It's complicated

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I didn't say a word. I didn't feel it was necessary. But he had to break the silence.

"Claire, could you explain to me why the hell you were hanging out with Luke. I thought you said that kiss meant nothing."

"Xavier please I'm not doing this right now. I'm way to drunk and your way to angry."

"You know if I didn't show up he would of tried his luck!"

"Yada yada yada, blah blah blah. I'm so sick of your bullshit and you telling me who I can and cannot hang out with."

"Your attitude isn't appreciated."

We stopped at his place and went inside. I went straight to the room but he stopped me by opening his mouth again.

"Where do you think your going this conversation isn't over yet!"

"Stop yelling your giving me a headache and I'm going to bed now."

He grabbed me by the wrist, spun me around and I backed up until I was against the wall. His eyes held a kind of playfulness in them. I spoke through gritted teeth.

"Move out of my way."

At this point I looked down to the floor. He playfully choked me and pushed my chin up so that I looked him in the eyes.

"You're mine, you understand me. I want you and I'll have you!"

"YOU DON'T OWN ME. You hear me!"

I pushed him away and stormed off. I was planning on slamming the door but he stopped the door.

"You do not slam the door in my face do you hear me!"

"Leave me alone!"

He pushed me on to the bed and got on top of me. He held my two hand down above my head. We stared in one anothers eyes for a split second before he kissed me.

Once he let go of my hands I pushed him off.

"You can sleep there or on the couch. You're not sleeping next to me I'm sorry."

"It's my house and my bed so I get to choice where I sleep."

"Fine have the bed I'll sleep on the couch."

"You'll sleep here next to me and I don't wanna hear anything!"

"You don't own me, Xavier. You're not sleeping next to me. And if you decide to I'm walking home."

"Claire, my house my rules."

I was about to get up when he got on top of me again.

"Don't fight me love. You won't win. Unlike you I like a challenge and your position is on the losing side."

"Fuck you."

"Oh you'd wish to."

"Get of me."

"Make me."

I couldn't do it. He kissed me and I couldn't help but kiss back. He once again playfully choked me. I couldn't say I hated it because I didn't I liked it more then I should of.

He roughened the kiss and a moan escaped my mouth. Why does something so bad feel so damn good. He bit my lip and let go, he broke the kiss.

"I'm sleeping next to you whether you like it or not."

"How do you do it?"

"Do what?"

"Get someone to feel so much just to let go."

"What are you talking about?"

"Nevermind just leave it."

I turned around and fell asleep. I was so tired from partying and then having to argue with an arrogant asshole.

The next morning when I woke up I was dressed in other clothes. Who the hell took it upon themselves to undress me?

"Where are my clothes?"

No answer he straight out ignored me. So I got up and went to use the restroom. I was used to slamming the doors when I was angry that I must of done it by accident.

I opened the door and there he stood.

"Thought we went over this and established that we weren't gonna do that again."

"It was an accident."

"Give me one good reason why I should belief that."

"I shouldn't have to give you one. Where are my clothes?"

"Room. On the dresser."

"Thanks."

I dressed and like usual he had to have his hands on me. It didn't work that way you can't fight with me and then just expect me to let you touch my body.

"Stop it right now. You don't get to do that. You don't get to be an asshole the whole night and then expect some nice surprise the next morning."

"What is your problem Claire?"

"I was the one drinking so I should forget not you."

"What's up with you?"

"You mean to tell me that you don't know I liked you before you and Veronica were together."

"I didn't."

"Well that's a bullshit lie because everybody knew, everybody but you apparently."

He picked me up and my legs wrapped around his waist. I didn't wanna do this but at the same time I wanted to. He leaned in and kissed my lips softly.

They were so sore from him biting them all the time. He placed even softer kisses on the places he bit me.

Once he put me down I grabbed my last few things and decided it was best I head home.

"Where are you going?"

"Home, Xavier. I'm going home."

"No."

"Yes."

"No!"

"Yes and you can't stop me."

"If you walk out that door don't bother coming back."

"I won't don't worry."

"What if I don't want you to go."

"You don't have a choice."

"Claire love please there's so much we have to talk about."

"No Xavier there isn't and you know it."

"We do."

"You know we wouldn't need to talk if you just got over your bullshit with Luke honestly. Because that's what this is all about."

"That bullshit with Luke you are referring to wouldn't of happened if you didn't kiss him and decide to go out with him."

"Xavier do you hear yourself. Just get over it all ready. We're not together and Luke is nothing but a friend."

"That's not what that kiss said."

"You see. This is why we can never have a descent conversation. Because you always have to bring up things that already happened. It's over and done with it happened and there's nothing we can do about it. I'm not in love with Luke or whatever."

"Then what then?"

"I'm not doing this today."

"That's what you said yesterday."

"Just leave it Xavier. You and Veronica belong together and we don't. So why don't you go to your girl and just forget we ever met."

"I don't want her I want you Claire. I like you."

"No Xavier you think you like me. How could you possible like me if you love Veronica?"

"I never loved her Claire. I just figured you wouldn't let me in so I dated her. But saying that out loud and seeing how things worked out I regret it. I should of been with you. I would of been much happier."