BTS Imagines

Park Jimin

Just one more step. One little step forward was all it would take. I wouldn't have to suffer anymore. I wouldn't have to stand all those hate comments.

I myself wondered sometimes how it could come that far. If I think about my life, I had everything I needed. I had friends, I had a job, a house... Everything necessary.

But I guess my friends were the wrong ones. Since the guys debuted it got quite hard to keep in touch with them because they were always traveling, practicing or recording. I wasn't mad at them for dragging me into the public.

I was mad at the people who judged me without even knowing me. Saying horrible things about me. The guys always cheered me up, comforted me and were there for me when I needed them the most.

I knew it was unfair towards them. Unfair towards all the people who knew and loved me properly for the person I am. But I just wasn't able to stand all this anymore.

In the beginning, it wasn't that bad. But the more famous the guys got, the scarier the threats of their fans became. Sometimes I wasn't allowed to go out on my own because the death threats got worse and worse every day. I was hated by the world for being friends with BTS.

I knew all of the guys for like an eternity. We were close before they got famous and basically, nothing had changed between us since then. They always took good care of me and we were kind of like a family.

Thanks to Park Jimin, my oldest and best friend, I got dragged into their group. And in the beginning, I loved it. But now I sometimes wish he had never introduced us.

I felt the wind on my face as I looked down the building. Should I really do it? What was I even living for, when so many people wanted to see me dead. If I wouldn't do it, I'm sure someone else would sooner or later.

I took a deep breath and closed my eyes. I didn't want to admit it, but I was absolutely terrified. As I opened my eyes again I heard a voice behind me.

"Y/N! Please don't! Don't jump!"

I recognized the voice within seconds.
"Jimin, stay back", I said and didn't turn around. I couldn't face him right now.

"Please, we will find a way, like we always do. Just please, don't do this", he said and tried to sound calm but I knew him too well. I knew he was even more terrified than I was.

"No. Not this time. I can't stand this anymore Jimin. I just can't", I said quietly but I knew that he understood me.
"You can't just leave me! You can't just leave all of us. We need you. I need you. We've been friends in like forever and now you just want to throw everything away? Do you really hate your life that much?"

"You don't understand how I feel! None of you!", I said.
"I do Y/N! We get hate comments and death threats every day, just like you. You just have to learn to ignore these people, because they neither know you, nor me, nor Yoongi, they know none of us properly! They just think they do and get jealous while thinking about us as persons we would never be", Jimin said.

"It's different though. I know you guys get hate comments as well, but you also get tons of comments saying how perfect you are and so on. All I get is how they want me to stay away from you and kill me", I said.

"As I said, those are the jealous people who make up weird things in their minds. Please, don't listen to them. They know nothing about you. You are perfect just the way you are. You are my best friend Y/N, I can't lose you and I won't let you jump. Just come back here, I beg you!", Jimin said and didn't even try to hide his real feelings anymore. He sounded totally desperate.

"I'm sorry Jimin. You know I love you", I mumbled and looked down.
"If you love me, then turn around and come back home with me", he said.
I shook my head no and bit my lip.
I felt my heart beating in my chest and tried to ignore it.

After taking a deep breath, I turned my head a little to look at Jimin for the first time. The moment I looked into his eyes, I couldn't help but start to cry. I felt so guilty. I knew he deserved better.

"Y/N", he said and took a step towards me.
"Stay back!", I immediately said and looked at him.
"I don't want to hurt you. I just want the best for you", he said.
"If you would, you would just let me jump", I said and immediately regretted it.

"You don't mean that", he said.
"Just go Jimin", I whispered and looked back down to the dark street. Just one more little step was all it would take.

"No!", he said and took another step towards me. I shrugged and accidentally lost my balance. I stumbled and closed my eyes, knowing that this would be it.

"No!", I heard Jimin scream and suddenly felt two arms around me.
"I won't let you jump", he said and dragged me away from the edge. I grabbed onto his shirt as my crying got worse.

If he had reacted half a second later I would have been dead by now. And I was glad he saved me now that I thought about it. We sat down at the ground and he held me close. I hid my face on his shoulder and continued crying.

"I'm so sorry Jimin. You deserve a better friend. Someone who isn't as dumb as me", I cried.
"I don't want anyone better. You are a perfect friend. You just need to realize that. I love you just the way you are. Just please, never scare me again like this", he said and leaned his head against mine.

"I don't know what I'd do without you", I mumbled and tried to calm down. I was shivering and sobbing badly.
"Your life would be half as interesting as it is now", Jimin said. "But probably a lot easier."

"I promise I'm going to talk to you the next time before I do something stupid", I said and looked up to him.
"I hope you remember that. I'm always here for you, okay? You can talk to me about everything", he said softly and looked me in the eyes.

I nodded and tried to smile.
"Come on now, we're going back home", he said and slowly stood up. I just nodded again and instead of walking Jimin lifted me up and carried me all the way to his car.

"Thank you Jiminie", I said and relaxed a bit.
"Always", he said and smiled.
And to this day, I can't describe with words how happy I was that Jimin saved me that night.

He became totally overprotective, but in a cute way. He always made sure that I was alright, didn't let me read any comments and was by my side as much as he could.

Park Jimin.
It was Park Jimin who saved me.
Saved me and gave me another chance.
And I swore I would take it.
Every day I gave my best to show him how thankful I was. And I knew, he noticed it.