably annoyed mother that we found on the couch, playing with Elicia.
"Aria, Alex is done eating." I said as I sat down with the two most important girls in my life.
She shot a glare in my way and asked, "Are you sure he finished it and you didn't throw it away?"
"Hey, what are you so upset about?" I asked because God knows I'm clueless.
"Oh nothing. Aside from the fact that it's my birthday, that is." Aria stated and I looked at the calendar and my jaw literally dropped. Hell, how in the world did I forget her birthday? I slap my forehead and before I could apologize for being forgetful and promise that I'll make it up to her, she got up, carrying Elicia and Alex and went to their nursery.
Oh my god, I fucked up real bad.
I racked my brain for some valid reason why I forgot it's Aria's birthday but I found nothing. None. Zilch. Nada.
I turned off the television and followed my wife who just turned a year older.
"Aria, baby, please open the door." I said but I hear her whimper behind the door and a commotion inside our bedroom.
"Aria, please."
I begged again until I heard a loud crash and I panicked so I started to barge the door open.
"Aria! Aria!" I shouted and kicked the door open but it's no use. To say that the key of the room that I own is inside the room. Damn it!
"Ezra, what's happening?" Spencer asked as Hanna and Emily trailed behind her.
"Aria, sh-she's inside and I suddenly heard a loud crash and I screwed up real bad, oh God I-"
"What the hell did you do?" Hanna screamed accusingly and Emily stopped Hanna from hitting me.
"Guys, instead of arguing, let's break the door and then we could talk about it later." Spencer suggested. As expected from the most intelligent girl we all know.
"In a count of three... One, two, three!" Spencer said and we all kicked the door. We heard the crank get loose so I asked them to stop.
"I'll open it so stay back, you might get hurt." I said and kicked the door with all my might and it opened, revealing my wife lying on the floor.
"Holy God, Aria!"
I rushed towards her and checked if she still had a pulse and thank God, she does. I observed the surroundings and it looks like she was looking for her little black pouch wherein her injections are placed.
"Emily, pass me that pouch!" I said and she immediately ran to me and opened it. I got the one with the 15mm dosage and injected it to her.
"Okay, you girls stay here and watch over the twins, I'll bring Aria to the hospital." I said dejectedly and they all nodded, well, except Hanna.
"You better explain everything, Fitz."
"I'll call as soon as I can. Please inform Ella, Byron and Mike too." I ordered and then carried my wife to the car and sped off to the hospital. Traffic rules be damned, Aria is on the brink of life!
When we arrived at the hospital, nurses assisted me when we arrived at the emergency room as we rushed her to ICU.
"Sir, you have to leave the room. We'll update you with the situation as soon as possible." The redhead nurse said and I had nothing to do but wait so I sat down the lounge and then called Spencer.
"How is she, Ezra?" She asked impatiently and I just sighed.
"She's still in the ICU so I don't know what's happening." I said and I could imagine her just nodding.
"I think it's time for you to explain what happened, Fitz." Hanna demanded and I realized that I was on loudspeaker.
"Have mercy on me Lord but I forgot that today is her birthday and she stormed off to the room." I said, my voice laced with sorry.
"You what?" Hanna screamed and I think I just got deaf.
"I'm sorry, okay! My mind just got drifted and-"
"That's not an excuse!"
"It is when you're trying not to count down the days when you feel like you're gonna lose Aria anytime!" I argued back and hanged up.
I paced around the room for about half an hour but I didn't realize it until I heard Dr. Patrick Smith call out for me.
"Ezra? We transferred Aria in a private room. Would you like to talk about it inside the room?" He asked.
"Yes, please."
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A/N: so here's the chapter that I promised! heheh
AND I HAVE AN IMPORTANT QUESTION AND YOU HAVE TO ANSWER IT.
Do you think I should let Aria live? Yes, no or depends?
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-Kat xo