You can't break up with a soul mate [a love story in poetic verse]

133 | open or shut

I said yes
still my walls were higher than ever
I could never be the same again
I could not go back to the beginning
the past is done
I did not want to be this woman
that waits for a man
to come to her
when he can
yet here I was huddled up with my knees up
wondering about this power he had
that I could give up my sanity
for a few days of reckless fun that will make me sad.

I got up packed my sun attire
wore my blue bikini that tied in the front
went to the kitchen to make a cup of coffee
the sun never stopped shining
on this side of the world.

Corfu was the type of island
you wanted to live in
and not stop dreaming in
it was more alive
than any street in Connecticut

I wondered about just staying here
never going back
to that life
was there anything really pulling me back
besides Jared?
And even that was questionable
he already had his life
I was just the cherry on top
how vulnerable I was.

The lady who owned the house, Liza
was the usual hospitable owner
It's 200 year old apartment
I renovated last year
You have supermarket, bakery, fresh fish shop, café and restaurants. Since you are ellinitha don't swim in the bay. It's for tourists not Greek people.

She had left treats all over the kitchen
and drew a map for me where to go swimming
where the locals go
so I planned to take a boat for  5.00 euros
and swim on Vidos island where the beaches were empty

the house had exposed bricks walls in every room
my bedroom was a tiny alcove with one bed
a brick wall
organza drapes on the top of the bed
but every other room was massive
a park in front of me across the street
Garitsa bay in front of the park
I could live here
it had a small European feeling
with a touch of home.
I went to a nearby cafe
smoked a cigarette
sipped my coffee
let the heat of the morning
enter my bones
felt that instant connection to the universe
as the sky
never changed
from blue.
I knew I was changing
I could feel myself evolving
into a new better version
of the old me.
I was in the moment.
Fuck the past.