Save your advice cause I won't hear..you might be right but I don't care..
Rebecca's POV
I stared down at the source of truth that opened my eyes and let me see what was going on behind my back. Tears burned the back of my eyes as pain crashed me down but I didn't give in. I held back the pain, the tears, the screams, the guilt, the feelings. Everything. I didn't let anything break me down.
Because this time, there was no love that could cause the pain.
Harry's POV
I made my way back to the suite, running a hand through my dump hair. The hallways were crowded enough, so my ears were buzzing with murmurs, heartbeats and thoughts. The ironic thing was that none of them knew I could hear every thought that rushed into their head. They probably didn't even pay attention to me, since I'm a stranger, but the truth is, I can know everything about every single one of them.
It has been almost 45 minutes since I left the suite and I feel calmer than before. I slid the card that was the key to the suite into the lock and opened the door. I stepped inside and saw Rebecca sitting on the bed, her back facing me, her head lowered. I closed the door behind me and took my shoes off before speaking.
"Hey babe, slept well?" I asked as I pulled the tee over my head. "You should've come with me, the pool wasn't that crowded, you could've chilled along." I said and threw the tee on the bed right behind her.
She didn't say anything.
I furrowed my brows and stared at her back. "Babe, are you okay?" I asked, resting my hands on my hips.
No reply.
My stomach tightened and I took a few steps forward. "Rebecca, is everything okay?" I asked, keeping my voice low.
She stood up and turned around to face me. My heart skipped beats when I saw her cold, bloodshot eyes staring back at me with anger, her flushed cheeks and her lips pressed in a tight line.
"What happened?" I asked worried. I didn't like that she was like that.
"This happened." she hissed, raising her hand and then's when I saw what she was holding.
My phone.
Holy. Shit.
My eyes widened in shock and heat rose to my chest as I felt worry, fear and anger rush through my veins. She looked into my phone? Why would she do that?
"What the hell are you doing? You looked into my phone?" I raised my voice, feeling betrayed and angry.
"Don't waste your time giving me the blame again, because I won't buy it." She snapped, making me feel kinda shocked. She looked so angry, it was kind of new. Yes, she's been angry before, but this time she looks different.
"What did you see?" I asked, glancing down at the phone. Let it not be the texts...let it not be the texts..
"You had a text, from Lea, she's waiting for you tonight." she spat and threw the phone towards me. I quickly caught it and gave her a bewildered look, my heart racing. "She said you should make sure I'm asleep otherwise you won't be able to go there and fuck her." She scowled at me.
My heart pounded louder and I quickly read the text. Oh fuck. I blinked and felt my entire face flushing as I felt embarassed. "Rebecca it's not what you think." I shook my head.
"It's exactly what I think it is." she growled, glaring at me.
"No, it's not. I'm not cheating on you." I stated, trying to calm myself and her down.
"Stop." she raised her hand. She was surprisingly calm and it worried me. "Stop lying to me, Harry. Just stop trying to cover it up with lies because it won't make anything better." she sounded so strong, it was strange.
"Rebecca let me explain." I begged, taking a few steps towards her.
"I don't want you to explain. That text told me everything. Everything you've been hiding from me all this time. That's why you were ignoring me. It all makes sense." she hissed.
"No, no, no, it's not like that!" I claimed, raising my voice.
She stared up at me with coldness in her eyes. I couldn't read through her. I couldn't see any kind of emotion. She was so...distant. She was so different, it worried me. She would be crying right now, but she isn't. She would be screaming at me right now, but she isn't. She would be throwing things everywhere, but she isn't. I know how my Rebecca would react, but this is not my Rebecca.
"Rebecca I swear, I didn't cheat on you, you have to believe me!" I begged, my eyes flitting back and forth into hers, begging for her to give me a chance to explain. I can't let her believe that I cheated on her. No, I just can't. Told you you were going to get caught!
"It's over Harry." she shocked me by saying, her voice low. "It's all over." she shook her head gently, making my heart break as the pain wrecked every inch of it down.
"What do you mean?" I asked worried, my voice shakey, my eyes wide. "A-are you breaking up on me?"
A few seconds passed and she didn't reply, making my heart shake with anxiety. Please don't do this, Rebecca. Please don't leave me..
She suddenly nodded, making my heart fall down to my stomach. "Yes."
Rebecca's POV
His eyes started watering as guilt and pain flashed behind his eyes. Weird, that sight should've made me want to cry and comfort him, but it doesn't. I don't feel the need to hug him and tell him everything is going to be okay. I just stared at him, drowning in his own guilt and regrets, in his own lies and mistakes.
"No, no, no, Rebecca, you can't do this to me..You can't leave me like this.." tears rolled down his cheeks and his lower lip was trembling.
Something pinched my heart but I didn't feel pain. The sight was surely sad, but it didn't make me feel bad. I didn't feel anything to be honest. I was numb. As if I had drank countless bottles of vodka and the alcohol had numbed the pain. As if I didn't have a soul. As if I never felt in love with this man.
"Please, please, please let me explain," he begged with more tears running down his cheeks as he placed his hands on my shoulders. His touch didn't even make my skin tingle as it always did. It felt cold.
"No, Harry." I muttered. There was nothing he could explain. I knew. I knew what he did. That's what those nightmares meant. They were telling me the truth. The demon was right that he would hurt me again. Louis, Zayn and all my friends were right about me wasting my time on this man.
I should have never followed my heart because I only got her broken. Multiple times. And I never learned. But now? Now I know. I know that this man didn't deserve my love or a single second of my time, because he simply didn't awknowledge it or show that he was glad about it.
"I didn't cheat on you! I didn't! You know I love you, more than anything! You know that I can't live without you! Why would I ever do that to you?!" he raised his voice, desperate to make me believe him.
"Maybe you never loved me. You said you don't love anyone. Maybe what you felt wasn't love. Maybe it was pity for me. Maybe you were just making fun of me and playing with me." the words felt odd as they escaped my lips.
"No! You know me better than anyone! You know I would never do that to you!" he said, green eyes showing pain.
"I don't know you, Harry." I let a light laugh that didn't even come from the heart. "I don't really know you at all. You were a good player, and I lost the game." I said, shrugging. My bones felt heavier in my empty body and for a moment I just wanted to crawl.
"I wasn't playing any fucking game!" he exclaimed. "My love for you was never a lie or a joke! You know that I truly love you! Please don't deny it!" his voice cracked at the end.
Wow..he looked so broken..Was I like this when I begged him to stay with me or when he hurt me every time?
I stared at him without saying a word. I didn't know if he loves me. I didn't know what to think. Every moment we shared seemed a lie to me. I couldn't just forgive him again. Nothing inside of me told me that he's innocent and that he deserves another chance.
"Do you love me, Rebecca?" he sobbed, emerald green eyes burning with tears.
I couldn't reply. I couldn't take the words out of my mouth. I wasn't ready. My heart ached, screaming at me to say yes.
"Rebecca, do you love me?" he repeated. He was so desperate, you could see it in his teary eyes, hesr it in his shakey voice, feel it in his sad aura that surrounded him.
"Answer me!" he yelled, more tears staining his shirt.
"No, I don't." I finally said, my voice coming out as a whisper.
His eyes widened and he suddenly kneeled down in front of me, placing his hands on my hips and leaning his head against my stomach. "No...I'm sorry...I'm sorry, Rebecca..Please don't say that...please..I know you love me..I know you do.." he sobbed and my own eyes started watering.
No more tears for this man, Rebecca. He's not worth it.
I swallowed down my tears and ran my hands through his curly hair. "Don't try anymore, Harry...it's pointless.." I murmured.
"But I love you..I can't let you go.." he cried, his tears staining my sweats.
"You gave me more than one reasons to leave, Harry.."
"Don't leave me..Please..I'm on my knees, Rebecca, please I'm nothing without you!" he cried even harder.
I gently tried to push him away but he wouldn't let go. "Harry, let go of me." I said quietly.
He didn't. He held me even tighter. "No. I don't want you to go. I don't want to let you go." he said through clenched teeth.
"Stop, Harry. There's nothing you can do to keep me here. It's over. We're over." I said and he finally let go. He looked up at me with puffy, red eyes and flushed cheeks.
"I'm sorry.." he whispered and sniffled.
I didn't say anything as I walked past him and opened the closet. I took out my suitcase and started packing my stuff. I knew I should never come here. I knew all this thing with the plan was pointless.
Harry still stood on his knees, his back facing me as he stared down at the floor. It was odd, finally leaving him. I thought we would stick together no matter what. But I was wrong.
"Why won't you let me explain?" he growled.
"It won't fix things." I mumbled as I folded my last tee.
"You say that because you don't know." he said and stood up before turning to look at me.
"I don't want to know." I said sharply, growing impatient. Every word he said was pointless to me. Nothing mattered anymore.
"I love you, Rebecca. I would give my life for you. I would make the world better if I could for you." he said, making my heart flutter but end up down to my stomach in pieces.
"Stop." I said coldly as I zipped my suitcase. "These words don't mean anything. Don't make this any difficult than it already is." I muttered.
"So that's it? You give up on us? Without listening to what I have to say?" he asked, his eyes bloodshot.
"There's nothing else left for me to fight for. I'm leaving." I said and pulled the suitcase off of the bed before placing it down on the floor. "I wish you succeed on your plans. Isn't this what you wanted? From the start? To take revenge? Well, here's your chance. You're now on your own." I said, moving my hand.
"But I want you." he walked towards me.
"Don't." I shook my head, giving him a tired look. He came to a halt and gave me a hurt look. "It's all over. I wish you will find happiness." I said and reached for the door handle.
"If you leave then I'm going to take the cure and kill myself!"
His words caught me off guard. I froze in my spot before turning to look at him. He would kill himself?
"Without you there's no me, right? Why would I even stay alive if you're not with me?" he said, tears appearing in his eyes again.
I shook my head. "You wouldn't do it."
"Wanna bet?"
I gave him a serious look. "I know you wouldn't."
"Oh yeah? Why not?" he sniffled.
"Because this is the last thing I want from you. To move on with your life. And if you love me like you said, you would do that, for me." and those are the last words I said before I stepped out and closed the door behind me.
...
I got on the plane and sat down on my seat. I crossed my arms over my chest and looked outside the window. I didn't belong here. I belonged back to San Diego, back with my friends. Eight months changed my life and it feels like a lifetime ago. Eight months of trying for nothing. Eight months of believing in something that never existed. Eight months of fighting for a lie.
I dialed Niall's number and brought the phone to my ear. I waited patiently for him to answer. The plane wasn't full yet, so I knew we wouldn't be in the air any time soon, so I had time to call my best friend.
"Hello?" he answered, his voice overwhelming me.
"Niall.." my voice came out weak.
"Hey, Rebecca, I wanted to talk to you but you left. I'm sorry for being a jerk to you. I'm really sorry for ignoring you and-," he stopped when he heard the sobs that escaped my lips. "Are you crying?"
I blinked away the tears and a small grimace pulled over my lips. "Niall I..I broke up with Harry.." I mumbled.
"Really?" he sounded shocked. "Why?"
I shook my head. "It doesn't matter anymore, you know? He betrayed me..I can't do this anymore.." I murmured.
"He did what?" he sounded angry. "Wait, where are you now?"
"On the plane, I'm coming back to San Diego."
He sighed. "I'm coming to pick you up from the airport. What time are you arriving?"
"Around ten."
"I'll be there, don't worry, Becca. Everything's going to be okay."
I needed this. I needed someone to tell me those words. Everything's going to be okay. I remember only myself saying that to others and never others saying that to me.
"Thank you Niall..I knew I could count on you." I sighed and leaned back on the seat.
"I'm sorry again. I'm such a jerk.."
"It's fine, Niall. I'm not mad at you." I assured.
"Do you want me to come over tonight? Just to be there and comfort you? Or do you want me to tell Hannah to come?"
"No, no, Louis will be home, I'll be fine, don't worry. It doesn't hurt that much." I said.
"Okay. But if you need anything, tell me."
"Of course. Thank you." tears formed into my eyes. "I love you."
"I love you, too, Becca." he said before ending the call.
At least I knew that this person deserved my love. This person meant his words. This person is someone I can trust.
And not someone that would betray me and lie to me like Harry did.
...
I held tightly onto Niall, my eyes wanting to spill a few tears but I don't let them as he held me back. His scent is amazing and his embrace is comforting.
I pulled back and turned to Hannah, who gave me a sad smile before hugging me tightly. I wrapped my arms around her and tried not to leave any sob to come out of my mouth. Friends were all I needed at that moment. Nothing else.
"Come on, let's get you home." she urged softly and I nodded.
I jumped into Niall's car at the back seat. Hannah joined me in the back as Niall drove, heading to my house. The place where Harry and I shared so many memories. How am I going to move on if every angle in that house brings a memory of us back? This is going to be difficult.
"Do you want me to stay at yours tonight? Or do you want to come over mine?" Hannah asked quietly, placing a hand on my shoulder.
"No, I'll go to my place and immidiately sleep. I'm tired." I said kindly.
She nodded. "As you wish."
I thanked the guys when they dropped me at my house and I walked to the front door. I unlocked the door and stepped inside before locking it behind me. The house felt empty, dark, but it didn't hurt as much as I expected it to. It was weird. I thought breaking up with Harry would rip me to pieces, but it didn't. I was okay. Okay doesn't have to be good, but it was better than not being okay.
"Rebecca," his soft voice called my name and I turned my head to see him standing in the doorway, blue eyes sad.
He opened his arms and I ran to him before hugging him tightly. He wrapped his arms around my waist and I felt a wave of relief wash through me. It's strange. We're both angels, but why am I only getting hurt? Why do I only feel pain and not him?
"I told you...I told you he's going to hurt you.." he murmured, fondling my hair. "Damn Rebecca, you should have stayed away from him.."
"I loved him.." I whispered, hiding my face in his neck.
"You don't anymore?"
"No.."
"You lost your light." he held me even tighter.
I furrowed my brows. "That's what you meant? My light was my love for Harry?"
"Yes.." he sighed, rubbing my back comfortingly.
That was it. I lost my light and I'm an angel, something that looked impossible, but it's real. So not loving Harry anymore can be possible.
And as much as it hurts admitting it, it is.
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A/N: Nothing's over yet, this relationship has a lot of ups and downs, this story is coming to an end but this is NOT IT! Vote and comment your thoughts, do you think Harry has a good explanation? Do you think he is going to move on? What is going to happen with Rebecca?? Let me know what you think!
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