Warning: Depression and Suicide ahead. May trigger some readers.
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You are so ready to give up. It felt like every time you tried to do something to make your situation better it backfires and you are just ready to call it quit.
Erik and T'Challa notice you aren't your usual self. You are quiet, withdrawn, and isolated. You don't eat as much and you have stopped drinking coffee and tea. You never stop drinking coffee and tea.
You stay in your rooms for days and don't come out no matter what they do or offer. You skip school unless it's completely necessary. When you do leave your room you wear an oversized hoodie and leggings.
The two are worried.
"She won't talk to us or tell us what's wrong," Erik says to their friends.
"Sounds like she's depressed," Nakia says.
"How can we help?" T'Challa asks.
He hates seeing you like this. You're always so strong with a can do attitude. Nothing seems to be about to stop you. You always have a witty remark that makes them laugh or a wise word for them when they're down and now they feel useless.
"Try talking to the school's guidance center. They should be able to help."
The boys nod.
You're out your room for once when they boys come home and they are in shock. You have dark circles under your eyes and there's a dead look in your eyes.
"Hey guys..." you whisper, voice rough and tight.
You sound ready to cry.
Erik, who can't bear to see you like this, instantly hugs you, not caring that you may not like it. You aren't really a touchy person when you are your normal self but he doesn't care.
Erik and T'Challa are shocked as a sob leaves you and you hug Erik back, clinging to him as if he's the only thing keeping you here. T'Challa puts water in the kettle and puts it to boil.
"Chelsea..." Erik begins.
"S-S-Sorry."
"No! Don't be! Come...you need a shower and then sit and talk with us. Please?"
You nod and T'Challa nods as he sets to ordering your favourite food while he makes your favourite brownies. Erik goes with you to make sure you shower.
Erik steps into the room and is surprised it's still clean but it's dark. Your bed is a mess and he sighs as follows you to the bathroom. You are standing in the shower. He hands you the soap and you bathe.
He goes to grab you some clean clothes as you finish your shower. You emerge, wet and eyes red. Erik dries you off before piling your skin and then dressing you.
"Sorry..."
"It's fine Chelsea."
"I feel like such a child."
Erik kisses your forehead and you give a small smile before it disappears.
"Come on."
You follow Erik and he grabs your phone as well.
T'Challa has your favourite food on the coffee table and your favourite show playing. You sit down and accept the food as the boys sit with you, making sure you eat and drink.
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You finish eating and T'Challa pauses the show.
"Chelsea...what's wrong?"
You hug your knees to your chest and shake as you begin to cry again. Both boys hug you, wiping your tears and murmuring softly to you.
"I'm sorry...I...it's been hard."
"School?"
You nod and the boys listen as you tell them everything. Your GPA is trash due to you failing a class last semester and as a result you're struggling to bring it up. Your professors (with the exception of two) are just getting on your nerves and you can't stand them. You keep getting rejected for financial aid but your parents can't afford to pay your tuition. No one will hire you and you're just at your breaking point.
"I want to drop out."
"But...what about your dream?" Erik says.
You shrug and the boys hug you as you sit quietly between them.
"How can we help?" T'Challa asks.
"I don't know. It's just...I don't know."
Erik sighs.
"Chelsea...we want to help but we don't like when you lock yourself away."
You nod.
"Promise us you'll try and talk to us. And take care of yourself."
"Okay...I promise..."
They smile as they hug you.
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You start doing your normal routine but the boys know you aren't fully back to normal. You are stressed over school and money and you still want to quit.
They come home and see you crying and they know it's been a bad day. They quickly begin their care routine for you.
T'Challa gets you in the shower while Erik orders from one of your favourite restaurants and makes you some tea.
They listen as you talk, hug you, and watch tv with you. You thank them as you fall asleep between them.
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T'Challa makes you pancakes and you eat them quietly, not saying anything. You had tried to go into hiding both boys would simply go in your room and stay with you.
You feel like such a burden.
The two are talking and you sit quietly, not listening.
"Why do you two take care of me?"
They look at you before looking at each other.
"Because you're our friend Chelsea," Erik says. "We can't stand by and let you self destruct."
"And if it was one of us you would do the same," T'Challa says softly.
You nod before excusing yourself. They frown.
"Remember you have class!" Erik says.
"I know..."
You walk off.
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It's time to leave and you haven't left your room. Erik and T'Challa frown before going to your room. They see the bathroom door is closed. They knock. There's no reply.
Erik unlocks the door and gasps before rushing over to you. You have cut one of your wrist. T'Challa calls 911 as Erik uses his military training. He applies pressure to the wound.
"N-N-No..."
"I'm not letting you die Chelsea. Not when you are stronger than this."
You cry and Erik holds you as T'Challa paces. The EMT arrives soon and stitch you up.
Erik has called your parents and you are sitting with T'Challa as the EMT finish.
"Come on. We are going to the counselling center."
You nod as you let them drag you out.
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It's been a months since your attempt and you're doing much better. You still have your days but the two help you through it.
They also started Relationship with you. The suicide attempt made both confess that they love you more than a friend but understand if you didn't want a relationship.
You didn't understand why they wanted you: you're broken and a mess but the two men listed all the reasons they love you and you had given them the brightest smile they had seen in a while.
You're currently sleeping between the two, arms around you and they watch as you sleep peacefully.
"We'll always protect you," T'Challa whispers.
"And we'll always love you," Erik whispers before kissing your forehead.
They hold you close as they doze off as well.
they'll take it day by day, step by step, but they won't leave your side.
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So a few of the things mentioned in this story have currently been happening to myself and I have been very close to just calling it quits. It's hard for me to talk about my emotions because I always feel like I'm burdening those around me and that I'm being selfish.
School has been kicking my ass and money is extremely tight and it's just been shitty Lately. I'm hoping this all passes soon.