When the school bell rang, I sigh and put my phone in my pocket. I think I sigh too much. I like to think it's because I don't care. I'm just going to stop and pick up Taco Bell. Then I'm going to go home and cry over Nicholas Sparks movies until it's time for bed. Then I'll get up and repeat until I'm dead. This is going to be my life for the next ten years before I cave in and off myself.
"Hey, Sky. What are you doing?" Alex walks up behind me. I stop abruptly and turn towards Alex. "What do you want?"
"Can I talk to you?"
"Go away," I turn and walk towards my car.
"Sky," he whines. " I just wanted to talk to you."
"No."
"Please."
"I said no,"
"I'll follow you home if you don't"
"Stalker, that's weird."
"Not stalking. Desperate is the right word."
"Still weird."
"I want you," he sighs. I set my backpacks down on my hood. "What?"
"I choose you. I want to be with you." I shake my head and unlock my car door. "Geez, really? You choose me? Little old me? How did I ever got so lucky to have Alex Follese choose me! Oh my god!" I put my backpack in the back seat.
"I'm not a fucking second choice, Alex."
"I didn't say you were. I said I choos-"
"I don't care." I get into the driver's seat and put my seat belt on. Alex knocks on the window. "Sky, are you seriously mad that I picked you?"
"I know you picked her first. It wouldn't surprise me if she dumped you and that's why you're here." I turn the engine on and put the car in drive.
**
Me: he chooses me
Dan: huh?
Dan: are you sleep texting again?
Me: Alex
Me: he came up to me on the way to the parking lot
Me: and was like "I choose you"
Dan: AW HE LISTENED TO ME
Me: YOU TALKED TO ALEX
Me: I THOUGHT YOU HATED HIM
Dan: he apologized
Dan: I almost got him to admit he likes me more than you
Me: you're straight too
Dan: I know bit I have fun messing with him
Me: gross
Dan: let me guess. You rejected him
Me: I did not –reject- him
Dan: if he said he chose you and you said no
Dan: that's rejecting
"Seriously, Sky!" My mom yells. "You have somebody here for you!" I hear the footsteps up the stairs and I know she's coming to yell at me for not answering her within one second.
My mom opens the bedroom door. "When did you start making friends other than Dan?"
"Who is it, mom?" She shrugs. "Alex. He told me not to tell you."
"Why did you tell me then?"
"So you could brush your teeth."
"Mom!" I whine. "My breath doesn't smell bad and he's not going to kiss me!"
"Right," she rolls her eyes. "Just go talk to the poor kid."
"Whatever," I huff. "You're ruining my life, mom. Most parents try to keep their daughter away from boys. Now you're trying to get me with a boy!"
"I want grandkids, sweetheart and you're the only child left. The baby bells are ringing."
"Mom!" I gag. "Gross!"
"I'm kidding. You get pregnant and I'll find him, hunt him down and take his manhood away. You get pregnant after you get a college education and a job."
"There's a good parenting, finally."
"Ha, ha. Very funny." My mom walks towards the kitchen and I open the front door.
"My mom spilled the beans. No. I'm not surprised," I say, closing the front door. "You're here because I didn't say yes."
"Sky.."
"No.."
"I didn't say anything!" he stomps his foot. "You're being so unfair right now!"
"And you're acting like a five-year old who didn't get the toy he wanted."
"I didn't even pick Scarlett first! Scarlett told me I had to make a decision and I realize I wanted you. What's wrong with that? You're not a second choice!"
"I mean you kissed me and ran. Like, that literally fucking hurt, Alex. I felt like shit for two days because of it."
"I'm sorry, Sky. I didn't mean to kiss you."
"you didn't want to kiss me?"
"No! not like that! I mean, I wanted to kiss you, but I.." He shakes his head. "I wanted to kiss you, but not at that moment."
"Why not?"
"Because I was.. I am with Scarlett and I wanted to kiss you when it was just you and me. I wanted there to be no drama."
"You're still with Scarlett? Are you serious? You're sitting here begging for me when you still have a girlfriend?"
"Sky, stop," he begs. "I'm trying to fix this."
"By cheating?"
"I'm not cheating. She told me to decide!"
"You should just leave, Alex. Go to your girlfriend."
"Sky.." I walk inside and slam the front door.
"Thanks mom!" I yell. God, I'm just pissed off.
"What happened?" My mom pops her head around the corner.
"Next time Alex shows up just leave it!"
"What happened?" She frowns. "What did he say?"
"It doesn't matter," I huff. "I just hate him."
"You don't hate him."
"I do, though."
"Whatever you say, Skylar."
**
[ALEX]
Scarlett: Hey Alex
Me: hey
Scarlett: are you okay?
Me: yeah
Scarlett: are you sure?
Me: no
Scarlett: What's wrong?
Me: I told Sky that I choose her
Scarlett: that's great
Me: not really
Scarlett: why?
Me: she got mad
Me: she thought she was a second chance
Me: I told her we're still together
Me: which so did not help at all
Me: and before that I said the kiss was a mistake
Me: which just added insult to injury
Me: maybe next time I should go with notecards
Me: and a marriage proposal
Scarlett: you're not very good at this communicating your feelings things
Me: it's kinda how I talk when I'm around Sky
Me: mean this one time I asked if she shopped at skank-mart
Me: that didn't go over well
Me: I ran into her at lunch once and didn't apologize
Me: got totally cocky at the party when I did apologize
Me: dropped several hints and then took them back
Me: yelled at her several times bc of Kyle
Me: followed her on a few dates
Me: also didn't go over very well
Me: I'm vv bad at communicating my feelings with Sky
Me: but she was bad at that things too
Me: so I don't feel so bad tbh
Scarlett: You two just need to forgive and forget
Scarlett: just wipe it clean
Scarlett: kiss and make up
Me: why are you so cool about this
Scarlett: because you love her
Scarlett: and honestly I was kinda tired of you being like "sky this.. Sky that.."
Me: sorry
Me: I talked about her a lot
Me: and when I'm not talking about her, I'm thinking about her
Scarlett: why don't you just tell her that?!
Me: I never thought too
Scarlett: you probably should
**
Unknown number: hi alex, it's sky
Unknown number: I'm fairly sure my number probably isn't in your phone, so..
Unknown number: there's something I need to tell you
Unknown number: well idk what I'm doing tbh
Unknown number: I'm just kinda winging this right now okay
Unknown number: okay so here it goes
Unknown number: I am so, so, so, so, so, so sorry
Unknown number: I am a list of Amanda Bynes problems sorry
Unknown number: I am a list of how much stupid shit Charlie sheen has said sorry
Unknown number: I am the amount of heartbroken Justin bieber fans sorry
Unknown number: I am a list of how many times miley cyrus has done something stupid sorry
Unknown number: I am a total bipolar bitch
Unknown number: like I tell you that I love you and then you finally get shit together I go Amanda bynes on you
Unknown number: idk why I do that I guess its just you never notice me since freshman and I've always you've always been my number one dream crush. Out of a sudden you just said you like me its kinda impossible to believe
Unknown number: when that cute mouth of yours says something really stupid
Unknown number: I was so ready to hug you then you said it was a mistake and you're with Scarlett
Unknown number: congrats Alex
Unknown number: but like idk where I'm going with this
Unknown number: I'm really sorry for being the emotional kanye west to you
Unknown number: my intentions were more towards
Unknown number: I just really like you
Unknown number: but you drive me up the wall
Unknown number: and you don't notice at all
Unknown number: and ugh I just wish you weren't with Scarlett
Unknown number: I wish you could say that you want me and not have somebody waiting for you somewhere else
Unknown number: we're really bad at this communication thing, you know?
Unknown number: and it sucks
Unknown number: I just want to kiss the really fucking cute face of yours and be done
Unknown number: like no drama just lots of kisses and cuddles
Unknown number: and I just want to go back to when you would make those shitty jokes and annoying the fuck out of me in an endearing way
Unknown number: back before everything got weird and awkward
Unknown number: when it didn't matter whether we would be together or not
Unknown number: I just want to be in your life alex
Unknown number: I'm not asking for a relationship anymore
Unknown number: can we at least be friends?
Unknown number: okay
Unknown number: wow this was just a huge waste of nothing
Unknown number: like I had planned this huge apology and all I gave you was a bunch of celebrity references and bad apologies
Unknown number: basically my goals to apologize and make everything better
Unknown number: but right now I just look like a weirdo
Unknown number: sorry for that too
Unknown number: I understand why you ignoring me
Unknown number: I'm going to slide out of this conversation
Unknown number: love you
Unknown number: okay bye
Unknown number: sorry again
Me: Was your father a thief?
Me: 'Cause someone stole the stars from the sky and put them in your eyes