It's complicated

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I was on my way home when I heard my phone ringing. I picked it up and saw it was Emma. Fuck her what does she want? I ignored it and stopped at my moms places.

We haven't been spending as much time together as we used to. And there's so much I need to tell her. I rolled up onto her driveway and head inside.

"Claire baby what a surprise."

"I thought I'd drop by and say hello. We haven't seen each other in a very long time."

"Come inside honey. Theirs someone I'd like you to meet. This is Caleb. We work together."

"Caleb, it's nice to meet you."

"(Caleb) The pleasure is all mine Claire. Your mother said you were beautiful and she wasn't lying."

"Thank you. You know my name? And  what brings you here?"

"Yes I do, that's all your mother ever talks about. I was planning on having coffee with your mother. We didn't know you were coming but since you are here there's something we need to tell you."

"I'm listening."

"Honey Caleb and I are getting married."

"What?"

"I know it's a big shock and I'd understand if you didn't approve of the choice we've made."

My mother lowered her head. I wasn't angry or upset. I was happy for her. Since my father wasn't past she's been empty and alone. So seeing her happy makes me happy. I haven't seen her this happy since, I can't even remember if I've ever seen her this happy.

"No mom, I'm so happy for you. If he makes you happy I'm happy. That's all I've ever wanted for you."

"Oh honey that makes me so happy to hear that."

"Now that you've shared your news I have some things to get off my chest. For starters you remember Donovan."

"Yes of course. He's such a lovely gentleman."

"He's my boyfriend."

"What happened to Xavier. I was quite fond of him?"

"He's with Emma."

"What?"

"Yes and that brings me to my second point. Emma and I aren't friends anymore."

"What? Why?"

"She's not like she seems. She drinks, smokes, parties etc. And she stabbed me in the back by sleeping with Xavier. Which by the way didn't work in her favour because he knocked her up."

"She's pregnant. Oh dear, I'm so sorry."

"There's more. I went out a few times and had a few drinks but I never ever drove with a drunk person and I slept over. So if your angry at me I'll understand."

"Oh honey I'm not angry. Your young you want to try new things. You forget I was your age once. I'm glad you told me. It's a lot to take in but it's okay."

My phone rang once again and I saw Emma's name.

"Aren't you gonna take that hon."

"No mom, It's Emma I don't wanna talk to her."

I ignored the call and once again she called me.

"I'll be right back."

I went up to my room and closed the door.

"What do you want and why are you calling me!?"

"Claire I won't be calling if I didn't think it was urgent enough."

I heard Xavier yelling at Emma in the background. Oh for crying out loud.

"Emma go home I'll be over soon."

"I'm not leaving him alone."

"Listen to me. I know how bad he can get. Go home as soon as he's calmed down I'll call you."

"Fine."

"Mom umm I have to go. I'll be back soon."

I drove over to his place and went straight inside. He was smashing things again.

"Xavier."

He turned around with tears in his eyes.

"Claire?"

"What's going on why are you smashing shit again?"

"You should leave."

"Not before you tell me what's going on."

"What's wrong with you? Can't you fucking see I'm bad for you. You should get away from me."

"No!"

"I mean it Claire."

"Did she do something to anger you?"

"What do you care?"

"Fine have it your way. I'm leaving, you've calmed down so Emma can come back."

"I miss you Claire. She doesn't get me the way you do."

"I don't care you choose her so you'll keep her."

"I don't want her Claire. I want you, I love you."

"I'll be going now."

"Is it true."

"Is what true?"

"Did Donovan ask you to be his... Girlfriend?"

"Yes he did. I've moved on Xavier, I got tired and I found someone that wants me and loves me. You should do us both a favor and move on."

The tears came gushing from his eyes.

"So that's it you're done with me."

"Yes Xavier. And I won't be coming around anymore so please tell Emma to stop phoning me when you get out of hand. Donovan won't like it if I continue coming here."

"Why didn't you just give me one more chance. I could of fixed my mistakes, we could of been happy."

"I'm done giving you chances. If you really wanted to keep me you would of tried harder. And you'll never change. Your to set in your ways and I'm done trying to help you. Goodbye Xavier."

He grabbed my wrist and spun me around.

"Look me in the eyes and tell me you don't love me anymore."

"Let go of me."

He kissed me and I pushed him away. He looked shocked and then I slapped him.

"Don't you ever dare doing that again. Because next time it won't be me hitting you it will be Donovan. I'm happy with him and I don't need you anymore. I'm done with you Xavier. Done. Do you hear me, don't ever call me, text me or even try and talk to me."

"Claire, please don't go. Don't leave me."

"Goodbye Xavier."

I stormed out and hit my steering wheel.

"Fuck!"

I drove back to my mom's place and told her what happened. I couldn't look him in the eyes. Because even if I won't admit it to him I do love him. I don't want to but I can't help it.

Caleb took my mother and me out for some dinner and I ended up spending the night with them. Caleb seems like a nice guy and he makes my mother happy. So I approve.

I checked my phone to see if I had a text from Xavier but it seems not. Why I was checking only I would know. Donovans grandfather seems to be doing better which is a relieve.

I hope he comes home soon I do miss him terribly.