Him

Chapter 94

I stared at him. The more time I wasted not saying anything, the angrier he got. I couldn't move and I just laid there shaking. I wasn't gonna fight him. I'm done fighting him.He won't hurt me right? He wouldn't right? He loves me? If he loved me, he wouldn't .You wouldn't hurt your loved ones now would you?He pulled me up and off my bed. Right against him. "Listen. And listen carefully..."He growled against my face. I looked away as his arms wrapped around me tightly. "Leave. Leave me alone..."I mumbled quietly. He laughed. As he laughed, I noticed he didn't take the tablets at all. It's worsening and he wants to stop now!?

"Look at me!" He shouted making me jump. I can't look at him.Even if I tried ,I wouldn't be able to. Not when he's like this. He started to breathe harder and forced me to look at him. I started to tear up. He wiped off the tears leaving my face."You don't trust me anymore?" He asked cupping my face. I shook my head. I wasn't ready for this. Not yet. 'Don't do it Laura!' My conscience yelled at me. 'Let me take the blame.' My heart cried. I can't stand anymore of this. It was coming to an end. I knew it as well as he knew it.

"Come to me."He said. I refuse as he wiped off my face. I wasn't gonna talk to him. "Sh..."He whispered. I turned away as I was being fed. I don't want this. Us. Like this. None of this. He paced back and forth in front of me as I sat there. I just looked at him. I wasn't gonna fight him. Why have you hurt me so much?Do I really mean anything to you?Do you even care? If so, answer me. I pleaded. I love you and there is still not a day that has gone by that I didn't question your love for me? Can you at least still show me signs of my sweet, nice, caring Ross? As if answering me, he brought me into his arms gently. My heart jumped.

These same arms that have once hurt me. They were around another. I was hurting and so was he. Why couldn't he just talk to me? This would all be avoided if he just mans up and tells me everything. I felt his lips pressed against my bare shoulder. It tingled. I reacted more than I thought I did because he continued to do it. "I'm sorry..."He whispered. I shuddered. So many of those and still nothing. No changes were being made here. The warmness then started to fill. No more cold boy. He picked me up and continued planting kisses. I pulled his hair and he set me down on my bed while still kissing me. Its not worth it. "I'm sorry...."He whispered making my heart beat a mile a minute. He then connected our lips.

It was easy for him.I wanted to be mad. I am mad. Fuming to be exact just like he was a few minutes ago but, there's just something about him.His touches grew softer and softer. His kisses making me melt. I was the wax of the candle as I was melted by him. He was the flame. His lips found my lips. He deepened it, taking my breath away. His hands slipping under my shirt. I bit my lip as his cold hands touched my skin. "I'm sorry..."He said breathlessly. Every time he said it, it did stuff to me. Why am I so easy? 'Your not. Your just being stupid. Think about all the times that he has hurt you. Don't let him get to you!' My mind spoke. "My mind says no your no good for me. Your no good but my heart's made up on you. My body can't take what you give to me. What you give, got my heart made up on you." It felt so good but so wrong. I'm mad at him. This shouldn't be happening. I felt the shirt roll off of my body. Before long all our clothes laid on the ground.

The lights were off and there was no sound. I looked into his eyes and they were pure. My sweet Ross was in there and I knew it. He was right in front of me. Our bodies collided with one another on the soft material underneath me. I wrapped my legs around his torso and my arms around his neck. "I love you.." I moaned softly as my nails dug into his toned muscular back. He took my hands and pinned them next to my head. "I love you. I'm sorry about this."He said driving me crazy. Sorry for this? What is this? He groaned.

He had complete control over my body. No signs of resistance was in me. A few minutes ago maybe. But now he's in control. I just let him do as he pleased. He sucked on my neck. Little soft moans escaping from both of us. "I want you to know. I love you. And I need you to understand me. You used to. Why not now?" He groaned. I do understand. I arched my back as he increased. "Ah...." I held onto his back once again. He took my hands and pinned them again. I took it all on my own. Love. Is that what he's talking about?

His lips didn't miss an inch off of my body. Since he couldn't show it or say it, he was expressing how he was feeling. He collapsed on me.I held him tightly. He held his weight and looked at me. I looked at him. Nothing but love was displayed. There was no anger. Just him. It was just me in his eyes and him in mine. He rubbed my shoulders softly and planted kisses here and there. I wrapped my arms around his neck.One on his head and the other right on his shoulder. I kissed him. He kissed back. After a few minutes of rolling around, he stopped. I looked at him confused as he pulled away from the kiss. "I don't want to lose you. I can't lose you".
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