Fate

Chapter Forty-Eight

"I always have a lot going on," I chuckled.

"Yes you do but it keeps things interesting. Dating you is exciting."

"In a good way or in a bad way?"

" A good way. There can't be a bad way with you."

"Yes their can," I admitted.

"You can't blame yourself for things you can't control."

"What about the things I can control?"

"What can you control?" he looked at me expectantly.

"A lot more than I do."

"Like what?"

"My feelings."

"I don't think you can control everything about your feelings."

"You don't?"

"You can't help who you love. That's something I believe. One day you might stop loving them but I don't think there's anything you can do to stop those feelings."

"Why are you so understanding about this?"

"I know you love him but you also love him."

"I'm debating that."

"I guess I could be angry but I'm not."

"Why not."

"If the world was perfect we'd only love one person but it's just not always possible."

"Do you love someone else?" I questioned.

"I love you."

"I love you too."

"What is it that makes you fall in love?" he asked.

"Me personally or just anyone?"

"You personally."

"I don't know really sometimes it just happens I guess."

"What was it with Miles."

"Wow what a throwback to feelings," I chuckled nervously.

"Whatever it was it must have been good if you still feel that way about him."

"I guess the first time I ever laid eyes on him way back in elementary I'd always thought he was cute. Of course, back then we were just kids and he was just this cute little kid. Then back in middle school and high school, I noticed how much he'd grown and I was attracted to him. Never thought I'd actually end up getting with him but when I did he was just the sweetest guy.

He never pressured me into anything. He was so kind, caring, and sweet. He has all this money and yet he wasn't this person who waved it around or waved around the fact he was popular. It was almost like living a dream to be dating that popular guy while I was friends with another popular person. I just didn't realize how much of a dream I was actually living at that time. Anyway, it's fair to say he was my first true love. Maybe you never really get over your first love. Guess thats one thing that was true."

"Yeah, I get that. What about Zayn?"

"I don't know. I really don't know. I guess the occasional soft spot he acts like he has. It's pretty lame he fools me that easily right?"

" No, it's not lame. It just means you love with all your heart and thats rare."

"So why do you ask about them? I don't mind but I'm wondering how it doesn't bother you to talk about this."

"I want to know what you like and what you love. You're my girlfriend so it's my job to know these things."

"Good point," I chuckled.