I woke up with no warm feeling. Instead I woke up to an empty bed side. I sat up and I saw the patio door open and light breeze coming through it. I looked around for something but nothing. All the memories of last night flooded into my head. I blushed. It then struck me. I couldn't move. I winced quietly. But oddly I felt immune to the atmosphere. I looked down and I definately was covered in love bites. Well everyone should know now. I got up and wrapped the sheets around my naked body and looked around the room for my clothes. I didn't find any of them. What the? I saw his closet and walked over to it. I seen one of his button up shirts and I instantly like it. I don't know why but I did. I picked it up. I hope he doesn't mind. I slipped into it and it was like a dress on me. I sniffed it and it smelled just him. I put the sheet on the bed and I turned to walk out but I heard strumming. I smiled and followed it.
I walked around trying to find where it was. I walked towards the patio and looked out. There he was sitting on a chair strumming a guitar with really bad bed hair. I smiled. He stopped and put it down. I seen him staring off. He looked at the cars at the intersection. I noticed how he had a glass of water next to him. Hm? Must be the feelings again. "Hey.."I greeted him. He looked up and smiled. His smile caused me to smile. He motioned me over. I walked over to him. "Why you up so early?" I asked him. "Why are you in my favorite shirt?" He asked. I blushed. "I kinda can't wear a bed sheet can I?" I asked him. He nodded then looked back at the street. He took a hold of waist as if telling me to sit. I sat on his lap. "Your quite refreshed."He whispered.
"Because I know I'm in good hands."I say. He looked at me. He was so mysterious to me. "Talk to me." I say rubbing his cheek lightly. "Sometimes...There's one part of me that says one thing and there's a part of me that doesn't agree with it." He said stopping me from touching his cheek. I looked at him and waited for him. "Listen.You know I'm here. Talk to me." I say fixing his hair. "Can I just cuddle with you? You wouldn't understand."He said. Is he kidding? I'm know for a fact what its like. "I actually do. Just tell me."I say. "After all we've been together for sometime. You are everything and anything that I can ever ask for. But your unhappy.I csn't make you happy."He said slowly getting me off his lap. "What are you talking about? You do make me happy. Did you take your meds?"I asked him looking around a bit. He just looked at me then got up. "Baby...Look at me."I say. "No thanks."He said walking back inside his room. I sighed and followed in.
He was lying down in his bed. I got in and slowly crawled up to him. "If your gonna ask,I don't wanna talk about it."He said. "And I respect that."I say. He slowly turned towards me. "Anything you please,I'll do it."I say. He wrapped his arms around me."My shirt."He growled. I giggled. I wasn't gonna drop the conversation but I don't want to upset him either. We laid in his bed, cuddling and talking about random stuff. I wonder if he was feeling the same way as I was. I still am. By any chance does he feel that I'm not it? No. that couldn't be it. Why does he think I'm unhappy with him? Last night was amazing and I couldn't have asked for a better night. But what bugs me is what he's saying. I know he loves me and I love him too but where did allhe said earlier come from? I know for a fact that my Ross would never say something like that. I mean he's Ross.Is he talking to someone?
"Then I kinda just fell for you.It's like I got to the point I wanted you but couldn't have you. Then our kiss kinda happened and that's when I knew I wanted to be with you."He said rubbing my head. I chuckled. "Then why did you throw me under the bush?"I asked. "Its not like I wanted to. Most of the time I was intoxicated with alcohol."He said. "Excuse me?"I asked. "Yeah. I was drunk and I guess the girls just took advantage of that. I mean looking at the list, if I was sobber, I wouldn't have even been present in the same room as those girls."He said. "Well you need to control your hormones."I say. "They are under control."He said. "Oh really?Next bitch you see that shows you any part of herself, you'll follow her home."I say. "Excuse me?"He asked. I just called him a whore but nicely. But then again I just took....Nevermind. I suddenly couldn't breathe. His grip tightening my the second. "Your...crushing me..."I groaned.
I looked to my side and saw he was fast asleep. I tried to move and his grip tightened once again. "No." He said rolling over. "Ross..."I said. "Your disrupting my sleep. Shut up."He said. I chuckled and played with his neck. "No." He said turning me away from him. "I'm not leaving you alone until you talk to me."I say. He rolled me over and got on top of me. "If you even think for a second even for a second.....I'm gonna--" I cut him off. "Your gonna what?" I smirk. He held back. "Give me your best shot."I say. He looked at me but his eyes were warmer. He rolled back next to me. "I'm sleeping."He said cuddling me. I rubbed his arm. "I'm sleeping." He repeated. I chuckled and kissed his cheek. I slowly started to doze off also. But he had me thinking. What was he talking about earlier? Is there something I should know?
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