Embracing Sunshine (Completed)

Chapter 5 "Ignoring her Presence"

Hindi maintindihan ni Elaine ang damdamin nang haplusin ang bukol ni Francisco. Parang nagsisisi sya kung bakit pa sya lumapit dito tuloy parang hindi marendahan na kabayo ang kaba sa kanyang dibdib ngayon. She looked into his eyes, there are some emotions in it that she cannot read. Mukhang confuse din ito. May epekto din kaya sya dito? They stared into each others eyes, hindi nya na to kaya . Mahuhulog na ang puso nya. Out of nowhere, bigla nyang nahawakan ang puso, sumasakit. Parang naluluha na sya. She knows she cannot take in so much emotions.

"Are you okay?" Tanong ni Francisco na biglang nagtaka sa kinilos niya.

She took a deep breath and replied "Oo naman, ikaw naman kasi, bakit  ka  ba nangugulat , muntik na akong atakihin sa puso" She took a deep breath. She needed the air so her heart can breathe.

" I'm sorry , it wasn't my intention to scare you. It's just that I'm not used on making my presence known, at isa pa I have been leaving alone for two years. Hindi ako sanay na may ibang tao dito sa bahay"

"Masasasanay karin sa presensya ko". Napabuntong hininga sya. Kung gusto nyang masanay ito sa kanya she can only ignore the wild thumping of her heart whenever she gets close to him.

' Masasanay ka rin. Makulit kaya ako' sabi nang isip nya. Tapos pag nasanay kana makikita mo ang ganda nang mundo' sabi nya sa isip tapos dinugtong ' maganda kasi ako' hindi nya pinakita pero natatawa sya sa biglang takbo nang utak trying to ward off the awkwardness she felt when she touched his forehead.

That's the spirit! Dapat nyang ibalik ang dating sigla, walang malisya , trabaho lang.

Mabuti nalang at mabilis syang mag adjust at mag bago nang mood. Ganito na talaga sya dati pa. Madaling magbago ang mood. One minute, galit sya the other minute madaldal tapos mabibigla ka na lang nag tatampo na sya. 

Tulad ngayon, five minutes ago kinakabahan sya ngayon naman, lumalandi na ang utak nya. Siguro dahil only child sya kaya medyo na spoiled .Halos kasi lahat nang mood nya ay pinapakisamahan at iniintindi nang mga ito. Bawal kasi sa kanya ang sobrang emosyon. If that happens , she will faint and that can again shorten her life span. Short na nga ang life span nya mash-shorten pa.

"Upo ka muna, kukuha kita nang yelo" Pumunta sya sa kusina. Sumandal sa pader at kinalma ang sarili. 'kakayanin ko to, at least may buhay akong mabago kung sakasakali' Kausap nya pa rin sa sarili. She knows for her self she cannot fall but at least somehow she hoped that she could change him.

She took a pack of ice from the ref , binalot ito nang towel, took a deep breath at lumabas nang nakangiti.

She sat down beside Francisco and started dabbing the ice on his swelled forehead.  Mukha atang may sapi na naman ang mama. Nakakunot ang nuo, nagsasalubong ang kilay at hindi ngumingiti. All hail for the Icy and cold Doctor. Bakit kaya bigla bigla na naman itong napasimangot? Okay naman sila kanina ha.

While trying to tend on the swelling of his forehead , bigla nitong hinawakan ang kamay nya and coldly said.

"Ako na. Go back to your room and sleep. Kaya ko na to" After saying those words , he stood up and  walked back to his room.

Nakatunganga syang sinundan ito nang kanyang mga mata. Hala anong nangyari? delayed reaction ba ang galit nito sa paghampas nya nang baso dito?

 Natauhan nalang sya nang marining ang pabagsak na pagsarado nito nang pinto.

Anong nangyari dito?

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Hindi maintindihan ni Francisco ang sarili. He cannot stop himself from getting affected of Elaines touch. Kahit ang paglagay nito nang yelo sa kanyang nuo , damn, instead of coldlness, what he is feeling is warmth coming from her hands.

 Is he starting to get attracted to her? No it can't be. Even Genevie  did not caught his attention this easily. Nahilamos nya ang hitsura out of frustration. Hindi nya nga maintindihan why he had gotten himself a haircut. All the while ang iniisip nya lang kanina habang nagpapagupit ay para makita ang ngiti nang dalaga pag nakita sya. Well hindi rin naman sya nabigo but damn! why is he feeling this way. Naiinis sya sa sarili. He cannot control his self and most especially he cannot control his feelings.

Binagsak nya ang katawan sa kama. He tried hard to close his eyes so sleep can visit him but it was futile. He ended up grabbing the beer on his bedside table and drank it in one go.

After two years , for the first time, hindi na si Genevie ang rason kung bakit hindi sya makatulog. 

He is staring blankly in the ceiling not knowing what to think, what to feel or what to do. For the first time, aside from sadness, pain and grief, he started feeling something he cannot describe. Those feeling have been foreign to him  and he does not want to feel those feelings again.

He does not plan to fall again. This is just a mere and simple attraction plainly because it has been some time that a woman entered his life. He should cut this off before it can even start.

He has decided. He must put his walls up again. He should guard his heart and most especially he should not let his self fall deeper.