Spidey one shots ( Requests Open)

Without You (songfic)

Hi everyone this is only my second time doing a songfic so please don't be too harsh. I will only write Deadpool if requested mostly because I can't write him that well but I do have a few things he'll play a roll in so I'm trying
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Peter's POV

You said that we would always be, without you I feel lost at sea

Wade said that he would never leave, that we would always be together and then he left. He left me asking what did I do wrong even with the reassurance from my friends I still believe I did something wrong for him to just up and leave me with only a small note saying sorry. He couldn't even say it to my face, I felt lost and broken I didn't think he'd ever stoop so low, I loved him & he threw it at my face.

through the darkness, you'd hide with me, like the wind we'd be wild and free

We were happy or at least I was happy, Wade saved my life and made me feel like I'm worth something when I started to have doubts. He helped me see the light in life and I showed him that I didn't care what his face looked like I loved him anyway, we were free to be whatever we wanted to because we had each other.

you said that you'd follow me anywhere, but your eyes tell me you won't be there

I could tell that when I looked at him he didn't have that look of love in his eyes but a look of guilt, he promised he'd always be there but he couldn't hide his emotions screaming out from behind his eyes. He was always going to leave, he looked sorry when he said he was going out that night and I waved him off but the next morning everything he owned was gone & I just knew he wasn't coming back.

I've gotta learn how to love without you, I've gotta carry my cross without you

now I've got to learn to move on from wade, I've got to deal with all the PTSD and everything that has messed me up the last few years, just everything without anyone there to help me but others need me so I have to get back up off the ground and move on

stuck in the middle and I'm just about to, figure it out without you

I've got to pick my life back up from the ground, the best thing about hitting rock bottom is the only way to go is up. It's not easy or fast but it's a start and hopefully, it'll get easier

And I'm done sitting home without you, fuck I'm going out without you

It took a while but eventually, I met Harley, now I'm going on a date with him

I'm gonna tear the city down without you, I'm goin' Bonnie and Clyde without you

I've gotten my whole life back together now, I don't flinch every time I hear his name or see Deadpool on T.V although now that he's become a hero I like to think I had something to do with his change of heart, maybe that's just me

Now I'm running away, my dear, from myself and the truth I fear

I never wanted to believe that wade was gone because well, who would. I left the apartment and didn't look back, that's how I met Harley funnily enough. I guess my fear was that I wasn't enough and it's true

My heart is beating I can't see clear, how I'm wishing that you were here

I'm not ashamed to admit that I was a mess, patrolling until the sun was coming up just so I didn't have to sit in the silence of the apartment that felt deafening

you said that you'd follow me anywhere but your eyes tell me you won't be there

Thinking back I should have been able to tell that, that was the last time I was going to see wade, ever. The perks of being nieve I guess, I almost wish I go back and do it all again but then I remember that I've got Harley now

I gotta learn how to love without you, I've gotta carry my cross without you

Now I have someone who is willing to stand by me, who doesn't care how fucked up I am that I wake up screaming because I couldn't save that one girl or that one guy because I moved a second to slow

Stuck in the middle and I'm just about to, figure it out without you

Now I know that great beginnings are often disguised by tragic endings, nothing is truer because now I have the person that I love and a whole family, even if I lost him

And I'm done sitting home without you, fuck I'm going out without you

I'm happy to say I've moved happier and better than ever, even if it hurt but nothing comes without blood and tears

I'm gonna tear the city down without you, I'm going Bonnie and Clyde without you

Now I'm living and moving, even though I loved him I have to move on

Without him!