BTS Imagines

Kim Seokjin

One month. One month without him. Just because he kissed another girl while he was drunk.

He was totally desperate when he told me. He begged me to stay with him. Told me that I'm the only one for him. But I couldn't forgive him. He just hurt me too much.

The other boys tried to not choose a side because they were friends with both Jin and me. But even though he hurt me I still missed him badly.

I missed to wake up next to him in the morning and to fall asleep in his arms at night. I missed it to kiss him and to be touched by him. I missed it to know that he was always by my side and supported me. Every inch of my body missed him, although I tried to ignore it.

Today I just came back home from grocery shopping, when I saw a familiar car standing in front of my house. Jimin was sitting on the stairs. He smiled as soon as he saw me, got up and took some of the things I was carrying.

I thanked him, gave him a quick hug and then walked into my house, followed by him. We brought the things to the kitchen and I started to put them into the right places.

"How are you?", Jimin asked and took off his jacket.
"Are you okay?", I just asked instead of answering his question. He looked at me with pity and sighed.

He knew exactly how I still suffered from my breakup with Jin.
"Why don't you just talk to him one more time? He hasn't been in a good mood since your breakup", Jimin said.

"Jimin! I don't want to see him! It's his fault", I said and went into the living room. I sat down on the sofa and Jimin sat down next to me.

"Yah, Y/N! I know both of you too well. He made a mistake and he regrets nothing more than that. And both of you still love each other. You need him just as much as he needs you. Don't be so stubborn and give him a chance!", Jimin said with a soft voice.

I shook my head no and said: "I don't love him anymore. And I certainly don't need him!"
"That's a lie and you know it", he said.

"If you're just here to talk about Jin, it'd be better if you just go", I said coldly because I knew that otherwise it wouldn't take me long to give in.

"I'm sorry. I just wanted to check if you're alright", Jimin mumbled. I nodded and looked at him for a little while.
"Did he send you?", I then asked.
Jimin bit his lip and didn't say a word.

"That's so typical! Tell him we're done. I don't love him anymore. I don't want him anymore. I'm not going to get back together with him. It's his own fault", I said and tried to hold back my tears.

Jimin softly laid his hand on my shoulder and looked at me. I looked at the floor instead and took a deep breath.
"You love him just as much as you did before, am I right?", he asked quietly.

I shook my head no and tried to stay stubborn, even though he was right. I did love Jin more than anything else in this world. No matter what he did to me. He was drunk, so he couldn't really control his actions, right? However, the fact was, he did cheat on me, no matter if drunk or sober.

Jimin looked at me, shook his head and pulled me into a hug. I hugged him tightly, hid my face on his shoulder and couldn't help but start to cry.

"Shh, everything will be alright", he softly whispered and stroked my back.
"I don't know what to do Jimin. I miss him so much! And I still love him, more than anything else. But he hurt me so much, I can't just forgive him", I cried desperately.

Jimin thought about it and then said: "Listen Y/N, I know how much he hurt you. But he was drunk, he couldn't control what he was doing. Sure, that's a dumb excuse but you know just as good as me that he loves you more than life. I know he would die for you without hesitating. You won't get anyone like Jin ever again. All you have to do is forgive him."
  
I nodded and bit my lip.
"If you want to, I can take you back with me to the dorm. Talk to him, I'm sure you guys will make it up", Jimin said softly.

I hesitated for quite a while but in the end, I gave in and agreed to come with him. About an hour later we sat in Jimin's car on our way to the dorm. The closer we got, the more nervous I got. Jimin noticed it quickly and started to comfort me.

We walked together into the dorm as we arrived. I hesitated at first but I knew that Jimin had a point.

"Jin hyung? You have a visitor!", Jimin shouted and closed the front door. Just a few moments later he was standing in front of me. He was as beautiful as ever. But still, he had changed.

He looked sad and had huge bags under his eyes. Actually, he looked as if he didn't sleep in weeks.

"Hey", I mumbled insecurely and looked at him.
"Y/N", Jin whispered and seemed like he couldn't believe I was here. He slowly walked towards me. I took a step back, not letting him out of my sight.
He immediately stopped and asked: "Should we go to my room?"
I nodded and we made our way to his room.

It felt weird to be back in here, yet I still felt kind of comfortable. I looked around and sat down on his bed due to old habits.

"Can I.. Can I show you something?", he asked insecurely and looked at me. I just nodded and he sat down on his bed as well. He made sure that there was still space between us to not make me feel uncomfortable and took a deep breath.

He closed his eyes and started to sing a song I didn't know. The lyrics were beautiful and yet so sad. You could tell by his voice that he truly meant what he was singing.

"I.. uhm.. I wrote that song for you", he said after he was finished. I looked at him with tears in my eyes. When I opened my mouth to say something he quickly interrupted me.

"Just listen, please. I made the biggest mistake I've ever made. I was way too drunk and that girl was flirting with me all the time. I know that's no excuse and you have every reason to be mad at me. I even understand if you can't forgive me. But I want you to know that I love you. I love you more than anything else. Those four weeks without you felt like hell. Even worse than hell! I can't be without you, I need you. You are a part of me. The most important part of me. If I'd lose you, what would I live for? Y/N, I know, nothing I say can make things as they were before but... Will you give me another chance? I promise something like that won't happen again. Ever! I love you so much.."

I started to cry while he was talking and hugged him as soon as he was done speaking.
"I love you so much Jin", I mumbled.
"But it will take some time before I can fully trust you again."

Jin nodded and gently pulled me closer to him. I continued crying and didn't fight him.
"So, do you give me another chance?", he asked quietly.

I just nodded and looked him in the eyes.
"I love you Jin."
"I love you too, Y/N."

"Finally!", someone shouted.
Jin got up and opened the door to reveal all of his roommates.

"Were you guys listening the whole time?", I asked and wiped away my tears.
"Yes. And we're glad that everything can go back to normal now! We need our chef, cleaner, dad..", Yoongi started but got interrupted by Hoseok.
"We need our happy Jin! And it's good to see both of you happy."

"Alright, thank you", Jin said, shook his head and pushed them out of the room. He closed the door and we laid down on his bed.
"I'm sorry. You know that they're cowards", he said.
"Nevermind, I love them too", I said and smiled.

"Not more than me though, right?", Jin asked.
"I could never love anyone more than you", I said.
"Good. Same goes for me", he smiled.

And for the first time in those four weeks, both of us were happy again.