the sun has not peeked out of the sky in five days
I was still choking on being a mother of David's children
how could he think I could be a good mother?
how could he love me when I was a total mess
I sat up in the middle of the nightthinking
David was sleeping heavily on the right side of the bed
I lit a cigarette and sat on the balcony with my coat on
It was four am
I should be quitting
I should be lovingI was fed up of all the "shoulda"
I never didJared had been sending me poems
like a mad poet
I read them and died a little inside
continued reading them like an addict
I tried to unblock his number
but I could not find it on my phone
I had no memory of it
I only remembered how his eyes
Looked up and down at me
when he was inside me
slowly thrustingI opened my phone
read his poems again
and again
died a bit more
and tried to go back to sleepI dreamt that Jared was in my kitchen
and I was baking him banana bread
we weren't talking to each other
only looking into each other's eyes
reading our minds
so easily
so effortlesslyit was as if he knew what I was going to say
I woke up with David caressing my back
and next thing I knew
I was moaning hard
in heat
like a wildcatmy sex drive was my constant
ready to go
and be loved
at any timeI sighed
Stretched
glanced at David
out of breathCoffee?
Yes
I got out of bed
made coffee
sipping it quicklyDavid walked into the kitchen
half dressed
adorable
I poured him a cupGot to leave fast, go home and get ready for work. I slept like a baby.
I love sleeping with you.Me too. I gotta go shower. You can show yourself out?
We kissed bye and I think I felt normal
for onceup until the phone pinged
on my way to workI pulled over on the side of the road
and read Jared's poemsI was feeling sexually energized lately
I don't know whyhis poems made me blush
I wanted just one more night with Jared
what harm would that do?
I knew he was a liar
a cheater
but I didn't care
I just wanted him for one last goodbye.No one would find out.
I felt sick to my stomach.
No. I had to stop thinking this way.
I muted his account.
No more pings.
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You can't break up with a soul mate [a love story in poetic verse]
Poetry"Meet me for a cocktail, let's talk about Plath." And so begins the cat and mouse game between Jared, the atypical bad boy, and Dalia, the woman he has set his eyes on to make her a lover. In free verse, poetic style, read their story. " you walk...