YO ITS MY BIRTHDAY! IM 19! WHOOP. anyway, back to story, sorry.
Josh kissed Zoey's neck. "We need to just make a decision already." She huffed and smiled at him. "Yeah." He cuddled her. "Either we do it or not. Not this thing we just did and keep doing. Getting all heated and then stopping. It's not good." She sighed. "I don't know what keeps stopping us." He pouted. "I know kinda for my side." She kissed his chest. "Which is?" He asked. "Several things. The same things. Every time we get close, I just picture your mom. Not like in that way. I mean, I picture her finding out. Your family being upset with you. Thinking I'm a bad influence and made you a sinner or whatever." She sighed tracing his chest muscles. "We've been over this. Yeah they'd be disappointed but they wouldn't love me or you any less. Were adults. We make our own decisions. Plenty of other people have before and they're fine." He rubbed her arm. "I guess. I just, I don't know." Zoey buried her face. "What else?" He asked. "Do I have to tell you?" She looked up at him. "If were gonna do it we've gotta be comfortable talking about this stuff." He snickered. "I guess you're right." She sighed. "I'm worried." Zoey added. "About?" He asked. "About getting pregnant. I know I know. Sounds stupid. I get it. I know there are things to use to avoid it. I just have this fear it wouldn't work and then I'd be a terrible mom." She shrugged. "Hey, now you're right. There are things. Several things to avoid it. Its a reasonable fear though baby. For the record you'd be a great mom." He grinned down at her. "You really really think that?" She sat on top of him holding the sheet over her chest. "Yeah. You'd be the best. Our kids will have the sickest mom." He rubbed her thighs. Zoey smiled warmly. She bent down and kissed him. He wrapped his arms around her as they kissed. "I love you." He smiled. "I love you too." She giggled.
"Your turn. Spill." She rubbed his chest. "Me? Um, I don't know." He looked away. "Come on Josh. I'm not the only one who keeps backing out. There's gotta be at least one reason. Is it your faith? I get it." She smiled. "Its not so much that...um.." He rubbed his eyes. "What baby?" She furrowed her brow. "I'm scared." He confessed. He's scared? "Why?" She rubbed his cheek sitting up again. He stared at her while she held the sheet. "I um...I don't know how to say this." He covered his face. "Josh." She frowned and removed his hands with her free hand. "I'm scared I can't please you." He mumbled. "What? Speak up honey." She rubbed his cheek. "I don't think I could please you." He confessed. "What?" She raised a brow. "Zoey, I've never done this. I have absolutely no idea what I'm doing. What if I hurt you? What if I don't last long? What if I can't make you-ya know? What if I do something wrong? Or everything wrong? I've never even wore a condom. I have no clue what I'm doing. At all. What if-" Zoey kissed him. Josh lifted his head with his eyes closed as she broke it. He opened them slowly. "What was that for?" He asked. "You worry too much." She smiled. "But Zoe-" "But Josh. I have no idea what I'm doing. That's the point of experimenting. Will it be perfect the first time? Maybe maybe not. Its our first time. That's the point. A first time for everything. It'll be fun at the same time." She told him. "How?" He asked. "Because think of it like a map. We'll get to explore our bodies. We learn more about each other through our body. Like umm discovering a planet or a star." She said holding her chin. He smiled at her. "You find that one star. Its new. Its beautiful. You wanna learn everything about it. From one curve to the other. Top to bottom. Everywhere. You learn things and then things that work and don't work. How it works. Then you appreciate it to a whole new level. Like unfolding a new layer." She explained looking up. Clearly she was winging it as she went. He knew what she meant. Josh grinned at her and sat up. He pulled her closer. "You're my star." He whispered as their noses touched. Zoey blushed and smiled. She wrapped her hands around the back of his neck. His chest helped hold the sheet up because they were so close. They started kissing. They laid back as they made out. Josh's hands traveling around her back pulling her as close as he could.
"So we should probably decide right now." He said stroking her hair. Zoey nuzzled his chest. "Yeah.." She rubbed his chest. "Its only about two and a half months." She added. "We can do that." He nodded. "Totally. Right?" She looked at him. "Don't look at me. You have more self control than me." He snickered. "Not by much." She laughed. "We can do it." He said. "We can do it." She nodded. It already felt like an eternity.
One month later
Jenna was three months pregnant. The boys were on tour as the ladies tagged along. She was just barely showing. Tyler and Jenna only told a few family members. They decided to keep it low key for now especially with the tour. They were gonna announce it soon to the clique and the world. Tyler had been extra paranoid with Jenna lately. He barely let her do anything even though the doctor said most of the things were fine because she wasn't far along. However, Tyler refused. He wouldn't even let her go to the bathroom alone sometimes.
"Jen you okay?" Tyler knocked on the door. "Yes Ty. Baby I'm fine." She sighed. "You sure?" He asked. "Yes. I'm just peeing." She giggled. "Okay. I'll be right outside here on the couch." He nodded. "Okie." She laughed. When Jenna came out Zoey walked by and stopped. "He annoying you yet?" She snickered. "I love him but he won't let me do anything." She sighed with a smile. "He just wants to make sure his ladies are okay." Zoey snickered. "Yeah. Bless him for that." Jenna grinned. "Oh my goodness." Zoey gasped. "What?" Jenna raised a brow. "Jen! You're starting to show!" Zoey whisper yelled. "Really??" She looked at her stomach. "I guess its about time." She smiled. "How far are you?" Zoey asked. "Almost four months." Jenna grinned. "Awee. Are you gonna find out or wait to see the gender?" She asked. "I dunno. I've still gotta talk to Ty about it. I've been kinda avoiding baby talk right now." She bit her lip. "Why?" Zoey questioned. "He's freaking out a lot. About being a dad." She frowned. "That's normal." Zoey giggled. "Yeah but I feel bad. He worries like Josh does." She told her. "Oh Ty." Zoey frowned. "He thinks our child is gonna forget him. That he'll be gone too long when he's on tours. That he's gonna miss everything." Jenna sat down. "But they won't. They have a awesome dad. He won't miss everything." She furrowed her brow. "Good luck explaining that to him. I tried." Jenna sighed. "Hey don't stress. Its bad for momma and the baby. I'll talk to Josh. Have him speak with Tyler, maybe ease his mind." Zoey smiled holding her hand. "Thank you so much. I just don't want him stressing. He's going to be a wonderful father." She smiled. "What do you think it is?" Zoey asked. "I think it could be a girl. I'm not sure." Jenna giggled. "What do you want?" She asked. "I'd be happy with either but I kinda want a girl." She smiled. "And Tyler? A boy?" Zoey asked. "Surprisingly no. He'd be happy with either but he's secretly hoping for a girl." Jenna placed her hand on her stomach. "Daddy's princess." Zoey snickered. "I'm gonna go see what Tyler wants to eat." Jenna got up. "D'you need help?" Tyler got up and saw her from the distance. "Ty baby I'm fine." Jenna kissed him. "Where's Josh?" Zoey asked. "Couch." He pointed.
"Hey baby." He smiled as Zoey sat next to him. For a month they've behaved well. They've kept their make outs pg and they've been happy about it. "I need you to do something for me." Zoey leaned on him as he wrapped his arm around her. "What's up?" He asked. "I need you to talk to Tyler." She whispered. "Why?" He wondered. "Because he's scared. Of the same things you are." She told him. "Oh." He bit his lip. "Jenna tried talking to him but it won't work. Shes worried. That's not good for the three of them." Zoey frowned. "Hey. Don't frown. I'll speak to him." Josh kissed her forehead. "Thank you Spook." She kissed him. "Always Zoreo." He winked.
"Yo Ty! I need to talk to you." Josh put his hands on Tyler's shoulders. "Okay one sec." Tyler nodded. "You need anything while I'm up?" Tyler asked Jenna. "Could you actually hand me my water please?" She asked. "Course baby." Tyler immediately got it and gave it to her. "I'll be right back." He kissed her. Jenna blushed and smiled.
Josh and Tyler walked off the tour bus. "Let's walk a bit." Josh gestured forward. "Uh okay?" Tyler walked with him. "So you excited?" He asked. "To be a dad? Yeah." Tyler started smiling like a dork. "Nervous?" Josh asked. "That's an understatement." He laughed. Josh snickered. "You know you're gonna be a great dad." Josh smiled at him. "Thanks man." He smiled. "I understand why you're nervous. Plenty of reasons. I understand why you'd be scared too." Josh looked down. "Who told you-Jenna told Zoey and Zoey told you." Tyler nodded. "Yeah." He laughed. "You won't miss anything. You wouldn't allow yourself too." Josh smiled. "What if I did?" Tyler scratched his neck. "You won't. Focus on the now dude. I know its hard but you're stressing yourself for nothing. You're gonna be a amazing dad and Jenna's gonna be a amazing mom." Josh patted his shoulder. "She is." Tyler smiled big. "So what are you hoping to have?" He asked. "A girl." He replied. "Oh." Josh grinned. "Tyleretta." Josh snickered. "Jenna would kill me if we named her that. I dunno. I just really want a girl. I'd be happy with a boy though if that happens." Tyler laughed. "I'm glad the tour is ending soon." Tyler admitted. "Why?" He raised a brow. "Only so Jenna can rest. I don't want the travel to stress her out. Its not good for them." He said. "Hey, how's wedding planning going?" Tyler asked. "Good. I have no idea what half the stuff means but Zoey gets it so its cool." He laughed. "She pick out a dress yet?" Tyler asked. "No. Shes got this fear and shes been putting it off." He sighed. "Why?" "She thinks she won't fix into anything." He frowned. "I'll have Jenna get her out. Maybe do that gal thing they do I don't know. See if she can help." He nodded. "It'd be appreciated. I tried to tell her she would but she won't listen." He furrowed his brow. "You pick a tux?" He questioned. "No." Josh scratched his head. "We'll go looking this week." Tyler winked. Josh grinned. "My mans getting married!" Tyler threw his arms up. Josh snickered and shook his head. "Congrats man. I'm happy for you. It only gets better from here." Tyler grinned. "I know." He smiled. "You guys will have ups and downs, that's a given, but what matters is that you make it through it. Nothing, no fight, is worth ruining and losing the one person who keeps you sane. Remember that. Sometimes you're gonna have a stupid fight and yeah shes gonna be wrong sometimes but for the sake of your relationship, don't throw a fit. Sometimes you gotta be the bigger person. So you gotta suck it up and apologize, don't matter how right you are and how wrong she is. Nothing- I mean nothing, is worth losing her." Tyler lectured. Josh appreciated his advice, more than he knew. "You're gonna get judged too. Don't listen to those people. They're gonna say 'its too early' or 'how can you know shes the one' but you know. Its just this feeling. I can't really describe it. Do you truly think Zoey's it?" He asked. "Yeah." Josh smiled. "What makes you so sure? I'm only asking because this has happened before and I don't want to see you hurt." He explained. "No I get that. Ya know, before, I really did think I was in love with Debby. I think part of me did love her. But not like Zoey. Zoey...with her..it's different. The feeling I get just hearing her name, sends this electric feeling in me. The way my hearts feels when she says my name or she laughs at one of my stupid jokes, the way she plays with her bracelets and her hair. A day hasn't gone by where I don't think about her. Literally. I trust her so much. If I had to put my life into her hands I trust her. Shes just...shes amazing Tyler. Words just can't fathom how much I love her." Josh proceeded to smile like a dork. A huge grin sweeping his face. "Good." Tyler just smiled. He had a good feeling about Zoey a long time ago, it made him feel happy to see it was right and Josh was so happy. Josh has always been a smiling and positive guy but when Zoey came into his life, he was even more smiley. No one thought it was possible for him to smile so much more.
Later that day, Josh was roaming around exploring. He walked past a store. He stopped. Josh bit his lip. He backed up and stared into the window. Taking out his phone, Josh texted for Tyler to meet him. When Tyler showed up, he smiled to see what store it was. It was a tuxedo store. Josh was leaning on the wall outside. "You ready?" Tyler asked. "I'm just looking. What does Zoey call it? Window shopping. I'm just curious and figured you'd wanna help." Josh shrugged. "Alright man. Let's do this." Tyler grinned.
While Josh and Tyler were out, Zoey took this time to take a walk. She needed a little alone time. Now was the chance. She slipped on her combats boots over her black skinnies. She fixed her hair and threw her panic! tank top on since it was nicer out. Zoey did her eyeliner and headed out. She popped in a head phone. "I'll be back Jen. Call if you need me." She hollered as she exited. "K be safe!" Jenna waved.
Zoey put the other ear bud in and was off. She walked down the street and mouthed lyrics. The fresh air felt nice since she was cramped in a bus full of guys most of the time. Zoey turned the corner and made sure to remember where she was going so she could find the bus later.
20 minutes passed as she continued walking. Along the way she came across a couple clique members who wanted a picture with her. She took them and made sure that she'd tell Josh later they all said hi. Her sanity already felt better than it had in awhile.
Josh came out in a tux. "I don't know." He held the coat collar and fixed the bottom. "I think you look good. Instead of trying everything on let's narrow it down..what are you looking for?" Tyler asked. "Something kinda slimming I guess. I don't want anything baggy but nothing to tight. I'd like to move my arms." He snickered. "Understandable." Tyler laughed. He looked out the window as Josh went back in the dressing room. "Is that Zoey?" He raised a brow. "What?" Josh popped his head out shirtless. "Right there. Across the street." Tyler pointed. "It is. I wonder what she's doing?" He questioned. "Probably walking. She does that a lot when were in Cali. Helps clear her head and relax her." Josh went back inside the little changing room. Tyler watched her. He squinted his eyes. "Yo Josh. We've got an issue." Tyler stood up. "What's wrong?" He asked. "I think someone's following her." He said. "What?" His tone changed. Josh came out in his jeans still shirtless. He looked out the window. "That guy. In the hoodie. Watch him." Tyler pointed. Josh stared. Tyler was right. It looked like whoever he was following her. Copying her movements. Josh threw on his shirt quick as they grabbed their stuff and walked out.
They crossed the street and decided to follow him. To see what he was up to. He was clearly following her. Crossing the street when she did and turning the corner she did. They saw him taking a picture of her. Josh tensed up. Tyler stopped him. He gestured for them to get a little closer quietly. So they did. She crossed the street and so did the guy but the light turned green and the walkway wasn't crossable. "Shit!" Josh hit his leg. "Come on. Watch for cars." They ran across as the guy disappeared.
When they saw him he was about to touch Zoey. Josh ran up behind him. He grabbed his wrist and twisted him slamming him up against the wall. Zoey spun around and her eyes widened. Just then the bus pulled up. "Jenna?" Tyler raised a brow. She opened the bus door. "Zoey come on-Josh? Tyler?" She questioned. "Zoey? Did you know he was following?" Josh asked holding the guy. "Yeah. I felt him. I texted Jenna about it and told her to bring the bus." She nodded. "And were here." Mark got off the bus. "What the hell were you thinking?!" Josh yelled at the hooded guy. "I just wanted a picture with her!" He yelled. "So why were you taking pics?!" Josh glared. Tyler removed his hood off and snapped a picture. "Now we've got your photo. We see you again and the cops will be called." Tyler cut him a look. The guy cut a look and rolled his eyes. Josh let him go slowly. "Leave her alone." Josh pulled Zoey into his arms. The guy ran off. "You okay?" Josh asked her. "I'm fine Josh." She sighed and smiled "Thank you." She hugged him. "I made a promise to you, when I said no one would harm you again- I meant it with all my being." He held her tightly. Zoey smiled and just held his waist. "Nothing." He kissed her head. Tyler smiled at them.
They got on the bus. Josh sat on the couch. He pulled Zoey onto his lap when she walked by. "What were you doing anyway?" He asked. "Taking a walk." She snickered. "You okay?" He asked. "Yeah yeah just bored." She kissed his cheek. "Less than two months." She poked his cheek. "I know." He winked. "Ya know what else is coming up?" He kissed her cheek. "What?" She raised a brow. "The 14th." He smiled. "Ohh." She grinned. It was the first time she'd actually have a valentine in awhile. For the first time in awhile, Zoey was excited for valentines day. In fact it was in three days. Josh kept hinting to her he had something planned but wouldn't tell.
"Zoey! I need your help." Jenna called from the bathroom. "Jen you okay?" Tyler asked. "H-hang on. Zoey!!" She yelled. Zoey ran to the bathroom. "Jen its me." She knocked and went in shutting the door. Jenna had her pants down but underwear on. "I-I don't know what's wrong." She looked terrified. Zoey was confused until she looked down. Her eyes widened. "Oh my god. Jenna." She gasped. "You need to get to a hospital. Right now." Zoey held her hand. "O-oh okay." Jenna was shaking. "Tyler!!!" She yelled. Tyler ran to the door. "What's wrong-" He looked down at the blood streaming down Jenna's leg. His heart stopped. "Jenna are you okay?!" He asked. "I don't know." She looked like crying. "Tyler she needs to get to a hospital. Right now." Zoey stated. "Oh. Yes. Okay. Go tell our driver. Hurry!" Tyler was panicking and helped Jenna pull her pants up. "Tyler I'm scared." Jenna was tearing up. "Its gonna be okay baby. Were gonna get you to the hospital." Tyler pulled her into his arms and held her tightly as she cried. His heart racing and fighting back tears. "Why aren't we moving!?" Tyler screamed. Jenna clenched his shirt. "Sorry baby." He rubbed her head. The bus started to move.
Tyler helped Jenna walk to the couch. "I need a towel. So I don't get blood on the couch." She held her stomach. "Jenna its fine." Tyler told her. "Tyler." She furrowed her brow. "Here." Josh laid a towel down. "Just relax Jen." The boys helped her sit. Zoey ran over with water. "Here." She handed it to her. "Thanks Zoe." She smiled still terrified. Tyler sat next to her and she leaned on him sniffing. He wouldn't say it in front of her but he was terrified. He knew nothing about pregnancy but he was pretty sure blood wasn't a good sign. Especially because it was streaming down her leg, not spotting. Just a small one but enough to make his mind run. It was just like that, he was back. Rising from the shadows. Saying the most awful things. Blurry was back.
Zoey watched Jenna from a distance, scared. Josh hugged her from behind. "What if something is wrong with the baby?" She whispered, her voice shaking. "I hope everything is okay.." He looked down. "They don't deserve this. What if..she just had a mis-" Josh stopped her. "Don't think like that." He said. Yet, from Josh's tone, even he was scared of what happened.
They arrived to the hospital. Jenna had bled a little through her pants. Tyler grabbed his blanket and wrapped it around her waist to hid the blood so she wouldn't be embarrassed. "I've got you." He kissed her. Zoey got the door as Josh and Tyler helped her inside. "I need a doctor!" Tyler yelled as they rushed inside. Everyone staring at them. "Sir what's wrong?" A nurse stood up. "My wife, shes pregnant and she was bleeding. She still is." Tyler's voice shaking and cracking. Jenna could see how hard he was trying to stay strong. She teared up and hugged him. "Please! Help her!!" He yelled. "We need a doctor to the waiting room! Stat!" She said over the intercom. Suddenly nurses ran in and a doctor. They helped Jenna onto the bed. "Are you the husband?" He asked. "Yes." Tyler nodded. "Follow us." They quickly wheeled her in back. Zoey covered her face and started to tear up. Josh turned around and furrowed his brow. He ran over and hugged Zoey firmly. "C'mere baby." He held her trying not to show how upset he was.
"How far along is she Mr.Joseph?" The doctor asked as they rushed her down the hall. "Three months. It'll be four next week." Tyler held Jenna's hand. "What was she doing prior?" "Uh I dont-Jenna?" Tyler looked at his scared wife. "Um nothing. I was in the bathroom. I thought I had to go to the bathroom and I pulled my jeans down. I saw blood and panicked." She bit her lip. "And you're sure you're pregnant?" He asked. "Yes! I took tests and went to the doctor. I'm even showing." She sounded almost irritated he asked that. "Were gonna get you back and run some test. See if we can stop the bleeding." The doctor nodded. "Is my baby okay??" She asked. "We won't know until we get you in back. This room here!" He pointed for them to roll her inside. "Mr.Joseph, this is where I have to ask you to stay out here." The doctor said. "Excuse me!? That's my wife!" He yelled. "You can't come back not right now-" "Jenna!!" Tyler tried to fight through. Security came over. It took four to pull him away. "Were gonna take care of her." The doctor told him as he opened the door. "Tyler!" She yelled. She was so scared. Tyler's heart broke. "Jenna!! I love you!" He screamed. The guards forcing him to sit. Your fault. Tyler grabbed his head. "Oh god." He put his hand over his mouth.
Josh and Zoey ran back when they were allowed. "Tyler!" Josh yelled. Tyler stood up and he hugged him firmly. "They won't let me in." He said. "What?!" Josh furrowed his brow. "Do we know anything?" Zoey asked. "No not yet." Tyler looked like he'd been crying. His nose was red and his eyes looked irritated along with his wet lashes. "Do you think..the baby is okay?" Tyler asked his voice scratchy. "I'm...I'm not a doctor Ty..I'm sorry. I hope it is. You guys have been doing everything right." He frowned. Tyler appreciated his honesty. Then the doctor walked out. "Mr.Joseph, may I speak with you in private?" He asked. "Y-yes." Tyler's heart was racing.
"We've done some test and spoken with your wife. Your child seems to be fine, however, we won't know for certain until her results are back but I believe there is a reason for her bleeding. That, will be discussed with you both. If you come this way." He guided Tyler to her room.
"Jenna!" "Tyler!" She smiled as he ran over and hugged her tightly. Tyler kissed her over and over. "Now that I have you both here," Tyler and Jenna held hands. "Mr. and Mrs.Joseph, I believe you have what's called Subchorionic Hemorrhage." He stated. "W-what's that?" Jenna asked. "Subchorionic hemorrhage is a type of bleeding during pregnancy. Some women can have a normal pregnancy after it, some aren't so lucky though. It can be a sign of miscarriage. Its common in 1/4 of women during their first trimester. You said you have no complaints of stomach pains and cramps. That's good. Cramping pains can also be a sign of miscarriage. Because of your age and the size, I don't believe your baby is in danger." He explained. They smiled. "But," Their smiles left. "We need to keep an eye on this. Because you are now at risk of having a miscarriage even greater. You're gonna need time to rest and relax. You don't want it to worsen. With that being said, if you start bleeding again wear a pad. No intercourse and no tampons as this can effect it. Where a pad so we can see the amount and color of your blood coming out." He explained further. Tyler squeezed Jenna's hand unintentionally. Miscarriage? "How does this happen? What are we doing wrong?" Tyler asked. "I can't tell you that. It didn't mean you're doing anything wrong. Bleeding is normal and common in pregnant woman especially during her first trimester, you always want to be sure though. Just take it easy and watch yourself. Watch for more blood, and the second you get pain in your stomach you need to go to the ER right away. Again I'm going to check your results but from the sonogram your baby seems very healthy." The doctor told them. "I'll be back soon." He nodded and left. Tyler just stared forward. "T-Ty?" She asked. He didn't respond. "Tyler? Baby?" She furrowed her brow. He looked like he was gonna cry. Jenna placed her hand gently on his cheek and moved his head so he could look at her. "Miscarriage?" He asked. Jenna frowned. "Are you gonna be okay?" He asked. "With tour?" "I'll be okay-" "Jenna. Our baby is at risk. You're at risk. The tour could be too much for you ladies and what if something happens. I can't lose you both. Any of you." He scratched his neck. Jenna held his hand and smiled. "Did you hear what you said?" She giggled. "What?" He asked. Jenna pulled him lower and kissed him. "You said ladies." She smiled. "Oh. Sorry. I know we don't know but that's what I've kinda set my mind on. A girl." He half smiled. Jenna rubbed his cheek and smiled. Tyler hesitantly touched her stomach. "Y-you gotta hang on. Okay?" He bent down and talked to her stomach. "I know life kinda sucks but you gotta pull through. I wanna meet you. Were gonna have a life together. A happy one. I'm gonna be a dad. Your dad. That's...that's my purpose. To raise and love you. So, you gotta hang in there. Okay princess? Or er champ? Mommy and me are waiting for you. Please don't leave us." He rubbed her stomach and smiled. Jenna grinned as tears fell down her face. "Baby you okay?" He asked and furrowed his brow. "I love you Tyler Joseph." She smiled. "I love you too Jenna Joseph." He grinned and they kissed. "We'll get through this." He caressed her cheek and then rubbed her stomach. She nodded and kissed him again. The doctor came back with a clipboard.
"Mr. and Mrs.Joseph, the results are back. The tests confirm you do have a subchorionic hemorrhage. As for your baby,.."