"Sweetie you have an appointment with Mary. You need to see her. I'm worried about you."
She came into my room and I rolled my eyes. Though the gesture was sweet and I knew she cared about me, she needed to realize that I'll speak on my own time. All she did was shove therapy down my throat. Has she ever stoppped and wondered maybe I don't want to talk about these feelings with some halfway kind of stranger.
Maybe I just needed my mom.
I shook my head and went into the bathroom and slammed the door sending a very clear message.
The shower was usually where I do all my thinking. I don't know why but it's just so calm and peaceful and when the water falls it sounds so serene. And the warm water making contact with my body makes me feel so relaxed, like I have nothing in the world to worry about. It's like a confession box but instead of saying your sins, you say your emotions.
But eventually, the water stops and you have to enter the real world again.
I thought back to Andrew's smile, the way he looked when he was soaked in rain, the way he spoke, everything. I shook my head and pushed all those things to the back of my brain.
After I showered and was drying my skin I got a message. I never got messages...I have no friends. I picked up my phone and it said unknown.
Curious, I opened it.
Can you drop me to school too? It's a long walk from home. ; )
I rolled my eyes but smiled, fully aware of who it was.
How did you get my number?
I have my ways.
No that's not creepy at all.
Being creepy is my speacialty bonita chica.
Pretty girl? Yeah right. Though I was in denial, I smiled and put my phone to charge. I wore a grey jeans with a baby pink crop sweater that showed some of my stomach and a black high top converse. I put my hair in a neat high ponytail.
Why am I putting so much effort into how I look? I have nothing to look foward to. No one to look foward to seeing or talking to. Maybe in the back of my mind I was somewhat excited to see Andrew but I didn't want to accept that fact.
Usually I don't really gloss up for school but I had a feeling today was going to be different. Pleased with the my look I grabbed my phone and bag and headed out the door.
I climbed into my white Mercedes Benz and put on the radio which was playing Despacito by Daddy Yankee. Humming to the song I pulled up in front of his house and pressed the horn.
He came out clad in a skinny jeans and a plain navy blue jersey that stuck to his every muscle. What is it with boys a tight clothes? They think girls want to see their muscles? Flaunting over there biceps, triceps and the abs...oh the abs.
He waved to me and smiled, looking back up to his face.
"Hey. Your early."
I shrugged and smiled at him. He took in my appearance and smirked. "You look nice. Different, like how you used to look. Hot even."
I used to dress like this two years ago but now I usually just wear baggy jeans a big sweatshirts or sweatpants and oversized tops because I have nothing to look foward to.
I smiled and backed out of his driveway. Throughout the drive he suggested that we stopped for breakfast since we were early and he hadn't eaten. The truth is neither did I, just a banana which didn't do as much as I'd hoped.
We stopped at Denny's which was the closest to our school.
"Jessie? It's so good to see you!"
Troy was the manager and I used to come here with my best friend all the time. I hadn't come since the death. It brought back too many memories. Sort of like now. I shouldn't have come here. I forced a smiled and half waved but he pulled me in for a hug. He was a burly, balding man with the most joyful of personalities. He had a big belly and he was short, kind of like a stooge. He was dressed in his usual uniform and his name tag was pinned to it.
He escorted us to our seats and gave us menus. "A waitress will come take your orders shortly." He looked at me and smiled, his laugh lines showing, "Nice seeing you again, Jess." I nodded with yet another fake smile and he walked away.
"I think I'll have a sausage and cheese panini," he looked at me as if he expected me to say something. Even if I did talk like a normal person, I wouldn't have said anything.
A blonde looking bimbo walked over to us with a notepad in her hand.
"Hi I'm Ashley I'll be your server. Are you ready to order?"
Andrew smiled at her and she blushed. Apparently this happens to all girls. "What will you have sir." She asked, already falling for the charm.
I snorted with was rather unladylike but I couldn't help it. She called him sir. Andrew looked at me with amusement in his eyes but she looked at me with disgust. I'm used to her type of looks though.
"The sausage and cheese panini with an orange juice and she'll have chocolate chip pancakes with a chocolate milkshake."
She put her hand on his shoulder, "Coming right up."
She walked away trying to look sexy but she failed...hard. she was swaying her hips side to side, shaking her...mosquito bite? Oh wait no that's her butt...my bad.
I looked at him after a while and he smiled. "What?"
One time we went to Denny's together with his best friend and Anaya when we were twelve. He was taking her on a date and she forced me to come with Andrew. She thought we could build a friendship or something. I ordered chocolate chip pancakes and a chocolate milkshake which was the same thing he just ordered for me.
Plus I'm a sucker for chocolate...who isn't.
"You remembered?"
He didn't seemed shocked that I spoke and even if he was he didn't show it.
"Yeah. You spoke about that dumb meal whole day and said how you'll always order that when you come here. Honestly, it annoyed the shit out of me...but that's not the point."
I blushed because he remebered what I had actually said and I also took note that he paid attention when I spoke long ago. Smiling at each other, the waitress rolled her eyes. She was our age and went to our school...why isn't she at school? Probably a morning shift.
She smiled at Andrew and placed his food down for him. "Enjoy. Bet it tastes delicious," she winked at him and I made a throaty sound. Its like, I was going to laugh but I stopped it, therfore making an unladylike sound. She looked at me with burning hatred in her eyes but I didn't blame her...if I were her I'd want to be me too. She held out my plate, "Look."
I laughed humourlessly and folded my arms leaning back into the seat, waiting for her to rest it down for me. Don't they sell manners at eBay anymore? I mean, they ship it worldwide for free.
She brought the bill and I began to take out my money but he stopped me.
"No I'll pay."
I shook my head but he insisted. He gave her the money before I could. She checked it and smiled at him while twirling her stupid blonde hair around her finger.
"No tip?"
Andrew stood up and helped me out of my seat even though I didn't need it. He smiled fakely back at her. "No tip."
I waited until we reached the parking lot to burst out laughing. Eventually he joined in but he stopped before me and looked at me as if he was mesmerized.
"What?" I asked quietly while he put a strand of my hair behind my ear.
"I just missed your laugh that's all."
I blushed and looked down at my shoes. "Stop that."
"Unless you wanna be late, we should go."
I nodded and walked back to the car. When we arrived at school, everyone watched me and took in my new look. Well, old look...new old look. They also watched that I was in the same car with Andrew. Assumptions, assumptions...tsk tsk tsk.
I walked into the building with him following behind. I turned around and faced him and he crashed into me.
"I am so sorry."
He got up and lended me his hand but Zack already picked me up. Zack was one of his friends and my all time crush. Yeah he and Anaya had a fling but I had liked him from ever since. But I saw that they had liked each other so I kind of ignored my feelings for him.
"Are you okay?"
I nodded and smiled. And when he smiled back my legs turned to jelly, good thing he was holding me.
"Good."
He let go of my waist and walked away. Andrew was looking at me with a curious look and I shrugged.
"What was that?"
I shrugged again but he wouldn't let it go.
"He's been nothing but mean to you but suddenly you change your appearance and he acknowledges you, he even talked to you for that matter."
I rolled my eyes. "You too. Don't you have your own friends? Stop following me."
I said it soft so only he could hear me. I don't feel comfortable talking to anyone else but him. Odd...I know.
"No I'm not leaving you."
When he said that, I felt...something. Something I didn't like. But what was his deal? I didn't like him. Didn't he get the message?
We both had home economics next and last class Mrs. Grey told us that she'd have a big assignment for us. We sat in our usual single seats and she came into class. She was strict and no one liked her. She especially didn't like me because I never answered her. She was so insensitive.
"Today I will give you a baking assignment. You have two months and on the final day you will submit your cake. Each class you will bake a different cake to test your flavours and on the final day you'll bake the chosen cake. I will pair you with your partners."
Everyone groaned but she told them to be quiet.
"Dwane and Bryan."
"Miley and Josh."
"Andrew and Britney."
"Jessie and Zack."
He turned around and winked at me and I smiled. I saw Andrew roll his eyes.
"Discuss what you'll be doing with your partners now."
Zack brought his chair and came and sit by me. Andrew went up to the teacher for something. It looked like they were arguing. Who argues with Mrs. Grey?
"So? What kind of cake do you wanna bake? We have to make a sweet cake so we can name it after you? Right sweet pea?"
"Rise and shine pick up lines. She's my partner," Andrew said rather smugly.
"No she isn't your with Britney."
"She said that she's switching us so I'm with her," He pointed at me ,"And your stuck with that." He pointed over at Britney.
"Whatever." He pulled out a piece if paper and wrote something on it. "Here's my number, babe. Call me." He winked and went off to his slutty partner.
I blushed at what he called me and Andrew rolled his eyes.
"What do you see in that guy? You've like him since you were young."
I watched him with a raised brow.
"What?"
"How are you my partner? What did you do?"
No one noticed that I was talking and no one could hear me over the banter of noise which was going on.
"I told her if she let's me be your partner I'll wash her car for a month and I'll set her up with the principal."
I snickered, so I covered my mouth so no one would hear my laughter.
"So?" He raised his eyebrows, "What cake shall we make sweet pea?"