Fate

Chapter One Hundred-Twelve

Chapter One Hundred-Twelve

The feeling brewing in my chest tightened as I waited impatiently for the bell to ring. I was ready to get to class and see what Alec thought of our story. Zayn's and my story. The romantic true story based around his parent's lives. The story that started it all. Alec hadn't said a word about the book other than not to worry so much. "It'd be fine, Ariel." He'd told me this morning and I'd frowned up at him.

Today was the last day of school and my mind was racing. In some ways junior year seemed to have gone so slow but in other ways, it had gone so fast. Like it flew by. I stared at the empty seat beside me. Zayn wasn't here and I wondered if he would be. Things were awkward between us but then when weren't they?

Ever since the incident in my room where we'd kissed and nearly done more we hadn't really spoken. We'd made yet another mistake listening to feelings we didn't need to be acting on. We'd proved why that wasn't a good idea time and time again. Yet I still thought about it.

What happened, what almost happened, what could have happened. Truly what could have happened? Would Zayn have stopped if I hadn't? Would we have continued? Would he have cheated on Melinda with me? Why did the thought always bring me happiness and shame?

Happiness and imagining doing something so intimate with him. Even the joy of briefly sticking it to Melinda was exciting. However, I wouldn't be the other woman and I wouldn't stoop to her level. I had no intention to hurt her or to have Zayn betray her. We'd done the right thing by stopping. Whatever could have happened didn't and shouldn't have.

I thought back to when I'd told the others it had happened. I hadn't wanted to as I'd been ashamed but I also didn't want to keep this from them. Feelings vary on what everyone thought.

"You almost lost your virginity," Nick had bellowed much too loud for my taste.

"Nick hush!" Id hissed.

I had not almost lost my virginity when I wasnt sure what would have happened. Surely Zayn would have come to his senses and stopped before that happened. Even if he hadn't surely I would have. There was no way it would have happened. Not over my dead body.

"She is not losing her virginity tell she's married!" Liam insisted and I glared at the hypocrite.

"Says the one who lost it and also took Litas," Nick reminded.

"We all make mistakes," he shrugged. Besides Ariel knows better."

"Does she? She's also the one who went out and met Jane Doe by herself."

Stupid Nick.

"He's left me alone since then hasn't he?" I challenged.

"That remains to be seen," he returned.

"Anyway if I lose my virginity before marriage it will still be a long long time. If I don't wait until marriage and I plan to."

"Tell me how that works out for you." Nick snickered. As I thought before. Stupid stupid Nick.

"That's what I said too," Sunny said thoughtfully.

"Marriage is overrated," Reggie laughed.

"I think it's a very sweet thing," Maggie offered, earning a warily glance from Liam.

"Of course the virgins agree." Reggie chuckled.

"There's nothing wrong with being a virgin!" I snapped.

"No, there isn't." Matt offered with a smile.

Reggie rolled his eyes, "Matt, man. Tell me you're not a virgin too!"