we get home from picking her up and she runs inside the house
"woah what happened?" Hayden asks
"her ex boyfriend said rude things about your biological dad and dad dying and she cried about them"
"what did he say"
"something about her going through dads like it's a book"
"wow i told you he's an asshole"
"okay calm down with the hard words. i think you should go comfort her and talk to her about it. Zach's at Mason's and you're in the same boat as her with the dad thing"
"i'm definitely going to talk to her. you know he's lucky he's 14 and i'm almost 18 cause i would be hurting that kid"
"trust me i know that"
he walks away upstairs and i sit on my couch holding Hunter
"life's so easy when you're a baby huh" i say and he giggles
"i wish i was a baby like you, you don't have to deal with this stuff. also i would be so adorable." i kiss his cheek and he giggles again
"i love you so much" i sigh and lean back
i close my eyes to start a nap but i get a buzz from my phone
C- hey, i was just wondering how you're doing today
S- hi corbyn thank you for texting. today's been tough
C- oh i'm sorry what's wrong?
S- well it's just the 1 year anniversary of my ex husband dying and everyone's emotional. also during my daughters trip her ex boyfriend said some mean things about the dad and it upset her
C- oh i'm so sorry about that. if you want to talk i'm here
S- thank you Corbyn can i call you please
C- of course
i bring Hunter upstairs to his room and put him down to take a nap
i leave the room and call Corbyn
"hey" corbyn says answering the phone
"hi"
"you wanted to talk"
"yeah i needed to talk to someone. sorry if you're busy i will hang up"
"no no don't worry i'm not busy i can talk. so what's up"
"i'm just having a rough day. it's hard because i'm sad and thinking about my husband but i'm trying to be happy for my kids. i don't want them to see me cry but really all i want to do right now is just cry. and with what happened to my daughter i want to be positive and make her happy but i'm just not feeling positive right now"
"i'm sorry that you're dealing with this right now. i completely understand that you probably just want to lock yourself up in your room and cry because you're sad. but instead think about all your amazing memories with him. my friend recently died from a car accident and of course we cried it was a death but we then thought of the good memories and remembered him for that. of course your situation is different. it's your husband, the father of your children, but still you have to try"
"i understand what you're saying. i have been trying to do that but it's hard. but thank you for the help."
"of course if you ever need someone to talk to again i'm here. by the way i had a lot of fun on our date"
"i did too"
"do you maybe want to go on another one sometime. i get it
if not but i really enjoyed our time"
"yeah i would love too. just tell me when"
"awesome well i have to go to the studio now"
"okay have fun with whatever you do there"
we hang up and Rae comes downstairs
"mom can i have a hug" she asks with tears in her eyes
"of course come here"
i grab her tightly and she cries in my arms
"baby what's wrong"
"i'm just so sad. i miss daddy so much i want him back"
"i know and i miss him too. but he was such a happy person and he would hate to see you sad right now"
"we didn't have enough time with him i only had 5 years"
"i'm sorry. i wish i could make you happy, i hate seeing you cry"
"i just want to hug him."
"how am i though for hugging"
"really really good i love your hugs"
i hug her tighter and she cries more
"can you take a nap with me"
"of course"
