[SKY]
I'm just an awful person. I miss him like crazy and it's been eleven days. I really wanted to text him. I'm so close to having a breakdown and I know I'm not going to last. I am going to text him now. Yes I am. I don't care if I'm going to look like a clingy idiot. It's going to be so embarrassing but I know it'll make me feel better afterward.
I just miss somebody to talk to who will make me smile until I fell asleep.
I'm sure I would like Nate if I wasn't comparing him to somebody else. I suck at this dating thing for real.
I dig my pocket and took out my phone start to search for his number. It took me a few minutes to type and re-typing a text for him. This is stupid I know but I really need to talk to him.
Me: Hey
Me: tbh I really miss you
Me: I'm sorry
Me: honestly this sucks. I feel like I've made a huge mistake for telling you that I needed space. I don't know why I said that. It's complicated because I really like you but I don't know, it's just so weird. I feel like it is impossible to like somebody when you don't know them.
Me: for real, you're so nice and sweet and funny and amazing and you're always there for me
Me: you never let me down
Me: I know I messed up with all of our issues and stuff like argument or anything else
Me: I'm really sorry
Me: I miss you a lot, I miss our friendship and having someone to talk to
Me: please forgive me
Me: answer me please
Me: this is getting clingy now
Me: DAMMIT ANSWERRRR
Me: ugh
Me: sorry
Me: bye
***
[ALEX]
It's been two days and she hasn't respond any of those stupid cheezy texts I sent her. In the end I delete the whole conversation because I can't stand looking at my apology. I look like an idiot knowing that she might be reading it and ignore me. Fuck, I can't believe she's gone. She's really gone. No more Sky Rose. She moved on and I practically let her leave. I should've said something earlier now it's too late.
I guess her absence hurt less lately since Taylor has been hanging around 24/7. Her newest conversation is about college and prom. She's already looking at tuxes for prom and how she wants my bow-tie to match her dress. She always wanted to know what college I was going to and I said I didn't know yet since I left the band. The band. I haven't been around them lately since the scene with Kyle.
Besides, mom wants me to be a psychologist just like her. I'm probably gonna dismiss about Taylor's college request and said that I'd think about it. Honestly, I'm definitely not ready for college talk. I still have a good four months of high school left. That's enough time, I guess. I really need to get a tutor for AP Psych, seriously. If I fail this class my mom will kill me.
Me: hey Dan
Me: do you think Sky would be available to help me with psych?
Me: I'll pay her since she's good at it
Dan: dude, I gave you her number
Dan: why don't you ask her?
Me: she may say no
Or she may know that I'm the one texting her
Me: so I was hoping I could get your help
Dan: we'll see what I can do
***
[SKY]
He didn't respond. Is he really moving on? He's gone now?
Why would you care?
I didn't. But this is so aggravating. I'm embarrassed of myself for confessing everything and he just ignores me?
Who am I kidding? Of course, he'd leave. It's my fault. I told him I needed space and now he's giving me all the space I wanted.
But it's only been eleven days or maybe he didn't really like me or there's another girl. A girl who's pretty, smart, sweet, and million times better than me. Who understands him and makes him happy?
Fuck this shit, I miss him. I miss having someone to talk and makes me laugh. Things have been so boring and quiet since he's gone.
Congrats for pushing him away Sky, you've made a good decision in your life stupid girl.
He doesn't miss me I get it. I don't deserve a millionth chance.
I pull my phone out of my pocket and open my contacts up. I click 'Bae' and tap edit and delete contact.
Is this the end? If he's moving on then so am I. I'm not wasting my time waiting for somebody who's never coming back.
Me: I miss him like crazy
Me: I delete his number
Me: I hate him so much
Me: please listen to me, don't judge
Dan: what?
Me: I deleted his number.. you know.. the texter..
Me: he didn't answer my apology
Me: it makes me feel like pure shit
Me: I think like him so much ya' know
Dan: I have to take a shit
Dan: and you're blocking my asshole
Me: gross
Dan: ;))
**
[ALEX]
It's been three days today and still no respond. I'm sure she's happy right now with that guy Nate or something like that. He seems like a nice guy. He isn't annoying or mean. She doesn't hate him and he probably doesn't mess up like me.
God, I wish she'd just reply and tell me she had her phone service cut off and that I was being overly dramatic about this whole situation. Because right now I'm thinking the worst.
Tay: hey babe
Tay: hang out today?
Me: I have psych test I need to study
Me: maybe tomorrow?
Tay: tomorrow's Wednesday
Me: and?
Tay: I thought you'd be practicing
Me: I quit the band, I guess
Tay: Ok Wednesday. Promise?
Me: yeah
Tay: did you talk to that Sky girl again?
Tay: I checked your phone four days ago
Tay: I thought you blocked her?
Me: yeah
Tay: Really? Why'd she's still there?
Tay: btw I blocked her for you
She's not being serious, right? Is that why SKy not responding? She doesn't know I sent her the text.
What if she's been trying to text me this whole damn time? I'm so annoyed. Livid.
Me: thanks babe
Tay: really?
Me: yeah
Me: and if you want to help me even more
Me: you can jump off a cliff
Me: love you so much babe
Me: please don't talk to me again, that'll be the second biggest help
Tay: you'll be crawling back Alex
Tay: as soon as that loser know you're a shitty boyfriend
Tay: or you'll realize what a loser she is
Tay: you're gonna regret it and miss me
Me: nahh
Me: I'd rather be slowly burned
Me: you'll never be more than a side hoe
Me: love you
Me: typo's oops
Me: I hate you
When I search for Sky's name in my contact I didn't see it.
I think I deleted it when I got mad yesterday. I'm screwed for heaven's sake.
Me: hey
Me: um can I have Hayley's number?
Dan: BRUHH
Dan: SHE'S MINE
Dan: or you would like to sacrifice yourself
Me: DO I LOOK LIKE I WANT HER WHEN I'M DESPERATELY TRYING TO WIN SKY
Me: I just need her help
Dan: chill out bruhh that was a jk
Dan text me Hayley's number and I send her a message.
Me: hey
Me: it's Alex
Me: I need you to do me a favour
Me: could you give me Sky's number?
Hayley: why?
Hayley: you LIKE HER?
Hayley: can you sense the jealousy in me? Lol jk
Me: I just need help for psych
Hayley: ok hold on
When I received Sky's number I take a deep breath and put her number back in my contact list.
I'm a loss of words and I don't even know what to say. Deep breaths, Alex, smooth.
Me: how am I supposed to start? I know this could be the million times, but I'm so sorry Sky.
Me: I accidentally deleted your number and I couldn't find it anywhere and I had to ask somebody for it.
Me: I've sent these message three days ago apologizing and stuff but they didn't go through for some reason
Taylor actually blocked you.
Me: I'm really, really sorry for everything Sky. I might suck at making you feel better when you're down
Me: but I'm never going to give up. You can push me away 100 times but I'll come back 1000 times because I love you so much
Me: having these days without you have been so dull and boring. I miss talking to you. You make me happy
Me: please forgive me Sky
Me: If only you know that I can't move on
Me: you mean the world to me.. I know this sound so dead cheezy as fuck
Me: but I am ridiculously in love with you Skylar Rose Thomson
**
[SKY]
I want to scream, I want to jump, and I want to cry. He misses me. He loves me. Finally, he texted me. But do I feel better? It's been eleven days I've been waiting. But I don't know what to say now. I deleted his number, I felt like that was my last attempt. But here he is and he misses me and I'm just at a loss of words.
Me: I'm sorry too
Me: and I missed you so much
Me: tbh I don't think I'm ready back for this
Me: it's stressing me out
Me: I thought you'd be gone forever
Me: since I thought you ignored my apology
Unknown number: I never got your message!
Unknown number: please Sky
I didn't reply to his text because I'm at the store. I need junk food for my long night of Netflix and tears.
I walk down the first aisle scanning for anything good to eat.
I grab a Pepsi off the shelf and place it in the basket and other junk food.
God, I am so hungry I could brought all the junk food in this store if I could.
"Sky?" I frown and turn my head to the right.
I recognize that voice.
I hate that voice.