You can't break up with a soul mate [a love story in poetic verse]

155 | knowing what to do

by the time we took showers and got dressed again
it was seven p.m

i'm famished

me too

dinner time is usually from 9-10

that late?

yeah, after our nap we usually have a Greek yogurt with honey
Greek coffee and eat later

the night  is young here

wow, that's crazy

it's a totally different vibe

yeah, i'm kinda jealous to be honest
i'm hustling and working my ass off

yeah, it's just a different mentality

and i have tons of emails to reply back to

i was thinking we could go to a club later
meet up with my friends for your  last night

i only want to be with you, Dalia
Plus, I have to work a bit later
it's our last night do you really want to be with other people?

I felt guilty

no, it's fine, you're right.

I want to have you as many times
as I could before I leave tomorrow.
He squeezed my hand, stopped in the middle of the street and hugged me close.

Suddenly, the thought of him leaving
left me aching

yes, let's be alone, I agreed.

walking on the cobblestone sidewalk
holding hands
as the sun was about to set
it was as if we only existed for us
it was strange that he did not want to be around my new friends
i didn't like being a secret
i didn't like being this woman
agreeing with him
there was nothing to hide on this island
and yet
i always felt
a part of him
was not fully
one hundred percent with me.

i knew that saying goodbye tomorrow
would be the healthiest act
i could do for myself.

this was for me
not for him
and my guts whispered to me

you can do this
you can be alone
you are used to it
and if you never meet anyone
like Jared again
that is fine too
it was not meant to be
not the way
you want it.
you know what to do
you have known what to do
from the moment you found out
the truth.