Crazy In Love

Chapter 36

I contemplated whether or not I should take it.

"Your brother is dead, your two best friends are too, and you are the reason why one of them is dead. Your girl left you and don't want anything to do with you. All you do is make mistakes after mistakes and let everyone down even when you're trying to do good, you'll never be good enough, can't you see? You best pop that shit" The voice in my head said.

I'm stronger than this. I've been fighting my thoughts since I was 13, I can't let it get to me now.

"It's over Onika. You've lost. Your kids will see how much of a disappointment you are and would end up resenting you just like you did with your dad, you're just like him" The voice said again.

I close my eyes shaking my head.

I look in Meek's hand and took the pill away from him.

"Yeaaa! That's what I'm talking about!" Meek shouted and before I knew it, everything that was bothering me didn't even wander my brain anymore.

"Yo! Shorty! Come here!" I shouted at the girl I rejected earlier, "And bring them bottles with you too!"

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Beyoncé's Pov.

I roll my eyes waiting for Onika's ass to show up, she knows she's supposed to pick the twins up.

"Your mama always seems to make mommy mad" I say to Sayintè who was just staring at me blankly.

I look at Blue who was sleeping like a lamb.

I waited an hour and a half and Nicki didn't show.

I shook my head dialing her number for the 50th time.

"Don't even bother showing up! I swear I hate your ass, Nicki!" I scream leaving the voicemail then throwing my phone far away from me in frustration.

It wasn't like Nicki to neglect her responsibilities, I try not thinking the worst.

Blue and Sayintè both was now fast asleep. I cooed watching my babies snore lightly..

I heard the front door open and I knew it was Onika's bitch ass.

"You ain't hear me honking from outside?"  Nicki came in being all loud.

"Shit, my bad" She says realizing the twins are sleeping.

I shook my head getting up to face her. " Why are you so late, Onika?" I ask "And why the hell do you smell like you sprayed weed perfume on you?" I roll my eyes. She knows better than to come for the twins smelling weeded, I don't want my babies to smell that shit.

"They make those?" Her eyes were low and red, I knew she was high as a kite.

"I'm not doing this with you today." I shook my head turning around until she grab my hand and spin me back around to face her.

"Are they ready?"

"Duh. They've been ready for hours!"

She smack her lips moving past me.

"Uh-uh, you not picking them up smelling like weed" I say folding my arms.

"Chill out, ma" She ignored me and continue going towards the twins.

"I'm serious. I don't have a problem with you smoking but you know how I feel about Blue and Sayintè smelling it. You knew you was picking them up, why would you come over here smelling like it?"

"My bad. I honestly thought the wind would've blew away the scent by now"

"So stupid" I mumble walking past her.