The Heart Of A Fighter

Chapter 31. Ala-ala

Pakiramdam ko ay nawala ang animo'y mabigat na bagay na nakadagan sa dibdib ko. Ang animong pakiramdam na may nakakabit na kadena sa mga paa ko'y biglang nakalas. Ang pakiramdam na lagi kong nararamdaman noon ay tila naglaho agad nang mangyari saakin ang aksidenteng iyon.

Yes. It was indeed a horrific accident, but it was the reason why my lost memory just came back. I remember all the things about me, and those were actually clear....and vivid.

The moment the last I've seen my father. The last time that he can protected me even if it will cost his own life. That was actually more horrific accident because I lost the only family I have...the one who protected and saved me until his last breath....the one who put me always in a safer place. The one was considered me as one and only princess. The one who always wants the best for me. The one who loved and took care of me genuinely He's always been there for me. He'd been my father and my mother. He'd always telling about my mom, telling how lucky he am to have my mother as her wife. He even told me before that I have the same features as my mom. Stunningly lovely beautiful, according to him. And that time, I'm so happy because he told me how beautiful my mom and so am I. Actually, I wasn't able to meet my mom because she had a congenital heart disease, her heart was weak. And right after she gave birth to me, she passed away. That what's dad told me.

Habang kinikwento iyon ni dad saakin noon ay hindi ko mapigilang umiyak. Sa isip ko no'n ay ako ang dahilan kung bakit nawala si mama. Well, kahit saang banda naman talaga tignan ay ako talaga ang dahilan. I was blaming myself before but dad told me not to because nobody wants that and it was God's decision, he said. I smiled but my eyes kept on watering that's why dad cracked a joke and we're just found ourselves laughing while I was crying at the same time.

Talaga namang napakasarap balikan ng mga masasayang ala-ala hindi ba?

Pero napakasakit din balikan ang mga ala-alang naging dahilan ng pagka-durog natin.

Sa pagkawala ng nakadagan sa puso ko nang magbalik ang mga ala-ala ko kung sino talaga ako ay siya rin palang muli kong pagkadurog ng mas pino.

Sana pwede pang ibalik ang oras. Mga oras na kasama ko pa si papa. Yung buhay at nayayakap ko pa siya. Kung pwede sanang balikan, edi sana naagapan at naiwasan ang aksidenteng iyon na siyang bumawi sa buhay ng ama ko. Pero hindi na iyon maaari. Kailangan kong gumising sa katotohanang mag-isa nalang ako.

So, For now on, I have to be independent, stronger and braver to face the reality. To face what's waiting for me out there. And to haunt them down whomsoever reason why I left here all alone.

And I, Cyetheara Athena Ferret, promising to give my father's justice.