I've been looking at the fireplace for more than 5 minutes, trying to get back to the reality. I still can't believe this is happening. To me. I refuse to believe God hates me so much that He did this to me.
"Nicole."
Tears are rolling down my face and I hug Jake again. I need this... him. Fuck, I even diserve this... him.
"I can't! I can't believe this! I can't! This is not happening to me! Tell me I'm dreaming! Please, tell me this isn't real, Jake! Please!" I yell clutching his t-shirt in my fists.
"It will be ok. You can talk with them whenever you want. It will be fine. Time will go by... you won't even notice."
"I can't!"
I scream one more time feeling the pain overwhelming me. Physically and mentally. Everything hurts. I feel how my lungs start to hurt, but I can't stop crying.
I lose my strength to hold onto Jake and I let him go ending up on the floor. He comes after me. He hugs me and whispers something in my ear, but I can't hear him. All I can see, are my parents' faces, which I won't see for months. All I can hear, are their voices.
Everything is happening to me. Now. When I need them the most.
"You can still talk. You can still see each other. It will be ok, babe."
Fuck this! I won't see my parents for Christmas. We won't give each other presents this year. We won't have breakfast together. We won't decorate the Christmas tree together. We won't be together.
JE LEEST
Viciously in Love
TienerfictieCheck out my Instagram page: gold_n_dark for aesthetics and songs for the chapters. One in a million. The chances of them meeting were one in a million. And yet... They met. And more came. Neither of them met love until now. Each one h...
