I bought my tree
decorated it
two more days until Christmas
it was another holiday
of leaving feelings behind
three years of loving a ghost named Jaredbeing a number one
to no one
it's just a numbera nail on a wall
an odd person
asking for forgivenessone is me
saying yes
to being twotwo souls
but knowing that my soulmate
is living another lifeno matter how much I convince myself
that one plus one equals threethere I was
with a ring
on my finger
waiting for a ping
a truthful lingerwhy should I break David's heart?
while Jared keeps writing me poems
and all I want to do
is bury my body in them
die inside them
call
off this sham of a life
this mundane strife
be a junkie
smoke and drink
all day and night
all night and dayWhy did I say yes?
I would make it work
this would be my new beginningI sat down and took a deep breath
lined up the cigarettes
lined up my lifedidn't answer the phone when David called
It was ten at night
I should sleep
but I was thinking too much about Jared
and I knew I would fuck it all up
I knew I would.I knew that choices were for people who had the right answers.
I lit up my tree
wanted to go outside and stand
in the middle of the streetif I was dead Jared would not even know
if a car hit me Jared would never know
it was as if my right arm was cut off.
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You can't break up with a soul mate [a love story in poetic verse]
Poetry"Meet me for a cocktail, let's talk about Plath." And so begins the cat and mouse game between Jared, the atypical bad boy, and Dalia, the woman he has set his eyes on to make her a lover. In free verse, poetic style, read their story. " you walk...