I was stuck between my heart and brain. My heart told me yes whereas my brain told me no. I had panic attacks and at times I found it extremely difficult to breathe. I knew that I would lose either Lauren or Austin and I was not ready to let go of both of them. Austin was there for me when no one else was and Lauren...I didn't find her to lose her all over again and it was the truth, I finally concluded that I love her more than I loved Austin. She is my first everything that mattered and I don't think I would be able to survive if I let her go this time. But that doesn't mean that Austin would have to go away.
Mine and Lauren's day at the Maritza Petrova really complicated a lot of things. I don't know about her since she was way too good in hiding things but I knew how I felt about everything. We almost kissed. I literally felt her upper lip on mine and if Austin wouldn't have interrupted, I would have kissed her after ten years. Something that I wanted to do for so long. I knew that Lauren's thoughts must be going crazy as well. She too was in a long term relationship with an amazing girl who she wouldn't let go of either. I had no idea what to do since I was going to Lauren's place tonight to get my body painted on a canvas. And I was scared.
Do you ever feel like your whole world is shattering and the only person who could save you is not around anymore? I felt that way for no reason. I had Lauren but I didn't have her. She treated me like her friend and it sucked because I wanted so much more. I noticed how she stares me in my eyes but is she too blind to see all the love I have for her? Or maybe she just decided to ignore everything she sees just for the sake of our friendship.
Yesterday was a big day. Lauren talked to Allison about her relationship with her father. My three years old girl rolled her eyes. Can you believe it? She rolled her eyes when Lauren mentioned her father and I almost lost it. I couldn't help but realize how badly she got influenced by mine and Lauren's friendship even though we just met four days ago. However, Lauren made Allison understand the importance of a father. I stayed quiet because I was in no condition to speak a single thing. Allison adored Lauren and for that she agreed to do anything that the older Latina wanted. After Allison went to sleep, Lauren assured me that she will keep her distance but she didn't tell distance from who. Me or my daughter?
Everything was complicated. I wouldn't blame Lauren for coming into my life again because even before she wasn't here, it was complicated and I don't remember being stress-free for a very long time now. If one thing gets better, another thing gets fucked up. I didn't even talk to Dinah and told her about how Lauren was going to paint me today. I knew Dinah would talk me through it and I would end up saying no to the girl I loved which I honestly didn't want. Maybe I do need a psychologist. Maybe I do need a little counseling.
As the clocked ticked on the wall, my anxiety got the best of me. I was going to get naked in front of Lauren tonight. The only person besides Austin who had seen me without clothes but I was extremely insecure about my body. I was nothing in front of her. I decided to send Allison off to her grandparents. My parents and my daughter had a really amazing relationship and I got lucky for Sofi being at home to look after the three years old. I took a deep breath and got in a shower. I scrubbed and massaged my body to look good for Lauren tonight. I shaved whatever was needed to be shaven and applied the best body wash on my body. I was meeting Lauren in three hours and for once I wanted the time to stop.
Lauren texted me a while ago. I wasn't expecting a word from her but she told me how she was having second thoughts about this whole painting thing but this time I insisted her. It was a long time that I saw her painting something and painting me? Well, it was like a dream come true even though I still don't know how Reyna would feel about this. Hanging out with her girlfriend was one thing but being naked in front of her was something entirely different but I didn't care. As long as it was Lauren who wanted to paint me, I didn't care about anything or anyone.
I finally got changed. I wore my green top with white jeans and sneakers and tied my wet hair in a messy bun. I didn't know if Lauren wanted me to apply makeup or not but I applied a little bit of it anyway. I was going crazy on the inside. My mind was in a haze and I found trouble in breathing. I didn't know if Lauren would like my body. I didn't know if she would like my body after seeing me naked or not but whatever it was, I was ready to do this. I had the whole day to get myself mentally prepared.
Soon, it was time to leave. I informed Lauren before leaving for her place and she replied me with a simple ‘ok’. I listened to the songs on the radio with full volume all the way to Lauren's house just because I wanted to get the unnecessary thoughts out of my head but nothing seemed to work. She had me trapped. Soon, the fimiliar Miami street was seen and I instantly saw the huge house with the name plate of “Jauregui” right outside the gates. That was my cue, I took a huge breath and entered the gates before parking my car in the porch.
I took a moment to recover. It was only Lauren who would see my body, right? I shouldn't be afraid because I was in love with her but then again why it felt like my heart would burst out of my chest? Sucking it all up, I got out of my car and walked towards the front door and rang the door bell. Tapping my foot on the marbled floor, I waited for one of the servants to open the door but no one opened it, instead, I saw Lauren standing at the other side of the door with a smile on her face. I instantly melted and all my fears went away just by looking at her.
“Hi. Come on in.” Lauren greeted as she rubbed the back of her neck nervously.
I smiled in return and without saying anything else, I entered her house and she closed the door behind. The first thing I noticed how empty it was. There weren't any servants to greet me or the sound of television or soft music blasting through. I was once again getting nervous by everything. Firstly I was with Lauren in a house where there isn't anyone except for us and secondly, I would be naked. Self control was the most important thing I needed right now.
“I'll take you the guest room and you can change there. There are robes in the cupboard so you can wear them if you want,” Lauren said.
She wasn't doing very well either. Her voice was extremely shaky and I was glad that I wasn't the only nervous one here. The two of us walked inside the guest room in silence and she opened the cupboard for me where I saw a couple of towel and silk robes. She immediately left me alone without saying a single thing and I took a deep breath to collect myself. I was sweating like shit even though it was the end of October. I quickly stripped out of my clothes and wore a grey colored silk robe and tied the knot from the front to hide my body for a little while.
I took a deep breath once again and looked myself in the mirror. I looked fucking sexy. I knew that Lauren would feel something for me when I would go like this outside. I knew it very well because come on, I looked great. I gathered the courage once again and walked out of the room. I saw how the lightning of the house was extremely dim now. I had to hold onto walls and furniture to make my way towards the living room where Lauren was waiting for me. As soon as I reached the living room, my jaw dropped to see the view in front of me.
Lauren was working on the position of the small settee where I knew that I would sit. The room was lit with candles and lanterns and I saw a huge canvas right infront of the small lamp beside the window. Was she doing all this just to paint me? I took a deep breath and tiptoed towards the girl I loved and once she saw me standing, her mouth was literally on the floor and I wasn't even imagining it. Lauren didn't do anything to hide how surprised she looked to see me and I was very insecure about standing in front of her. She looked at me in my silk robe from top to bottom and suddenly made her way towards me in slow and steady steps. Her eyes were never leaving my body and I never felt so...exposed.
She stood right in front of me. Her eyes were never leaving my body, not even for a single second and in that moment, I wanted her to kiss me. I wanted her to want me just like I wanted her so much. Suddenly, she traced her hand over my upper arm and from the free hand, she pulled me closer to her body. Her fingers were warming up on my skin even from the top of the robe and I didn't mind the closeness. I just wanted to be close to her.
“You're so beautiful.”
I closed my eyes as she leaned in and inhaled my scent from my neck. God, I was going crazy with lust and arousal. Lauren's hand moved back to my ass and she gave a light squeeze and soon pulled away. “You're so beautiful.” She repeated again and I moved closer to her once again.
“Don't stop touching me.” I pleaded.
Once again her hands were on my body, she cupped the side of my neck before adjusting herself on the arms of the couch while I stood between her legs. Her free hand continuesly touched my waist, my ass and my stomach and I couldn't stop myself from opening the the knots of the robe but Lauren stopped me with a slight kiss on the neck. She technically didn't stop me, I stopped myself when her lips came in contact with a very delicate skin.
“You're so sexy, Camz.”
She continued kissing my neck and tracing her hand on my body and I couldn't help but surrender to her. I tilted my head and gave her more space to kiss my skin and soon, she stuck her tongue out and traced it over my neck. A sudden moan skipped my mouth and in return, she moaned back and me and pulled me closer to her. God, fuck, I wanted to kiss her so bad. As if reading my thoughts, she pulled away and looked at my lips. Her eyes were dark with lust and hunger and that moment I would have done anything she wanted from me.
“Why did we ever break up?”
My mouth went dry when she questioned me. Were we finally having this conversation right now? Were we really asking each other why we broke up when we were so close in kissing each other's faces off again? I thought that maybe Lauren would ignore the question but she was actually waiting for me to answer her. Did I have an answer for that? It was true though, why did we break up?
“I don't know, I guess. We drifted apart.” I said in a very low voice. Lauren sarcastically laughed and moved away. I knew that I hit a nerve so I stayed quite as she walked towards her canvas and mixed the colors on the table next to her. She was mad.
“Lauren, what's wrong? Please talk to me.” I begged.
“Nothing to talk here. Sit on the settee, we'll begin in a moment.” She said in a very cold tone but that didn't stop me from moving closer to her and standing next to her.
Taking the paints from her hand, I put them away and brought her hand to my mouth. I didn't know what I was doing but I kissed her finger tips lovingly while looking her into her eyes. I knew that both of us were feeling this because we used to do that all the time before. It was something we used to do everyday to calm each other down. “Camz, go back to the settee and let me do my work.”
“Not until you tell me what is bothering you.” I insisted and saw Lauren's expressions changing almost instantly.
“You want to know what is bothering me? Fine. Here it goes. We broke up ten years ago. Why? Because you decided to be a selfish asshole once again and decided to stay back home. And when I finally moved on and found someone who loves me, you came back into my life again and fuck it all up. I can't control myself in front of you Camila. Don't you see how I almost kissed you thrice already?” Lauren said in a single breath. She looked away and ran a hand through her hair.
Ok, so now I'm the bad guy. The rush of anger went through me and I swear I wanted to hit Lauren as hard as I could.
“Oh, so you're blaming it all on me? You were the one who left me. I cried there, in front of you and all you did was pack your bags and go. You don't know what I went through after you were gone, Lauren. You don't know how it felt like to wake up to an empty bed everyday. You don't–”
“I know about this, ok? You were not the only one suffering, Mrs. Camila Mahone.” Lauren's venomous voice scared the hell out of me but I stood strong, once again.
“Don't use that tone on me, Lauren. You left me and made me promise to find someone. You were the one who asked me to move on and not keep my life on pause so yeah, I got married because you asked me to. But what did you do, huh?” I asked angrily too.
“What did I do? I found myself a fucking girlfriend. Not marry the first man I saw.” She shot back, I was extremely angry by now. I needed to punch the wall or her own perfect self.
“You know what, if you hadn't left, I wouldn't have married him. I would have been yours. You just had to stay. You had to fucking stay with me and build a life with me, Lauren.” I said and suddenly Lauren laughed.
I had no idea why she was laughing. I knew I was selfish and I knew whatever Lauren said was extremely right but I had my ego at my end. I wasn't going to let her win that easily and get away with it once again. Lauren stopped laughing and looked away.
“You should have stopped me from leaving Camila. That's what I wanted to hear from you ten years ago. You should have told me to stay with you. But you only said that you couldn't come with me and didn't even ask me once to stay in Cape Town with you. All you had to fucking do was ask!”
I was taken off guard. She was right once again. I remembered the whole conversation of that night when she told me she wanted me to come with her and not even once I asked her to stay. I only thought about myself even then. Tears started to well up in my eyes and I was so ashamed to even stand in front of her.
“Lauren...”
“Don't ‘Lauren’ me, Camila. Do you know how hurt I was? I felt like you were glad that I was finally leaving but no, I knew that you were in love with me. I knew you were so fucking selfish and your ego was higher than anything to ask me to stay. And as far as I know you, the thought of asking me to stay didn't even cross your mind. Am I wrong?”
“Laur–” she interrupted me.
“Am I wrong?” She asked again, this time sternly and I shut my eyes closed to let the tears fall.
“No.”
With that being said, Lauren looked away and I saw a tear falling on her cheek. My feet betrayed me by moving closer to her. I cupped her face and wiped the tears falling on her cheeks with my thumb and pressed our foreheads together. “Sometimes you need to let go of the people for their own good.” I said.
Lauren looked away and instantly met my eyes again. “Seriously, Camila? You were in love with me and I was in love with you. We were not supposed to let go of each other.” She said, her voice was slightly raising but she quickly apologized.
“If I had stopped you, we wouldn't be happy Lauren. But now that I think about it, I really should have stopped you.” I said.
Lauren laughed once again and walked away, she moved towards the other part of the living room while running a hand through her hair. I couldn't even imagine how hurt she would have been. “You fell in love with my flowers, not with my roots, Camz. So when autumn came you didnt know what to do.”
And that was when my heart broke into million tiny pieces. If she knew how insanely I loved her, and I am in love with her right now, she never would have said this. Before I could even continue to defend myself, Lauren spoke up and I let her speak whatever she wanted to say to me, no matter how much it hurt me.
“And there is nothing more painful than the thought of you being ok with the reality that we are nothing but strangers now.”
When she said that, I sat on the couch and cried my heart out. I didn't care that Lauren was speaking, because she didn't stop. She took her frustration out on me and I let her but I didn't have the courage to listen to her anymore. I knew I wouldn't be able to take it. People say it gets better with time, they lie. Everything becomes even worse and then the time comes when you can't take it anymore and you just want to die. But even after the hurtful reality she shoved it in my face, I looked at her and my heart skipped a beat, just like it did all those years ago.
“....and on the top of it, you name your daughter after my painting. Do you know how it felt when I saw that kid? Do you know anything?”
“I would have told you about Allison if you were in my life. You didn't even have the decency to call me after you were gone, Lauren. You were like a ghost in my life. I was so worried for you for the past ten years, I didn't know about your whereabouts. You should have fucking called.” I shouted back.
“If I had, it only would have held you back from moving on. And I did help you move on. You're married now.” She said with a frown.
Lauren ironically said. Rolling my eyes, I ran a hand through my hair, “Don't throw this marriage shit on my face again. It's not like you didn't move on either.”
“Yeah, I did. I moved on. Only when your brother, Sunny, met me on a flight to Cape Town one day. When I was coming back to meet you. And he told me that you got married to a lawyer some months back and you were pregnant. I only moved on then, Camila.”
I just stayed quiet. I didn't know what to say. Lauren didn't say anything for a little while too and I was kind of extremely glad that she wasn't talking anymore. I don't know for how long I would be able to take it. With teary eyes, I watched her furious self walking closer to the canvas again, she began mixing the paints and I watched every move she made as the tears fell from my eyes. I didn't make any attempt to wipe them off.
Why did I let her go?
Was she really coming back for me? Did my brother really meet her on a flight? Sudden regret took over and I realized that I should have waited for her. Fuck.
Without meeting my eyes, Lauren came up to me and adjusted the cushions around the settee. I watched her every move and she was trying to do a very nice job in not looking up at me. “Lauren?”
“Are you comfortable? I need you to lay down–”
“Lauren?” I asked, this time sternly and she quickly stopped.
“Yes.” She breathed out and I crossed my fingers because I was about to ask her the thing which would either ruin everything between me and her or make it better.
“Kiss me,”
Immediately her eyes stopped onto mine. Eyes which were grey with lust looked at me with confusion but I repeated just in case she didn't hear it for the first time. I wasn't going to let her go, I was too frustrated with everything. The two of us were here in this huge house, alone. I wanted to at least kiss her.
“Kiss me, Lauren. I know you want to and I know that I do too. So let's not fool ourselves and pretend that we are doing a very great job in keeping ourselves sane.”
“Cam–”
She only managed to say that before I pressed my lips onto hers. I was on cloud nine. I was finally home. Lauren kissed me back instantly, didn't even give me a chance to adjust on my place before she opened her mouth and traced her tongue on my lower lip eagerly. I instantly gave her the passage to explore my mouth with her tongue. I was living again. I never thought I would feel so alive just by kissing her. I was so in love with her. Lauren, while kissing the hell out of me, opened the knots of my robe and slid it down my shoulders. The two us broke the kiss and Lauren met my eyes in a lustful gaze before the two of us kissed each other once again. I sucked on her bottom lip. One of the things I always loved to do to her and pressed her body close to my naked self.
Her hands were on my body, tracing and squeezing the parts which craved her touch. Soon, without breaking the kiss, Lauren lifted me up the ground and I instantly wrapped my legs around her waist. We didn't stop kissing but I knew that she was moving me towards somewhere. Soon, the door opened and Lauren put me down on the bed and I realized that we were in the same guest bedroom where I was changing not so long ago. Lauren pulled away and looked at my naked body, I tried to cover it up with the pillows as much as I could but Lauren threw them away.
“Let me see you.”
And she did. Even though I was naked, I was feeling extremely insecure by the way she was looking at me. Her gaze dropped down on my shoulders, my breasts, my stomach and then finally on the place where I needed her the most. I wanted her. She dropped herself on top of me and began kissing my lips once again. I was not complaining but she was really rough. Her hands firmly pressed my breasts and I couldn't stop the moans leaving my mouth.
“I want you to tell me a story with your body.” I whispered in her ear and she shivered when my lips touched her neck.
“Only if you let me paint yours with my lips.”
And that was when I knew it, I belonged to her. She owned me. I was hers. I was going to do anything she wanted me to do. I was Lauren's. She pulled away from me and moved towards the door and locked it behind her.
My eyes widened at Lauren, knowing exactly what she was thinking. The pit of my stomach began to ache, along with my core. I wanted–no, I needed to be touched by her. I bit down on my lip in anticipation. “Are you sure that’s a good idea? I mean, doing it… here?” I nervously asked Lauren, wanting to be responsible for at least one second.
Lauren licked her lips, already beginning to eat me with her eyes. “We’ll be fine, Camz.” she whispered while walking over to me. She gently pushed down on my shoulders, making my back hit the bed and Lauren climbed over me. “Fuck, I missed this, you look so hot-” Lauren breathed out before my lips latched onto hers.
Our lips moved in sync once again as our tongues slid past one another. The kiss was familiar, but as always it was addictive and comforting. Grabbing my hand, Lauren guided it to her breasts. “Touch me,” she begged.
I happily obliged, wanting to make the girl feel amazing. “Anything for you,” I moaned against her lips.
My body was on fire. I could feel myself grow wetter and wetter by the second. Lauren pushed her hips up into mine, letting out a soft whimper that only pushed me over the edge.
“Fucking shit, take my clothes off baby,” she commanded, already starting to yank off her pants.
I giggled softy, pulled her shirt off at once, not wanting to waste any time. A gasp passed my swollen lips when Lauren’s tongue sucked my right nipple in her mouth. I let my hands tangle themselves in the older girl's messy hair, yanking it gently. She slowly pushed down my untied robe without taking it completely off and exposed my fully erected nipples to her. Lauren’s groans against my nipple sent vibrations down to my soaking core. She pulled back and smirked down at me.
“How much do you want to be fucked?” she asked, letting her finger tease my sensitive skin.
I let out another whimper, wanting to be touched in all the right places. I lifted my hips up, trying to get friction but nothing was there but air. “I want you to fuck me so bad Lauren Michelle, please baby, fuck me."
"Jesus, you’re so fucking hot when you beg, I almost forgot.” Lauren winked, plunging her hand down to my bottom, pushing past the robe to get to my hot core. She teased my clit while sticking two fingers into my core, pumping them in and out before I had time to adjust.
“Shit,” I moaned, ecstasy running through my bloodstream. I nuzzled my way into Lauren’s neck, letting my moans become muffled while kissing her. Needing to stay quiet, I took the liberty of giving Lauren multiple dark hickies.
“I-god, I am gonna come, baby.” I moaned out loud as Lauren's pace increased inside my wet center.
“Yes baby, come for me. Show me that you missed me and Austin can't do it better. Show me. Come for me Karla.”
Oh, god.
Hearing that instantly threw me off the cliff and I reached the best orgasm of my life. I was breathless, Lauren was still rubbing my clit with her fingers as she moved up to kiss me.
Pulling her hand back from my vagina, she brought her fingers to her mouth, licking off my juices. “Mmmm… I wanna see how good you taste baby,” she winked at me. “Delicious, as always.”
Climbing off me, Lauren quickly pulled my grey silk robe completely off, switching our position that our centers were now aligned with each other’s mouth.
“I hope you know what 69 is. Fuck me good Camz,” Lauren whimpered, letting her tongue flick my clit before sucking it.
I did just the same, making sure to do long, soft tongue strokes on her slit, just like I knew Lauren loved it.
We both muffled our mouths in each other’s cores, not wanting to stop. My hips started to buckle and I saw Lauren smirking while eating me out, she knew I was so close in reaching my second orgasm.
“Lau- I’m so fucking close… don’t stop-” I quietly moaned.
Lauren inserted her fingers and began pumping fast. Her hand moved perfectly along with her tongue which was fucking me amazingly. I couldn't take it anymore.
“Fuuuuc- Lauren! What the hell!” I yelled.
Lauren had pulled her hand away right when I was about to cum. I wanted to complain but I was in no state to. Removing herself from the my face, she giggled at me. “Not yet baby,” she cooed. I sighed, but I didn’t complain since I knew she would eventually get to finish.
Lauren stood up, and repositioned her legs around me, now making our dripping wet cores aligned. I smirked, now realizing what my lover was trying to do. My hand groped Lauren’s boobs, and Lauren did the same to mine. Our hips started to grind against one another, and pleasure surged through our bodies.
“Oh, please. Faster,” I panted. The sound of friction was maddening me.
Our grinds became harder, rougher, and faster. Our breathing was fast along with our hips. Lauren’s eyes rolled into the back of her head while I got even more turned on from watching her pleasure grow.
“I’m so fucking close Camz,” Lauren whispered, struggling to catch her breath. I moaned her name in response, picking up my speed, feeling the pit of my stomach begin to burn in delight.
“Fuck- fucking hell,” I yelled, my high reaching it’s peak. My screams helped Lauren reach hers. Our cum mixed together as our hips buckled against each other, letting our bodies slowly relax from our amazing sex.
“Well shit,” Lauren laughed, kissing every inch of my face. Teasingly, she pressed her core into me again, getting a whimper mixed with a moan as a response from me. Lauren knew I was sensitive and liked to be poked a little during sexual fun.
“I missed you baby, you were amazing.” Lauren whispered, comforting me while wrapping her arms around me.
Smiling, I nuzzled my face against Lauren’s, letting me bask in pleasure and love. “I missed you too, Lauren. You should probably paint me now, I don’t know how long it’s been since that argument.”
Suddenly I remembered everything. How Lauren confronted me about our past and how we both ended up kissing and now, laying naked in bed. I knew it didn't mean anything to her since her ways of showing affection wasn't sex, but I would be lying if I said that it wasn't the greatest fucking sex of my life.
“We’ll be fine, Camz. Let’s just lay here for awhile, I am not yet done with you. I still have to paint your body with my lips.” Lauren happily sighed.
I closed my eyes as soon as Lauren got up from me and trailed kisses down on my jaw. She didn't stop. Giving a slight peck on my lips, she leaned down to kiss my neck. She made sure to kiss every inch of it. Moving down, she bit the top of my chest and kissed down on my breast once again, giving tiny licks on each of my nipples as she moved down, “Don't move. Stay there.” I grabbed Lauren's head and brought it back to my breast and she immediately took my nipple in her mouth before massaging the other.
“Lauren... don't stop.” I moaned out loud, not even embarrassed to hide how desperate I was.
Lauren gave the same attention to my other nipple before she finally leaned down to kiss my stomach. Kissing every inch of my body, she finally reached my core and kissed my clit before kissing my inner thighs and moving on. I was going crazy. I knew she was showing affection to me. She kissed my legs and my feet before finally moving back up while kissing every part of my body once again.
“I love worshipping your body, Camila. It's like a temple.” she said as she reached my neck and left multiple hickies. I didn't care about them, I cared about her and how amazing she was making me feel.
“Does Austin worship your body like this? If not then I'm coming to beat hi–”
I cut her off by kissing her passionately once again, “Shh, kiss me. Just keep on kissing me and don't stop. I am deprived of your kisses. Of you.” I mumbled against her lips and she kissed me back with a smile on her lips. Our tongues met again and I sucked hard on the muscle as she grinded her body on top of me, making me want her even more.
Lauren pulled away and once again looked at my body with such affection that for a second I thought that she was in love with me again. God, how I wanted that wish to be true. I wanted Lauren to fall in love with me again. When her stares became extremely intense once again, I quickly covered my body with the pillows once more but Lauren was once again quick to throw it away from me.
“Don't look at yourself with disgust. You are a gift to this earth you are beautiful, you are the light and essence, you're nature, herself. And you are very beautiful to me, Camila. No one is as beautiful to me than you are. Just, don't hide your body from me.”
A tear skipped my eyes and I didn't wipe it away. Lauren laid down next to me and got the both of us under the blankets. Snuggling closer to me, she lifted herself on one elbow before leaning down to kiss me on the lips again. It was a chaste peck but it meant the absolute world to me. Our naked bodies were pressed against each other as her lips were right over my ear. She played with my hair affectionately. And that was when I knew, she had feelings for me too. She only played with hair when she loves someone. I only saw her playing with Allison's, Diego's and Allison Marie's painted hair and finally, finally now mine.
“If I could ask God one thing, I would ask Him to stop this night right here for the rest if the lifetime.” she whispered in my ear as my whole body shivered.
I quickly took her hand in mine and placed a kiss at the back of it. “Me too, Lauren. Me too.” I felt the older girl smiling against my skin.
I never felt so happy in my entire life. I loved her. And I wanted to let her know that I was in love with her. Always have and always will but I was so scared of pushing her away. I didn't want her to know that I was ruining her relationship with Reyna even though we both ruined alot of things. I broke my promise to Austin, I cheated on him and Lauren broke Reyna's trust.
“Do you want to stay like this for a little bit? Only till our post-orgasmic state gets over? I'll began painting as soon as we gain our composures back.”
She said while closing her eyes and letting her arm tighten around me. I mumbled an okay and kissed the beautiful girl’s soft lips once again, before closing my eyes for a short while and enjoyed the best night of my life with the girl I was madly in love with.
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A/N: Nothing made me more uncomfortable than asking my friend who is 6 years older to write a sexual content for me. But knowing how dirty her mind was when I re-read that all made me even more uncomfortable. Wtf is wrong with me.